CHAPTER 43: HIS CONFESSION

"Baby?" "Hmm?" I looked at him. We're already inside of his car when he asked me, maybe he noticed that I became quiet suddenly. "Are you okay?" he asked with a tenderness on his voice and he held my hand. I smiled as I remember what Belle's said earlier.  "Yeah. I'm fine. How's your work?" I looked down at our intertwined fingers and my smile widened more. "Tiring as usual." he shrugged his shoulders and back his eyes on the road. "I thought you said you had a late meeting with Dani?" "Yeah, but he cancelled it." "But why?" "He didn't give me a reason, he just said it's important." "More important than business?" He shrugged his shoulders for an answer. And then I remember about the car. "Wait, hubby. When did you buy this car?" He glanced at me and then smiled. "Two days ago, baby." "Why?" He chuckled. "What do you mean why?" "Why did you buy this car? Belle said this is too expensive and there's only 9 units of this were made.  And don't tell me you bought the last one in the factory?" My eyes widened when he smiled and winked at me. "So, it's true?" I asked in disbelief. "Yes, baby. We now owned the last one." "Oh my God, but why?" "Baby, why are you always asking why?" he asked chuckling. "You already have a lot of cars!" "Oh baby, 'we'. We already have those cars and this one is our new collection. And to answer your question... why, simply because I can. We can." I just sighed and rolled my eyes. I can never win over this one. "Uhm.. hubby, do you think you have schedules of meetings tomorrow afternoon 'till night?" "I'll call Ms. Thomas to check my schedules for tomorrow, why?" "Uhm.. can you go with me to the party?" He smiled. "I thought you're not really going to ask me." I bite my lips, waiting for his answer. "Of course, baby. I would love too." My smile widened. "Thank you. I love you." "I love you too, but you don't have to say thank you." he take my hand and put it on his thigh. And a naughty thought came across my mind. I slid my hand down in his inner thigh. He looked at me at the corners of his eyes with a frown. I smiled at him and bite the corner of my lower lip.  "What are you doing?" he asked me and I just act innocently. "What am I doing? Nothing." I shrugged my shoulders but my hand moved closer to my target. "Baby.." he warned me and he straightened his seat. "What?" I looked back to the road with my hand still on his inner thigh. I heard him intake a sharp breath when my hand touched his now growing manhood. "Huh! Oh my God, hubby! What's this?" I asked faking my horrified look but my hand is now touching his bulge. "Oh baby, please. Don't do that!" he pleads, his knuckles are turning white by gripping hard the steering wheel. "Don't do what? I'm not doing anything, hubby." my hand found the zipper of his pants and slide it down. I didn't try to unbuckle his belt, because I know it will just take more time. "Baby, we're going to meet an accident if you keep on doing that." "Ohh... doing what, hubby? Just eyes on the road and concentrate on your driving." "How can i... oh fuck!" I bite my lip to suppress my laughter when I heard him curse. I let his long shaft out of his pants and played with my hand. I squealed when he pulled over the wheel and we stopped at the side of the road, few blocks before my apartment. I instantly withdraw my hand when he unfastened his seatbelt. And my eyes widened when he also did the same with my seatbelt and lifted me to his lap. "Why did you-------" He didn't let me speak, he kissed me on my lips with his hand automatically encircled my waist. I kissed him back, but when his other hand landed on my breast, I pushed him back as I felt the soreness from his touch instead of pleasure. He looked at me.. his eyes were asking, and I don't know what to say, how to explain.  "Why?" I gulped when he looked down at my breasts. "Uhm.. it feels sore and uhm.. sensitive to touch.. because I'm having my period." I sighed inwardly when he smiled. "Argh! Baby, you're such a tease!" I smiled and kissed his forehead.  "I'll take care of you when we get home." I said smiling to ease his disappointment. I also winked at him. And then he smiled... his signature smile in bed. I know he got the hidden meaning of my sentence. "Promise?" "Promise."  And he kissed me again. He let me stay on his lap while he's driving back to my apartment. I really need to seek an appointment. I need to know what these symptoms mean. Although I believe with Belle and Gavin, but I also need to be sure if it's true. When we get to my apartment, we both heard the growled of my stomach as soon as we entered the door. He laughed at me and pulled me to the kitchen. He let me sit in one of the nook's chair while he's preparing our dinner. It's been three months since we both agreed to give this marriage a chance. And it's been two months since he started to sleep in my apartment. And my eyes widened in realization.. two months. I missed my period last month and today is supposed to be my first day again. "Hey, are you okay?" he turned at me while stirring the sauce of his spaghetti. I looked at him and smiled. "Yup." "What are you thinking, baby?" "The days we've been together." I answered but I didn't mention about my missed period. He turned off the stove and slowly walked to where I am seated. He lifted me up to seat exactly at the table and placed himself in between my legs. He brought my hands to his lips and kissed each one of them while looking directly to my eyes. "I want to tell you something, baby." he said and I straightened my seat. "Do you know why I agreed to this marriage and the contract?" I stared directly to his eyes while shaking my head. This was the question I really wanted to ask him the first day our parents brought up this arrangement. "It's stated in the contract that they're not forcing us to live in one roof. And I felt so relieved by that." My face crunched by his confession. He felt relieved while I left confused.. asking on why he didn't say anything about it? He didn't even give me a single explanation? "Wait.. listen to me first. I know that look, baby." he chuckled when he noticed my knitted eyebrows. He cupped my cheeks and kissed my forehead.  "I agreed to this marriage because I'm in love with you since you were sixteen. And I noticed that every year, you're collecting admirers and I feel threatened by that. I want you to be at my side every day so no one will look at you the way I should look at you. So when my Dad and your father offered this contract, I've been so shocked. Yes, I want you for myself but I don't want it that way. I want to court you in my own way, I want first to get your trust and your love. So, I walked out the time they pronounced our marriage."  He chuckled but I remained quiet.  "But then your brother talked to me. He knows everything about my feelings for you and also my plans. And he was also shocked with the arrangement. And then I told you, I felt relieved with not living with you in the same roof. It's because I don't want to force myself to you. I want you to see the real me, I want you to trust me. Because I know by that time, in your eyes... I am... I was a great womanizer in town, a big jerk and a heartless man. But what you didn't know was that this heart..." he brought my right hand on his left chest. "...only belongs to you. I acted a jerk and careless because I want you first to reach your dreams. I want you to explore every possible way to know yourself and know what you want in life." He wiped those tears that started to flow down on my cheeks. "I love you, Rian. If I could just turn back the time, I would stay by your side and hold your hands in every possible way I can." He smiled and kissed my forehead. "Don't cry, baby." He chuckled and wiped again my tears. "You know I hate to see you crying-----" I hugged him on his neck and cried on his shoulders. He was right. All these years I looked at him as the biggest jerk that I've ever met. But it turned out the opposite. He cared for me since day one and even before. He didn't force his rights on me as my husband and me as his wife.  He let me finished my studies and reached all my dreams. And he's right again.. I've met different people in my journey, I learned a lot of things and changed myself in the process. But one thing remained and grown in that process... it's the love I have for him. Yes, we married contractually but our hearts know no contract when it comes to what we feel for each other.