Chapter 13 (To Be Hurt)

I got up and sat on the bed. I was wearing only thin pajamas and a thin spaghetti strap.   Life sucks.   It's midnight, and I'm still awake.   Suddenly, my cellphone rang, so I immediately picked it up to see that someone was calling.   Unregistered number.   My forehead furrowed.   "Hello?" but the other line did not answer.   "Who's this, please?"   "Baby."   My chest immediately throbbed at the deep voice heard. I can't understand the joy and sadness I feel.   "S-Sebe!" I exclaimed.   "Baby, I'm here outside." I could hardly breathe at what he said. I immediately looked out the window and saw his car with the lights on.   "Wait. I'll go down," I said. I didn't fix myself. A week has been too long for me.   I immediately went and entered his car.   When I was sitting in the front seat, I was shocked when he pulled me. I slammed the door shut.   "S-Sebe-" I was cut off because of his violent kiss on me. I feel his longing and love.   I want to cry now.   I feel different emotions.   He kissed me thoroughly.   Shit! He's so turned on and hard.   He stopped kissing me.   "I miss you so much," he whispered. I nodded. "I love you." His whispers gave me goosebumps.   I nodded again.   "Baby," he called. "Open your eyes..."   I slowly opened my eyes, only to find out his bloodshot eyes.   Is he crying? My heart ached. I don't want to see him like this.   "Sebe, w-why-"   He cut me off.   "Sshh. No matter what happens, remember, I love you so much. It's just you."   "Sebe, what do you mean?" I said tearfully.   "I am leaving."   What? My face moved a little away from his. I looked at him, confused.   "Huh?" I shook my head. "Why?" I asked hopelessly.   "There are just things I have to do," he said.   "Where are you going?"   "London."   "London?" I scoffed.   "There are things I need to fix; it is for the empire. Trust me. This one will work," he assured.   "For how long?" I buried my face in his neck. I could smell his scent.   "Five months? Eight? I'm not sure."   What?   "Fuck!" I cursed.   "Don't curse," he scolded.   I shook my head again. "Sebe, it's too long."   "I'll call you every day."   That is still not enough.   "I cannot do it," I said tearfully.   "You can. I know."   "When are you leaving?" I don't seem to want to hear this.   "Tomorrow." No doubt, he says.   I lost strength immediately as I hugged him. He hugged me back. Very tight.   "Sebe, please," I begged. No one knows when I will see him again. When I will hug him like this again or when I will kiss him again.   "Yes, baby?"   My tears flowed immediately. Hearing his voice in pain almost killed me.   When will I hear his voice again? When he returns, will anything change?   "Please, take me with you now. Please, even just for now. Even for the last time, I want to be with you." My voice is broken in pain.   "I will, baby. We'll cuddle tonight."   I don't want to just cuddle. I want more.   "Sebe," I whispered.   "Hm?" He kissed my hair.   "Take me now," I begged. "Fuck me."   God!   He cursed a lot and immediately started his car. That night, I gave up. I gave him everything I had. I will never forget how he adored my body. I got chills when I witnessed how expert he was. I did nothing but look and tremble at what he was doing to my body.   He's perfect. The way his soft lips licked my skin was so damn addicting.   For me, I did the right thing. I have nothing to regret. I love him so much.   When I woke up that morning, I was alone in his unit.   He gave me his key. It's as if, when I miss him, I'll stay in his condominium. He told me to consider it mine.   God knows how much I miss him now.   ***   It's been almost three months. I feel so mirthless. Behind my smile is a million pains.   I chose this, so I better face it. I love him so much.   A long-distance relationship was distressing. We facetime when he's free, but I know some things are wrong.   I tried to understand our situation.   I'm here now in the locker and am currently putting the books I borrowed from the library.   Those books make me busy. So somehow, I forget the pain and loneliness. It was three o'clock in the afternoon, and the others had already left.   The quiet surroundings of the locker area were erupted by a sob.   "W-what am I really to you, Damon?" A girl cried with pain.   Damon? What?   I stayed where I was. Listening.   "You're mine," I heard Damon say. My eyebrows went up.   "But you said you love Natalia." Her voice croaked when she mentioned my name.   "What?" I hissed silently as I closed my locker.   What did she say?   I heard Damon cuss.   I bit my lip and immediately left there. Whatever Damon meant there, I know nothing. All I know is that I love Sebe.   And Damon? He was a friend.   When I got home, it was still the same. Incredibly quiet. My mom stops contacting me. It's really depressing me. But what can I do?   I got dressed and went to bed. And just like before, my cellphone rang.   I pick up my phone.   "Hello," I answered.   Even though the communication was only on the cellphone, I could still hear that he was tired.   "Baby..."   I bit my lip. Tears welled up in my eyes. I lay down on my side and hugged the pillow.   "Are you tired?" My voice croaked.   My tears immediately preceded the fall.   "I'm sorry, baby. I miss you so much."   It looks like I swallowed a rock because I was having trouble breathing.   Hearing his voice makes me emotional.   "I miss you so much," I just said.   I heard him curse again.   "I love you. I'm going home soon. Just wait, okay?" He said softly to me.   "I love you too."   "Please don't cry. I will make up for all my shortcomings. Just wait for me."   I feel sincerity in every word he says.   ****   I woke up another morning. Same as usual. My lifeless life is still the same since he left.   Dull.   We are currently at Starbucks. I just sat in front and listened to Jenn and Kylie's conversation.   Kylie seems happy.   "Are we going now?" I said because in five minutes we would be late. They nodded in unison.   We wrapped our belongings around the table.   The other students were looking at us.   I always hear our names, but I don't pay attention anymore.   We have already crossed the road and are about to enter the gate when someone grabs my arm.   Elizabeth Lee, with her sharp, burning eyes. The fire raged in her eyes, and I fought coldly as if I had no paw on her.   I looked at her hand, holding me firmly.   She smirked.   "What's happening?" Kylie asked.   I shook my head at her. I could face whatever Eli had to say.   Jenn held my shoulder.   "Don't worry," I said calmly.   I violently pulled Eli's hand away from my arm, and she looked at me sharply.   Some students were eyeing us.   "What do you need?" I asked coldly. My two friends were just on my back.   Eli scoffed, then crossed her arms.   "Natalia. You're an asshole."   She's wearing a mini black dress that hugs her hourglass body. She has a perfect body that boys will drool over.   "Say what you want to say. I don't have time for such things," I replied coldly to her. I didn't even feel scared or nervous.   "Hah!" She scoffed and tilted her head.   "You are shameless!" She gripped my arms again, and this time, it hurt so much.   Her nail went down my skin!   "Hey!" I heard Kylie's voice from my back.   "Fuck off your hands!" I shouted.   "Did you think I would?" She pulled me, so I got even closer to her.   "What did you tell Sebe? What did you tell him that he didn't want to marry me anymore? Stay away from him!" She shouted.   I immediately pulled my arm back and slapped her.   "How dare you!"   "Ask that yourself! He loves me! Why are you forcing yourself on him?!"   Such a scene.   "Go to hell! You'll pay for it!" She raised her hand to slap me, but someone held it before she could do that.   Radleigh! Sebastian's cousin!   "R-Radleigh?" She paled.   I immediately looked at Rad, holding Eli's wrist.   "Don't hurt her," he said coldly to Eli.   Eli was confused.   "Why? Why are you all defending that slut!?" Eli shouted.   Rad's jaw clenched.   "Sebe doesn't want her to be hurt."