Chapter 26

I wander outside going away from the crowd. I'm in Charlotte's place as she invited us for her parents anniversary. Harry drove me and Mr Han here as all her close colleagues were invited, Charlotte kept on telling me that Mr Han doesn't join parties but he attended today because I'm here, she was giggling and smiling in the thought of us together. Standing close to the pool I bend to fold the edge of my trousers, sitting on the tiled floor I put my legs in the pool looking up at the beautiful dark sky with twinkling stars. The gathering of her parents and family made me remember them and I feel guilty when thinking about it. The thought of them has always been in my mind but I still cannot remember who they are until last night when I pictured Mr Han and me with them around. "Stargazing," a smile makes its way on my lips when I hear him, folding his pants he takes his seat next to me his legs in the pool as well "What's in your mind?," "I just remembered someone," I say softly looking at the sparkling water. "Family," he asks resting his left palm behind him on the floor he leans back looking up at the sky. "Are they in another country," he questions after a few minutes of silence. "It's complicated,"I utter resting my palms behind my back I look up at the sky too. "Did you runaway or what," he chuckles looking at me and then at the sky again. "Mr Han is always good at guessing," I smile thinking about how miserable I was " I just thought staying away was the best thing I could do for them ," I don't know why I began to open my heart to him,I don't know why I am saying this to him but I just let it out to make me feel better "Just imagine when you wake up and see strangers around you, everyone of them taking care of you and looks at you in concern but you have no idea who they are and why they are doing it. Every time she looked at me and asked me whether I remembered her,my heart clenched as I didn't," a sigh leaves my lips when I look down at the pool again,the image of Amy appearing in my mind " I don't know,I just didn't know how to face the situation, I felt bad for not remembering them," my lips twitches to a smile " To be honest I tried my best but I couldn't," "So you left them behind,"he asks his voice calm and low. "Hmm, Don't you think it's a selfish act?," my voice comes out as a whisper. He sits straight and looks at me but I don't dare to meet his eyes "No" I look at him as soon as he answered ,this question has always been troubling me thinking that I was selfish,I moved away from them back then because I didn't want to hurt them,I thought that being away would make them and me feel better. But it never made me feel better. "Will you go back?," he asks his lips twitches up to a gentle smile. "I would like to," I look down at the pool again as his eyes are driving me crazy " But I don't think that they will forgive me," "They would,"he answers like he is sure about it. "I don't think so..but I really did it because I....," I pause when his words hit my ears. "I trust you," he says his voice low which made me to look at him immediately. All his words makes me feel better, he understands why I did it,I thought he would tell me that what I did was lame and it was stupid. But he didn't. He moves closer while I look into his eyes my stomach feeling summersaults and my heart beat rising, he runs his left palm behind neck, moving closer he places his lips over my forehead which made me to close my eyes when he kissed my forehead,I stay there statued ,loving his touch and loving this feeling right now. Removing his lips away from my skin he looks at me into my eyes "I think that they will understand you,"he utters. My eyes begins to prick with tears, I haven't opened up to anyone not even Dylan but I did it to the man whom I've known for the past few weeks. "And I will as always," he whispers ,his words took time to reach my mind but after it did my eyes widens in surprise. What does he mean by 'as always' "What.......," "It's cold out get in," he cuts me off getting up he walks in.