Chapter 115 I will not be separated from you

"Gu Qingrong!" Zeng braved the downpour and ran into the water, chasing him and shouting at him. But he turned a deaf ear and was still immersed in his grief. Finally, Zeng ran to his side, walked around in front of him, blocked his way, and held his hand tightly. "Gu Qingrong, the rain is too heavy, let's not be here, shall we?" I didn't know how to comfort him. She thought, maybe he would be better if he let out all this depressed mood. But seeing him walking forward in the rain without looking back, she was very worried about his accident. At this point, Gu Qingrong raised his head and looked at her with a dull look. The rain dripped down their hair and clothes, and they were soaked. In this cold day, he felt as cold as an ice awl getting into his body, but he couldn't feel it at all and was still crying. Rain and tears mixed up on his cheeks, and he could not tell which was tears and which was rain. He looked at her deeply, anxious and at a loss, just like his favorite toy suddenly disappeared, which made him panic. He said: "My mother is gone... I don't have a mother..." My heart made her feel more painful than being severely pricked by a fine needle. This sentence was like a loud voice, which exploded in her world. She didn't know how to comfort him. I can only say countless times, "Gu Qingrong, Gu Qingrong, don't do this, don't do this …". Finally, she can only come forward and hug him deeply and tightly to let him know- Gu Qingrong, you are not alone. Gu Qingrong, you are not alone in grief. Gu Qingrong, don't do this. I'm sorry, I can't share your pain. * The rain has stopped. The two men were sitting in a lounge chair by the side of the road, soaked to the skin. When the cold wind hit, Gu Qingrong's mood gradually stabilized. He began to tell it all. For the first time, he began to tell her about his mother and his family of origin. When it comes to his childhood, he is very calm, just like telling other people's stories. He has never participated in this shadow story that keeps him from getting out. He said, "They started quarreling and fighting when I was six years old. Every time they quarreled, the sound of quarreling was like an electric drill drilling a wall, penetrating the wall one by one and rushing into my ears. I was so scared that I would always hide in the dark bedroom and listen quietly to their quarrel. Sometimes when they quarrel, they will start work. On one occasion, they quarreled again over some things. From morning till night, I didn't eat anything. I'm really hungry, so I want to go out and find something to eat. " Speaking of which, his breath was slightly stagnant: "That is, that time, I saw my mother holding a kitchen knife with my own eyes, saying in her mouth that she would die with Gu Xueren. When they saw me standing at the door and looking at them eagerly, reason seemed to come back a little bit... They froze. After that, they stopped quarreling, because Gu Xueren has been away from home since then. He called him every day and asked him. He said he was at work, working and working overtime. My mother couldn't help it any longer. When she learned that my father was outside, she was angry and made another scene. " His voice stopped and he looked up at the dark clouds that had been brushed away, with tears in his eyes: "It was the last time they made a scene as husband and wife, and both of them lost. After the divorce, I was sentenced to Gu Xueren because my mother had no financial resources. After that, my mother left the house and went to France. From then on, before I was eighteen years old, she would return to visit me every year on my birthday. " "I thought at that time, that is also quite good. At least I can see her and they will not quarrel any more." He suddenly closed his eyes and moved very hard. Tears fell from the corner of his eye. "However, when I was eighteen years old, after my birthday with her, she returned to France, and soon she fell ill and died. However, no one told me the news of her death, let me not wait, don't work hard, don't try my best to see her, just to enter the national team and participate in world competitions, just to let her see him, let her know how much I miss her, how much I want her to come and see me... " "But all this can't be realized now." His voice began to be surprisingly calm. "She died long ago, and my only obsession and thoughts were broken..." Once passed, he could realize the pain of his persistent obsession and long-cherished wish for so many years. This will make him at a loss, not knowing where to go next, not knowing whether to work hard, because he knows that even if he works hard to enter the national team and participate in global competitions, he will never see his mother again. Zeng passed and stretched out his hand and held his hand tightly. She wants him to know that she is still here and that she will stand on his side, even if she is an enemy of the whole world. "When Gu Xueren told me this, I didn't want to believe it at that moment, but in the end, the facts told me that these are all facts, but I didn't realize it at the moment when my mother died, and now I still realize the pain..." * Gu Qingrong said this, not to say whether she was lost or sad, but she felt that these were secrets and haze accumulated in his heart for many years, and at the moment when they were exposed and brushed away, after venting, she no longer concealed anything. The two sat in the rest chair for a long time. After a long time, they felt cool and sneezed. Gu Qingrong noticed that she was wearing thin clothes. In order for him to be drenched in the rain, he took her to stand up and went back to school step by step. They went back to school, took a hot bath and changed into clean clothes. Coach Zhou Xin also probably knew Gu Qingrong's situation, worried about what bad things he would do, and worried about him all the time. When he went out of the hospital to look for him, he couldn't be found. Later, he called Zeng Shao and asked about Gu Qingrong's whereabouts. When he confirmed that Gu Qingrong was emotionally stable and returned to the school dormitory to rest, he was relieved. At the end of the call, Zeng passed and was about to hang up when Zhou Xin stopped him. "I have passed my classmates, wait a minute." Zhou Xin shouted. "Hmm? What happened to Teacher Zhou?" Zhou Xin was silent for a moment and said, "Thank you for taking care of Gu Qingrong." Zeng passed and froze, then smiled: "It doesn't matter, Miss Zhou." * At dinner, Gu Qingrong asked her to go to the canteen for dinner. After eating, they began to take a walk on the runway. Along the way, Gu Qingrong was silent. But compared with noon, when he collapsed as if he were going to break something, he was quiet and didn't know what he was thinking. "You..." Zeng passed suspiciously and finally asked, "Don't you go and see him? After all, he is your father and raised you." Even though Gu Xueren had every fault, he raised his father when Gu Qingrong was a minor. Even if the relationship between the two was not good, Gu Xueren had any illness, or when he was old, he still had to take care of him and carry out the obligation of support. Gu Qingrong stopped and turned to look at her tightly. After a long time, he said, "He has someone to take care of him." "Hmm?" "The object he once derailed." "I'm sorry, I shouldn't..." "It doesn't matter, I am used to this kind of thing." He said, "After he divorced my mother, I thought he would get married with that woman immediately, but the result was not." After a pause, he continued: "I thought it was his conscience that he would not do anything wrong to me again, but obviously I was wrong." I listened quietly. "After the divorce, Gu Xueren lived with the woman. Although she was not married, she claimed to be a boyfriend and girlfriend. When I was twenty years old, the two received the certificate, and now I have a son, three." Zeng passed and opened his eyes wide. "Yes, he found his conscience. After the divorce, seeing that I was not yet an adult, I thought that I would not accept the woman, and they were not married. But when I was an adult and didn't need a guardian, he happily got married. In the end, it's not a conscience discovery. I just don't want his own conscience to be condemned." "Didn't you know before?" Zeng passed and asked. He shook his head: "I don't know." After a pause, "Coach Zhou called me in the afternoon, and I realized that he had married that woman two years ago and had a child." "You said is not ridiculous? He won't let me know or inform me of anything he does. As a result, he has to intervene in everything I want to do, just because he is my father?!" Gu Qingrong's voice was full of anger. After resentment, his eyes were full of loneliness: "After a while, do you think people in this world will be separated, no matter how close they used to be?" Zeng passed on tiptoe, hugged him tightly and said, "Gu Qingrong, don't be sad. You and me, we will not be separated."