Chapter Ten

Gabriella. "Is everything okay Gaby?" Fabian asked worriedly. "Me? Of course, I am. Do I look like something's wrong with me?" I replied, staring back at him confusedly. "No, it's not Gaby. It's just, I'm worried about how you're holding up mentally. I mean come one dear, I know you and I know very well that you are acting like everything is okay with you but then with everything that's been happening around you lately, I know for a fact that it's affecting you mentally and I want you to know that you can always talk to me about anything and that I'll always be here for you when you need me," he replied and I sighed. Truth is, he isn't exactly wrong about everything not being okay with me mentally but then, I can't afford to let myself be down and depressed when I have so many things to sort out in my life right now. Everything that's happening to me I believe at this point has a reason and the only way to find out how to get myself out of this is by being strong and not letting false accusations and terrible misfortunes pull me down. "Fabian dear, I'm not gonna lie to you and tell you that I am one hundred percent okay and that nothing is wrong with me when my entire world is currently falling apart. I am not okay, I am not happy, I am not feeling great anything right now but if there's one thing I am also not, it's weak my dear. I am not weak. I won't let myself fall into depression when I never hurt anybody and I'll stay strong so I can watch everyone who's against me right now, eat their own words and chop on it," I said to him and he stared back at me like he wasn't expecting me to sound so bold. "Well, I guess you don't need any kind of encouragement," he replied with a giggle and I chuckled. "Trust me Fab, you're doing more than enough by just being here for me. I can't imagine how down in the dumps I'd feel if you and Martha had left me all alone cause at the end of the day, aside from you guys and Martin, I have no other friends who I can rely on emotionally," I told him, genuinely thankful he didn't abandon me. "Speaking of Martin, won't you try to see him? Regardless of the situation, we need to make sure he's okay," he reminded me and my heart immediately dropped to the lowest pit of my stomach. The entire situation with Martin is the only reason I need to get out of my current shit hole as soon as possible because I know Martin's father and I don't trust him with my sweetheart's safety at all. He could try something drastic just to stop Martin from getting his memory back cause I know for a fact that he's happy with how things are because he now has complete control over his son and whatever Martin does. Mr Deville has always wanted to keep Martin under control and since he's a homophobic bastard, he'll do anything to wipe out Martin's memories completely and he'll put a lot of lies and deceitful words in his head just to have total control over him and the worst part of it all, Martin's mother will not try to stop him. She, just like him, hates the fact that her only son is gay and that he became so independent to the point where he no longer needed both his parents to survive. The fact that they now see his current dilemma as a means to control him and shape him into what they think he should be makes me feel sick to my stomach and I'll do everything in my power to get out of this mess and save my best friend before those horrible people drive him completely insane. "I swear, there's nothing I want more right now than to see my friend face to face and make sure he's okay. The fact that he's all alone in that place with those people scares the daylight out of me," I replied and he sighed. "You could tell your lawyer to help you get permission to see him. I mean, if there is fear that you may hurt him or whatever then they can just have you be followed whenever you decide to see him and they can even be allowed to choose the timing of the visit. Doesn't that make sense to an extent?" he suggests and I must admit, he's actually making sense. I haven't tried seeing Martin because I didn't want to get in more trouble by going against the court's decision and I also didn't want to catch him by surprise and scare him since he doesn't remember me and he, like the rest of the world, may actually think I'm the one who tried to have him killed. "Do you really think that could work?" I asked. "It wouldn't hurt to try at the very least because judging from how you talk about the poor guy's parents, I doubt he's in a good place right now. If they're as horrible as we think they are then I doubt he'll be getting his memory anytime soon and there's also the case of a familiar face. A patient with amnesia sometimes needs to see the face of a person he's most familiar with so that person could help trigger his memory to a certain extent. If he remains in an unfamiliar space, it'd be ten times harder," he informed me and I nodded my head in understanding. "That definitely makes a lot of sense. I'll discuss with Micheal and hopefully, things turn out well and I'm granted permission but then enough about my mess, how are you? I'm sorry I haven't been more attentive lately," I said to him, feeling sorry about the fact that he has been there for me all this while and I barely even know what's happening in his life. "Firstly, please don't apologise. You're embarrassing me and secondly, I would be mad at you if you dared to think about someone else besides yourself at this time in your life. I am perfectly okay my dear, everything's okay enough for me and I'm not in a bad place. So focus solely on yourself and don't bother stressing about anyone else," he replied in a sassy tone and I chuckled. "Okay fine, I won't worry too much but then how's everything with Mia? Hope she's treating you well?" I said to him and his expression quickly turned sore. "Mia and I are at a point in our relationship where I can't deal with her crap anymore. Ever since she and your sister's hangout session increased suddenly, she has slowly turned into a complete nuisance and at this point, I no longer have the patience to deal with her," he replied and I sigh. Not that I'm surprised by his words though, Mia has always been a nuisance especially since she hangs out with my sister. "If she gets too much to handle, don't bother pushing too hard and don't for a split second think you can even change her cause the Mia I know has always and will always be a piece of work," I said to him and he simply shrugs nonchalantly as if he could care less. "Can I ask you something Ella?" he asked suddenly and I immediately urged him to go ahead. "How is your relationship with your sister? Are you cool with her? Is your relationship back to its default setting? What exactly is going on between you two?" he questioned with a curious look in his eyes and I mentally cringe at the fact that I have to even talk about her. "Truth is Fab, I regret the minute I decided to trust Gabrielle and let her walk back into my life. Don't get me wrong though, she doesn't seem to have done me any wrong at least none I'm aware of but ever since all of this happened, for some weird reason, I lost complete faith in her and I'd just rather stay as far away as possible from her," I replied and he nods his head slightly as if trying to understand whatever I just said. "Is there a reason you're asking though?" I ask. "No reason in particular. Just wanted to hear what you had to say so I'd decide whether or not to advise you against her presence. Her attitude has never really sat well with me and now that Mia is becoming an entirely different being just for hanging around with her, I don't think there's anything positive about her and it's really such a shame," he tells me and I laughed a little before replying. "A real shame I guess. By the way, why isn't Martha here yet?" I wondered out loud, wondering why she's running so late. "She probably just wants to avoid seeing me," he replied and I'm immediately curious as to why exactly he'd say that and what exactly is really happening between them. "Are you two okay?" I questioned. "Not exactly but we'll be fine," he responded quickly and I'm worried. "Is it bad? Do you want to talk about it?" I asked. "Not really. Maybe some other time though but not right now. All you need to know is that we are both gonna be fine, that I assure you," he replied reassuringly and although I still had a million and one questions to ask, I decide against being pushy cause at the end of the day, I'll still end up finding out what exactly is going on between them.