Chapter31:Beggar

"Look at me please, have mercy Beauty." I don't look at the man on his knees next to my bed. I face the window, watching the rain hit the panes. A reflective motion to the emotion I am currently feeling. Rain and silence before storm and vengeance. I am resigned to my life, accepting of my faith and what I need to do. "You won't even look at me," He says in utter shock as though he is the one I wish to kill, will kill. In a way I will. 'My momma told me that life was a moment, a beggar had 24 hours in a day just as a Rich man. It's how we spend it that makes one more appealing than the other." Mercy says breaking me out of my mind. 'Which one was more appealing?" I am been sarcastic when I ask, hoping she would leave. 'Truth? My momma is bat-shit crazy. I asked her that one time, she said the streets were better, because it didn't cover up the ugliness of the world. It prepares you for beauty, so one day when it comes, you will see it while everyone else stands blinded. My dad said that there ain't nothing in the world more precious than beauty's breath." 'I don't know why you here?" Killer asks Mercy from next to me. 'I told you everybody else is hunting down the last two guys. You two are the only ones not doing anything." Almost two months has gone by, two months since I lost my baby. Zero left after I asked him to go. I needed to harden myself, and I couldn't do that with him standing so close. He did beg me a few times, spare his brother, have mercy. But I can't. He is the only one who can't see that. He is back now. 'I think a trip to the mall would be a great idea now, what do you say guys?" Hannah comes from wherever she has been hiding. I am sitting on the couch, Killer is on the other couch watching Basketball and Mercy is painting her nails. The smell of the nail polish is potent. 'I'll come with you, I need to get some stuff that way." Killer says going into protection mode. The reason Killer and I were at home while everybody hunted the last two guys that were affected by t95 was to guard Hannah. 'Me too." 'If we all going to go why don't you and Bee go and Mercy and I will stay here." Killer's jaw hardens, not liking Hannah's plan at all. But the house is safer and Mercy can more than handle herself and protect Hannah. 'Okay, we'll fetch Jo on our way." We take Spades 4x4 and head to the supermarket. Killer and I are both quiet. Since Zero got back all those weeks ago this silence pretty much sums up everything that has been my life. Kylie was shot and I haven't even spoken to her because I just can't. My loose slacks I took from Den a month ago and black sneakers don't say badass biker. The leather jacket I am wearing with the prospect sign on it does. 'Those fluffy chocolate mallows." Killer is standing with his hands behind his back. His cold eyes frowning in a scowl when the shop lady in front of him still can't find what he is looking for. I have my hands on the trolley handle trying really hard not to laugh. 'Chocolate coated Marshmallows, fifth aisle bottom shelf, you welcome." Zero scares the crap out of me as Killer marches off like he is on a mission. 'You miss me." Zero's voice is right behind me. 'Are you trying to give me an early grave," I say to him when he places his hands around my waist from behind and a small kiss to my neck. One would think with all his pleading and all the things keeping us apart would draw a wedge between us. It hasn't. Zero takes my body almost every night. He tells me he loves me twice a day and a bit by bit each day that passes it gets easier for him. But me, I am fighting constantly. My war is with my mind. 'Well, I was thinking more of surprising you for a picnic by the river." I shake my head as he waggles his eyebrows, 'Does it come with strawberries." He smiles, and I think to myself, how a man like him can love a woman like me. Maybe miracles do happen. We spend another twenty minutes in the supermarket. Zero takes over the trolley and I help Killer get the stuff on the list with lots of extras. Two trollies later the three of us are walking to the big blue 4x4. Killer clicks the boot open as I get there. The two of them start unloading the stuff in the boot. I see the ice-cream stand on the corner and my mouth waters. 'I'm getting ice-cream. What flavour do you guys want?" I ask them. 'Mint," Killer says as Zero says Vanilla. I started working part time at the Night Club owned by the Satan Snipers. It earns me some cash. Zero doesn't like me working at the club but he doesn't have a choice in the matter since River offered me the job. 'One mint, two vanilla sugar cones please." I ask the old lady with the white apron on. 'I have not seen you before, aren't you a pretty little thing," She says to me in a cheerful voice. 'Thank you," I like her. 'I heard there were some new bikers in town, didn't think it will be a lady. My god daughter, Lauren used to date one of you years back. They were two lovers, perfect. Didn't turn out that way in the end. Poor man got himself stuck with Hannah Evans, she's a New Yorker." 'Can I have my ice-cream now?" I don't like this conversation any longer. Old lady is a nosey bitch. She shouldn't talk shit she doesn't know. The lady must heed my unfriendly tone of my voice because she hands it to me quickly. '3 dollars," She says. I sigh, realizing I can't get the money from my pocket so I hand her the ice-cream. A man's hand comes from behind me and places the money slap on the table. 'Keep the change." My body freezes at the sound of his voice, but this time I am not weak. I am prepared when he grips my hair. 'Let her go," Zero says from the middle of the parking lot. 'I can't do that brother," Thorn answers in a mocking voice. My foot lifts up just enough and I slam the heel partially on his foot. I grab his hand holding my hair and pull him close to me so he stumbles on my back and I lift him over me. His back hitting the ground. He screams in pain. I stand there not caring that people are rushing out of the supermarket. Not caring for the witnesses. Let them see. Zero rushes over to me and his brother. I can see he is split between us. So, I make the choice easier as I walk past him closer to Killer. 'Leave me," Thorn yells. 'Amariya," He screams and still I walk. The gun shot that goes off has me stopping and turning slowly. Zero is on the ground, and the nosey old lady that served me an ice-cream has just earned herself a bullet to the head. 'You have been on my list for way too long Thorn." 'Beauty No." Zero yells from the ground as he attempts to get up. 'You have taken lives that wasn't yours to take." 'Beauty, let's talk about this," Zero begins to get up but Killer is already there. He shocks Zero with an electric Taser until he is down on the ground. And I look into Thorns eyes, pull my gun out as he lifts his and I shoot. Death, the only part of our life already predicted from the moment our fetus is formed. The how's, when's and where's may vary, but we all eventually die. Death is the finale of moments, only when that moment comes it's a lasting moment, the only moment in our lives that is meant to last. What comes after death? Now that is debatable and depending solely on the one who is doing the answering. The believers might say heaven or hell. A few may have some varieties on the name but the places are the same, one meant for the good ones and the other meant for sinners.