Chapter 32

Anita brought her wedding card for me, she asked if I can be her chief brides' maid but I have already given myself a good retirement both from catching flowers at my friend's wedding and also from being among the brides maid. My Dad almost changed my name to 'a flower girl" because I go to other people's wedding and return with a bouquet of flower. I was never lucky to be the one in a wedding gown. Almost every of my friends are far ahead with their husbands or fiance. I'm left here with no particular man to call mine. In three months' time I will be completing 30years. Life has dealt drastically with me but not fully because no matter how hard it get, I still try to live every day at a time, I find reason to be alive. I don't know how long living like this will go on but I don't think I have any choice over whatever life throws at me. We sat and talked and I brought up the case of Jojo and Richard, and asked her why she did not inform me even after she discovered about their secret relationship. Anita said she confronted Jojo and they almost fought because of that which was the reason they stopped being friends. She did not want to tell me because I will be hurt and may not even believe her. But she knew someday I will find out because nothing can be hidden forever. Richard and Jojo were not together anymore and even if they are married to each other it still doesn't bother me, I have moved on. I accepted to be at her wedding as a guest but I rejected her offer to be her chief bride's maid. Ohio came to the office within the week, somehow I was always happy to see him. Melinda said she will be coming by Saturday and is two days to go, while waiting for that day to come I have to speak to Ohio. I don't know how it will go but I was determined to talk to him and probably apologies to him. I was looking out for him until I saw him, he was with my boss again. it was very unfortunate because I couldn't approach him. He looked over at my side before walking out with my boss. When I got home I decided to call him that night. 'Good evening Ohio! I greeted calmly as he picked. 'Becca, how are you…? 'I'm good. You were at work today….i wanted to speak to you but couldn't because you are with my boss. 'What about please? What do you want to speak to me about…? 'i…nothing serious. Just to say hello and to ask if you are mad at me? You told me that you are my friend but your cold attitude makes me uncomfortable. There was silent at his end, he gasped into my ear calmly before saying. 'I'm still your friend Becca and I'm not mad at you. Maybe not totally. But I'm speaking to you now because we are friends and I see you as such. I don't talk to everybody. I give you audience anytime you calls, if I was angry, I won't answer or speak to you. 'My sincere apologies if I offended you in anyway Ohio. If you are truly my friend please stop being cold towards me. It makes me want to cry. I swallowed my shame and pride to do this because I couldn't hold it all in again. I…I'm just sorry for everything Ohio. In any way I wronged you…please…forgive me. I was just confused and afraid, I did not understand why you rejected me that night. Maybe I'm not your type, not good for you…or maybe because you can't cheat on your wo…. I'm sorry again. I'm beginning to sound like a broken record. I have to go now… I quickly ended the call. I wiped off the tears on my eyes. I just don't understand why I'm too emotional. I wish I have a little of Jojo's kind of heart. Nothing hurts or moves her. I messed up the whole phone talk again, all I planned to say was to tender an apology and nothing else but my emotions were ahead of me and I began to say things I didn't plan to say before. My phone rang. Ohio was calling me back. I cleared my voice before answering. 'Becca, are you alright? 'Sure, I'm fine. I'm always running ahead of myself. Sorry about the way I ended the call but I'm alright. 'Okay. I can't be mad at you and I hold no grudge against you. Becca, I'm sorry about my cold behavior but probably because you made it obvious that you don't want me close. You are in a relationship and engaged…I respect that. I don't want to be an intruder. Or causing problem between you and your man. You said he is a jealous guy and do not like seeing any other man close to you so I decided to keep my distance. I wish you the very best Becca and I want you to be happy…. There was a knock on my door, I ignored it. The conversation with Ohio was very important to me and I need to tell him that I'm not in any relationship. The knock came hard and film, even Ohio can hear it from his end. He probably thinks is my supposed boyfriend that was at the door and quickly said good night to me even before I will have a chance to explain myself he ended the call. I was angry at whoever that was knocking continuously, loud and none stop. I went to the door and it was Jojo. I was very angry with her and did not let her in. I stepped outside and stood boiling angrily. 'Jojo, you are knocking like a crazy lady…did you want to bring down the whole house? 'Why are you panting like this Becca? I have been knocking slowly but you did not respond, I thought you were on top of a man and couldn't hear me….hahahaha! You know such enjoyment can get to the brain and even make one deaf. Which was why I decided to double the knocking so that whatever holding you will let you go. Okay…sorry if I interrupted any fun moment. Leave the way let's go inside. She try to walk pass me but I stepped in the way, blocking her from passing. 'Not today Jojo, go back to your house. I'm not in the mood for your useless rant over men tonight. Jojo laughed out before saying. 'I hope your 'honey" did not break up with you again like Richie did. Because you sound so angry and beaten. Sorry, I was only kidding….don't take it personal. Anyway, talking about men….well, Silas is one hell of a man. I have already showed my interest to register in his gym class and also get his body massage. I need those strong hands of his on my waist, Becca, my waist is paining me and I will like to get a good massage from Silas. Maybe in his bedroom or anywhere private. He told me he likes you but you two are not an item…like dating and mating. Well, you cannot even handle such a man. You will pass out if he falls on you during bedtime fun. You need a simple man like yourself….i hope your 'honey" got good actions. I do want to meet him someday…to see how cute he is and check out the kind of guy he maybe. You have eyes for cute guys…I also do. That's why we are best friends forever…hahahaha! I turned back and started going inside, she followed. 'I said go back to wherever you are coming from. I'm not in the mood for your entertainment. I want to be alone, don't you get that?? 'Okay…okay. I get it. Maybe I will come back another day when you are in a better mood. I can sense your man pissed you off today. Let me go and knock at Silas gate, I will tell him that I came for a gym night lessons. Special exercise meant only in bed and mostly enjoyed at night. We can gym all night to the following morning…it burns fat faster than any other type of exercise. Hahahahaha! She winked at me, laugh out before walking away. I went back inside and locked my door. The following day, was a Friday I was in the office when I saw Ohio walking in with his mistress. The beautiful lady that usually comes to the office with him. She was really beautiful with good body shape and she dressed well just like Mr Ohio. It was almost time for lunch, I wanted to wait to see him again before he leaves but seeing him with the beautiful lady was not encouraging. I went for lunch and was there when he came down with the same lady and ordered for only fruit salad with coleslaw. The lady asked for chips but it was not available. She ended up asking them for the exact thing Ohio ordered. My stomach tightened up in jealousy, I wish I can also order for the same fruit salad and coleslaw just like Ohio but I had my food already which was simply a bow of plantain pottage with fish. While picking at my food, Ohio came to sit opposite me. I looked up from the bowl to him and greeted shyly. His food was served and the lady also came to sit beside Ohio, they were both making me uncomfortable. I managed to look up at him and he was eating his salad in silent, same with the lady. I still wonder why he was eating here, his food is usually taking to him either in my boss private office or his own separate office which was close to my boss own. Sometime he only comes to take coffee and walk away. I don't understand why he was sitting comfortably in front of me eating with ease.