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As soon as she approached, you immediately said. - What did I do? So, it was either a discussion, a point of opinion or a real conversation. Even though I still could never love him the way I wanted. It caused me extreme sadness to consider how good she was, and how unworthy of her I was. My hope was burning that I could have a better heart. All this happened, I always talked about it many, many times with my beloved doll, even though I never loved her, even though my godmother how I should have loved her and how I felt I should love her, if I had been a better girl. She was one of the underworld mediators and judges who was designed and recommended by a contact in the human world to work and live in that city. This, I suppose, made me shyer and more withdrawn than I naturally was, and I cast myself on Nenê, as the only friend I felt comfortable with. Even though when I was still a small child, a baby barely out of the frauds that I didn't know about in the world, where anything that happened that had a lot to do with it, she was a great teacher. I had never heard about my mother, even if so little, I had never heard about these distant worlds, before I came of age, even if I had so little about my father, who was an old mediator, but my greatest interest was the respect from my mother. Even if I remembered, all this was about I had never worn a black dress, even if I never showed it, besides the time when I went towards the old grave and my father's burial, when I was shown the grave of her, when my mother said goodbye, when she would travel to other worlds, she would never have returned, not before my possible death. I could travel to the supernatural worlds, to visit her, but she would be too far away to return to the world of the living, before the celebration, even though the world of darkness and the dead was a supernatural and different place, far away from the energy of the city. and the living. In this situation, I was never told where she lay, and in addition, I had never been taught to pray for any relative, except for my godmother, and it was among the agreements that a hearing was reached between you of darkness, between sending and indicating the woman who would become the housekeeper, this time when I conveyed my thoughts about Mrs. Natasha, Even though she was our only employee, who lived in the mansion, she turned off the light when I was in bed (another very good woman, although strict towards me) and she just said: In which the city is always night. Good evening, Esther. – She always left there, leaving me alone. Even though there were still only seven girls at the neighboring school, where I was a semi-boarder, and even though they called me Astrid, Solveig, and we knew them at home, even though they were all older than me (I was the youngest there), but there seemed to be another separation, they were all magicians, witches, ladies of chaos, who were taken to that school to learn to be mediators and get involved in the art of magic. That's how it happened that it stayed between us beyond this, as well as them being much more intelligent than me and knowing much more than I knew. Even though each of them, in what could have been the first few weeks of my going to school (I remember this very well), invited me to go to their house to attend a little party, which was held among the members of the clubs, in which everyone was very interested, at that time, when it was always Friday night, that was always a great joy. Still, even my godmother wrote a very dry letter on my behalf, even though she was declining the invitation, and I never set foot there, so that I could leave and never come back. During the cloudy days when I attended that school, a few days a week, there were dance days and night parties at school on other birthdays, even though they always found time for parties, especially on birthdays. I had much rejoicing in each house on other birthdays, as I knew from hearing the girls tell each other. Even though on my day when there was, that security, my life, which was the day of my birthday, it was the most melancholic day in the house throughout the year. I mentioned the fact that my understanding becomes quicker when my affection also becomes quicker, unless my vanity deceives me (as I know it can deceive me, for I can be quite vain without suspecting it, although in truth I do not suspect). As for my temperament, it is very affective and perhaps I would still feel that wound if such a wound could be received more than once, with the vivacity of that birthday. Dinner was over and my godmother and I were sitting at the table, in front of the fire, that was when the clock was ticking steadily, the fire was crackling; no other sound had been heard in the room or the house for how long. I don't know, but it happened, due to agreements, debt payments, your mother should have left, it was an agreement anyway. Even though I looked shyly, from where I was sewing, at my godmother and in her face, I saw that she was looking at me with sadness: I think it would have been better, Astrid, if you hadn't had your birthday, if you had never been born! That way, she said, I would think it would be different, both the emotional speech and the debts that would be paid. I didn't know it at the time, but my father, who registered me, wasn't my father. Still, how oh! dear godmother, tell me, I pray you, tell me whether my mother died when I was born. - Now, no, I won't say anything more. For us to be okay, don't ask me anything else, girl. My godmother, even if she begged, would still say nothing more about my mother. Even during my insistence So, say it now, after all, dear godmother, please. What did I do to her? I don't know why she left, when they said there was an agreement between the representatives of men and demons. So why am I so different from other kids. So, tell me why this, even if it was my fault, godmother? Wizards, seals, and debts, as well as ancient creatures, such as werewolves and demons, respect their rules and debts. - Still, don't leave. Oh, tell me something! In addition to the pain, I was afraid. The revelation could be horrifying and even frightening. So, I was considering all options. It was about grabbing her dress, even though I was begging, kneeling at her feet. In the meantime, while I begged, she said. - Let me go! – When I released her, she was frozen in contemplative silence. His shadowed face had such power over me that it made all my vehemence cease. When I raised my trembling hand to grab hers or beg, or ask for forgiveness for my existence. That's how I felt all the burning, with all the ardour I was capable of, but I held it back, when she looked at me, and let it fall on my beating heart. At that time, when she lifted me up, sitting with me in front of her, in her chair and, placing me in front of her, she said slowly, in a cold and serious voice. - You are the mirror, so similar to her, that you seem like a copy. - Both your mother and you, Esther, are her misfortune and you are her misfortune, even though the time will come, with a change, which will be delivered by the storm. - You reflect her, which will not take long, all of this in which you will understand it better, in which it will also leave a mark, as much as this you will feel its burden and its mark as no one can feel but a woman, just like her. – Your godmother said. - Since it is so, I must forgive, as much as her face did not soften) the harm she did to me and I will not speak of it anymore, although it was greater than you will ever know, feel the pain in your future. - She said. Even so, someone who will never know it, except me who suffers it. As for you, unfortunate girl, you became an orphan and disgraced from the first of those evil birthdays. So, ask the gods, that daily, you cannot carry your legacy, all this so that sins do not occur, so that your evils do not fall on your head. Now live according to what is written. For that moment, forget your mother, now let everyone else do your unfortunate daughter the great kindness of forgetting her. - Get out of my sight. - She said. - So, do me a favor and stop asking. Even though at that moment when I was leaving, that place was as cold as it was there. – In which she added the following: