CHAPTER 35: GAVIN'S SECRET

Rian's POV: "Alex..." "Hmm, yes baby?" He turned to me with a smile on his face. We're now in the kitchen, and he's cooking some breakfast for us. Cari's already out for her early morning routine. "Can we talk about yesterday? About Gavin? " He took a deep breath before he nodded. "Baby, I can't promise not to get jealous again, but I promise not to overreact like what I did yesterday." "Ahm... we... we have an upcoming competition." His eyebrows scrunched in confusion. "Upcoming competition? What's that... is that related to your band?" "No. It's a part of the thanksgiving event of the company." "Okay. So what kind of competition is that?" "It's a dance competition. Actually it's dance for a cause. Half of the prize that the winner will get, it will go to their chosen charity." "Uhuh... and?" "I am one of the participants." "Wow! That's a great baby. What type of dance are you going to perform?" "Actually we're all going to perform a modern dance. And me and my partner choose to compete with a couple dance." "Okay...." "And Gavin is my partner." His smile dropped as his expression turned into serious. "Baby----" "Alex, please." "Baby, I can't let you perform with him in that dance competition!" "But why?" I asked in disbelief. Jealousy problem again. "Because-----" "Because you're being jealous again?" "No! it's just that, he can touch you in every part of your-----" "What if I tell you that he's gay? Would you let me then?" "What? What did you say?" "Would you let me dance with him, if I tell you that he's gay?"His mouth slightly opened and he looked at me with his bewildered eyes."He's gay, Alex. Gavin is a gay----" "Fuck! I heard you!" I gasped as he cursed and raised his voice. "Then why didn't you tell me the first time I met him?" "Alex-----" "Why didn't you tell me when the first time I got jealous of him?" "Alex please, let me explain."I tried to touch his hands but he swatted my hand. He's mad at me. The opposite of what I am expecting. " Explain? Really Rian? Why did you lie to me?" "I didn't lie to you---" "You didn't lie to me, then why didn't you tell me in the first place?" "Because I want you to trust me." "Trust? I can't remember how many times I had told you that I trust you! But now I found out, you're the one who doesn't trust me, Rian!" "Alex i..i.." "What? Does he know that I'm jealous of him?" "Yes." I nodded. "Fuck!" He slammed his fist on the hard table. "Alex, you don't understand." "And what is it that I don't understand, Rian? We spend time almost every day. There's not a single day that I didn't call you or even sent you a text message. Is it difficult to tell me in person? Then text me! But you choose to make me jealous every day! You're enjoying every minute I got possessive over you because of him!" "That's not true! It's not my secret Alex. It's Gavin's secret! No one knows about it, It's just the three of us, including Cari." "I know you're bestfriends, but who am I to you? Am I still a nobody to you, Rian?" "Of course not!" "You can share everything with him, but I am your husband and you can't trust me! And you really choose us to fight rather than telling me a simple thing about your bestfriend?" "It's not just a simple thing, Alex!" I can't help to also raise my voice. "Okay fine! I'm sorry. If it's for you it's not a simple thing! I'm sorry if I got jealous with your bestfriend because I didn't know that he's a gay! And I'm sorry for not being into your life for those past four years! You made me feel like a fool, Rian." "Alex!" he turned off the stove before he walked out from the kitchen. I tried to stop him. I grabbed his hand but he just pushed my hand away. "Alex, please. Listen to me just this once!" He continued ignoring me and walked towards the front door. I followed him with tears running down my face. "Alex.." I stopped at the doorway, watching him while he's walking away again. Am I wrong this time? That I choose not to tell him the truth and just let him get jealous with Gavin over and over? Am I really the one who didn't trust him? "I'm sorry. I love you.." I shouted on his back. Silently praying he comes back. Maybe hearing those words made him stop and turned his way back to me.  "Shh.. stop crying baby, please." He wiped my tears before he hugged me and put my face on his chest. I'm sorry." I said hugging him tight. "I didn't tell you about Gavin's secret. It's just that, I want you to control your jealousy. And I trust you, believe me. I love you. I'm sorry.." "Shh...it's okay. Let's not talk about this. I'm sorry if I raised my voice on you. I love you. Just trust me this time okay?"  I nodded. I looked at him and he kissed my forehead before hugging me again. "Let's just talk about your upcoming competition." "So, would you let me dance now... even Gavin is my partner?" "Do I have a choice?" I smiled while nodding. I sniffed the colds that clogging on my nose.  "Can I?" I asked smiling. "Can you what?"  But I didn't answer him. I pulled the sleeve of his shirt and blow my clogged nose on it. He looked at me with his jaws dropped. "Sorry. I don't have a tissue." I smiled as I also stepped backwards. "Ahh.. you used my shirt as your tissue?"  I didn't miss how his lips curled up into a devilish smile. "I can wash that hubby, you know." I continue to step back as he also continues to step forward towards me. "I know, baby." "What are you doing?" I asked as he grabbed both of my hands and pushed me to the closed door. He caged me with his two muscular arms. "I'm just going to give my wife a punishment." "And that is------" .....that is when he kissed me but instead in a passionate way. I kissed him back and our lips moved in sync. I wished every punishment that I would have to receive from him, is something like this. Because I am telling you... I'm not going to stop doing such punishable things. "Making out again? God!" We stopped as we both looked from where the voice came from. And there.. behind him was Cari and Ryan. Her both hands were crossed over her chest, while Ryan is just grinning like an idiot. I wanted to laugh at her face when Alex kissed me again in front of them.