Chapter 45

I looked at him for a few seconds. I really wanted to just walk over to him and hug him right now. Just to be in his arms one last time and feel him close to me. We weren't going to date anymore, so we won't be in each others arms anymore. We won't even be close to each other. Of course, I didn't do that though. He would looked at me weirdly and wondering why I did it. I wouldn't have any viable explanation. I didn't want to scare him and show my feelings in anyway. "Thank you for helping me. I'm glad you did." I said before things get awkward. "You know, the pleasure was all mine." He smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes. It wasn't his usual confident and happy smile that I was accustomed to. I looked at the floor for a bit before facing him again. "So um, thanks again." "Yeah, anytime." I left his house and walked over to mine feeling utterly incomplete. I couldn't explain the feeling, but it was as if I left my heart behind. "Hey, where's Tyler?" I turned from my locker towards the voice. I saw that it was Seth who was behind me. I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know. I don't think he's here as yet." Seth watched me with a confused expression. "When I saw you, I thought he was here. You guys always come together." "I left home early this morning." I stated before bringing my voice to a whisper. "And besides, we don't need to come to school together anymore now that our fake dating has come to an end." "Are you serious?" He asked in shock. "Yeah. What did you expect?" I asked confused by his shocked expression. "And what's the big deal anyways? You should have known that it was going to come to an end sooner or later." "Yeah but..." He said trailing off. I finished getting my books from my locker and closed it. Turning to face him once again, I lifted my eyebrows at him in question. "But what?" He shook his head. "Nothing." "Right." I said brushing aside Seth's weird behaviour. "Well, I've got to get to class." He nodded his head before giving me a salute. "I'll see you then." Shaking my head at him, I turned and walked to my class. ++++++ I was sitting in English class, when Tyler enter the classroom. It was the first I was seeing him since I left his house yesterday, so I was a little uncomfortable to meet his eyes. As he entered, I held my head down and pretended to be scribbling something in my notebook. What surprise me however, was that he came and sat beside me. I was shocked even. I didn't expect him to because he hated to sit at the front. I normally have to force him to sit up here with me so that our dating would look authentic. I thought that since he had a choice now because we weren't dating anymore, he would've sit at his usually seat at the back but he didn't. I slowly turned my head to the left and looked at him. When I did that, he looked at me with a small smile on his lips. Seeing his smile caused my heart to skip a beat before beating rapidly. "Hey." He greeted. "Hi." I returned. It seems like he was about to say something else, but decided against it. After a while, I realized that we were still staring at each other, so I turned my head away and focused my attention back in my book. I didn't know that this would've been so hard. In the beginning of our deal, I had thought that when it ended we would've gone back to our regular lives without any complications. I would totally forget about him and he would go back to being a womanizer who I will avoid like the plague. Yet, this was the complete opposite. Seeing him right now, brought into perspective how much I miss us being together even though it was fake. I miss talking to him and I miss being close to him in an intimate way. I couldn't explain it, but he had become my confidant; someone who I could talk to about anything. I mentally shook my head from those thought. I couldn't afford to think like that. I need to get him out of my thoughts. That was the best thing for me. It hurts too much to think about him. Okay Emily, you were only fake dating. It doesn't mean anything. I thought to myself. The sooner I got that into my head, the better. It won't be easy, but maybe eventually I will get over this. The teacher came shortly after that and class began. ++++++ At the end of the school day, I decided to walk home. I left school as soon as the bell rang, because I knew that Tyler was going to offer to drive me home and I didn't want that. It's not that I had anything against him, because I didn't. I just wanted to be by myself for a bit. It still hurts thinking about him being with someone else and I also wanted to come to grips with my feelings. I needed to control them so that I could carry on with my normal life. I didn't want to embarrass myself by allowing Tyler to find out that I went and did something stupid by falling for him. After seeing Tyler in English class, I only saw him once again. I was at my locker getting my books for last period when I just decided to look towards the end of the hall. As soon as I did that, I spotted Tyler looking at me. He was surrounded by a group of his friends. When I had looked up at him, he dropped his gaze and turn back to his friends.