Chapter 40

I watched him combed his hand into his head, rushed to the bathroom and I can hear splash of water. I went to meet him there, he stood splashing water on his head and face. I asked him if he was alright. He stopped and stare at the mirror, took a white towel and began cleaning his wet head and face without a word. I can see his bare chest going up and down. He was still in his trouser. I coiled my hand around his chest while standing behind and kissing his back. He gently moved me to the front, kissed me for sometime and as I try to remove his belt again he stopped me. "Becca, I'm sorry. We can't do this. I don't think I'm fully ready for It. Maybe not now. Please. I know you want me, Becca....I also do... even more but this is not the time. I'm sorry I caught you off guard, if I didn't do that I may regret my actions later. I love you and don't want just a night stand...I want to spend every day of my life with you. I just want you to know that you means so much to me. He gently kissed me again before leading back to the room. He grabbed his shirt from the ground where it lay carelessly and tossed it to his wardrobe side. Ohio took out another ironed shirt and wore. I also dressed up properly and allow him take my hands into his own. We went out and straight to his car. It was 9:16pm when we left and arrived at my place 10: 54pm. He looks shy or ashamed to look at me but still manage to give me a goodnight peck. He stayed in his car and waited as I went inside before he turned and speed off. Within the week, I saw him twice at work. He was back with his corporate appearance. He checked up on me during his second day within that week and we even had lunch together. We talked about everything but none of us mentioned the Sunday night. I was even begining to think that JoJo is probably right about his sexuality. What if Ohio is truly impotent like JoJo makes me believe? I still don't understand how he manages to say no to a woman who he claims to love. Whenever the going is good and I began to think I have gotten him down that will be the time he will will break loose and give unnecessary excuses. Maybe Ohio doesn't have an active manhood because if he does he wouldn't have allowed me to leave his place that night or the night we spent together at my place doing only kissing and talking until he got tired and slept off. Saturday came and he was over at my place to take me to see Lili. I was all dressed up before he arrived because I was so determined to know who this Lili was. We have gotten over the last Sunday night and was back with our usual self. I was doing most of the talking while he drives. He turned to the road that looks familiar. I know the road very well but didn't say anything. He drove until we got to a big restaurant. I was shock as the place stare back at me. It was my favorite restaurant, where I usually come to dine with Richard and it was the same place Richard brought me to before breaking up with me. Ever since then I never stepped foot there again, coming back after staying away for so long brought back lots of unforgettable memory. That night was like a suicidal night, my heart was shattered into pieces. I thought I was going to die but here I am again back to the same place but with a better man in my life whom I'm not yet sure if what JoJo said about his manhood is true or not. He received a call again from Lili and was saying "yes...yes" during the short conversation. He laughed, maybe Lili said something funny. I felt a tingle of jealous with the friendly way he freely speaks to Lili. I guess he wants us to eat first before we continue to Lili's place. But despite the place used to be my favorite restaurant, I was not hungry. I breathed deeply as Ohio took my hand. He asked me if i was alright, I nodded even as the whole memory of that place came rushing back. I asked him what we are doing in a restaurant, if he wants to eat or what. He replied " we are here to see Lili. Becca, this was our initial plan...we both agreed on it today and you have looked forward to meeting Lili. Why are you suddenly acting uninterested and cold? He squeezed my hand gently to make me feel comfortable. I followed him quietly without another word, wondering to myself if Lili was waiting for us in a restaurant. Immediately we entered the place, a Lady appeared, spreading out her hands to Ohio who took her into his arms. After they gave each other warm hug, I saw the lady's face clearly and almost screamed out. she also looked at me with shock written all over her. Which means she recognized me too. I was dumb founded as I looked into the face of the kind Lady that took me home that night. She even gave me her complimentary card and I didn't even know where I dropped the card after that night. Her word came rushing back to my mind. …This is my business card, just in case you need someone to talk to. My name is Lydia. I live with my family…my husband and two sons close to the restaurant where I work. Listen to me, this is not the end of life….i understand how painful and thorn you are right now but give yourself time, you will be fine. You are beautiful and will get over all this. Is his loss not yours, don't blame yourself for any of this. He was blind not to see the good woman in you. I can lead you inside if you want… Those were her exact words to me that night. I remembered every detail. The realization baffles me greatly. So, all this while Ohio's Lili was Lydia. But who is she to Ohio? Lili was beautiful, young and very cheerful. I feel at peace seeing her again, it was a good time to thank her properly for that night she showed me sisterly love. It was indeed a small world, I never thought I will meet her this way again after avoiding the restaurant for a very long time.