Chapter 34

"Stop, kill me! Don't kill him!" I screeched as the veiled souls took my son and I ran after them, trying to clutch the thin air as they strangled my son. "No!" I screamed as I collapsed crying. "Miss me?" Alpha Raden appeared and smiled. "Where is my son?" I growled. "Six feet under the ground." Raden chuckled as he vanished and I was left. Soulless. "Fuck, Destalia! Wake up!" I opened my eyes to Alpha's urgent holler. I was sweaty from the horrid nightmare and inhaled before exhaling deeply to calm my overdosed heart. I cried pathetically into my palms, earlier on, the rest of the day went on until I had this nightmare when we slept, the clock read four am and I nearly woke our son up, the Alpha tore my palms away from my red-rimmed eyes. "I can't handle this, it's tearing me apart." I sobbed hysterically as I connected my eyes to his eyes grimacing at my pain. "It's just a relapse, baby, you are stronger than this." He said as he kissed my cheek and wiped my eyes as he laid beside me and my face was in front of his. "I am going to die," I sniffled as I cried more, the heart raking sobs tearing my emotions apart with a little amount of blood seeping on my neck from clutching it unintentionally while I was having the nightmare, "please, don't let them take my son." My tears gushed as I held my mate's shirt desperately, my body trembling at my heavy sadness. I felt myself breaking apart, fate killed me. "They won't, I promise you." His tears leaked onto my face as he gave me a tiny kiss on my trembling lips. "I won't let them, please stop crying, you're hurting me." I wiped his eyes with both of my thumbs. "I am sorry, it's just I am tired of being so strong, so human and so in fear that it was too much for me." I whimpered as I wiped my eyes with my long sleeved sweater that was now reeked of my sweat. He held me to his chest as he soothed me with sweet nothings until we both fell asleep. ••• I liked to think that we choose our own fate but life hated us enough to the point where everything I wanted to be turned against me. I wanted to be alive enough to watch my son get married with a smile on his face, I wanted to fix his injuries and hold him when he cried. I wanted fate to give him the life he wanted for anything that would cost me, for him and my mate's lives, I would give up mine. God damn it, why are you so gloomy today? It's barely eleven am. Lace complained and she was right, I had to get a grip on my emotions. It was a fast spiral, I could either give up and let it consume me or stand and fight against that destruction cycle. I would not let that curse get to my son even if I had to risk my life. "Morning, my princess." He hugged me, his torso against my clad red sweater with my black leggings and boots. "Morning, babe." I smiled and fixed his ruffled hair into a nice quiff with my hands, his hurricane eyes stared into mine in such an intensity that it took my breath away, that man loved me too much and I loved him back as much. I contemplated earlier at writing a letter to him if the curse took me so early but he would get angry because he was an optimist. He went into the bathroom after I was done and held Kaden in my arms, looking into his serene grey eyes that expressed so much. "I am going to be a better mother," I promised to myself and to him as I kissed his cheek and he giggled with the white symbol glowing on his forehead. He was happy with me and I felt nothing more than affectionate towards him. I placed him back in his crib with his teddy. Instantly, the world spun around as I clutched my head again. "Sorry, again." The Moon Goddess quickly mumbled. "I just wanted to tell you that you could take off the curse for your son since he's just a newborn and you aren't late but in order to do that," she hesitated and I dreaded what came next out of her mouth, "you have to die, it's your choice." "Isn't there any other way for both of us?" I asked. "No, I'm sorry, he has a chance but you don't because it's too late for you." She quietly said. "Okay." I nodded. I knew what I had to do. Descending down again, the migraine disappeared at the right time since the Alpha finished and sat beside me on the edge of the bed. "I talked to the Moon Goddess," I exclaimed and he looked shocked before scowling. "Bad news, right?" He guessed and I nodded, biting my lip. Telling him wouldn't be easy. "Yes but our son gets to live if I do this," I explained. "No, forget about it." He disagreed before listening to me. I sighed and interlocked my hand with his. "I have to kill myself for our son to live, he has a chance." I gushed out and he stood up and stormed out. We will do anything to live as long as we can. Lace sadly suggested and I stared down at Kaden as tears went down my eyes. One did, both at the line.