chapter 12

Alexa As I think about his messages that he sent to me like two days ago, I wonder if maybe I should tell Gabriel and Gabriella about Elijah. I think that's not going to be a problem because they already seem to like Elijah, especially Gabriella. They are still kids, so I think it's not that hard for them to accept Elijah as their father. They won't even understand it fully either. Gabriel and Gabriella are just three-year-old toddlers, and they will not give a big reaction. My plan before was to tell them when they were at least ten years old or older, because at that time they would understand better about all this. Since Elijah keeps appearing like this and forcing me to be with him again, my plan needs a change. Tell the children about this even though they don't understand anything. Currently, I'm taking my day off because I want to spend my time with my children. I think I've been busy these days, and it seems like I neglected the twins. I feel bad for them, so yeah, I took a day off from any work today and decided to bring them out and have fun the whole day. As soon as I wake up, I pull my hair into a low bun and then walk out of my room to see if Gab and Ella have already woken up or not. I walk to their rooms, and they're empty. That means they've already woken up. I bet they are with Dolly since she always comes early in the morning. I told her to stay here because it is much easier for her, but she insists. I went downstairs to see Gabriel and Gabriella. I walk into the living room to see them playing with Dolly. Then I remembered our conversation about Elijah. I still can't believe she's one of the women who slept with Elijah. Out of many women in this world, why does the nanny of my children have to be Elijah's one-night stand? That man probably already slept with every woman in America and caught HIV. I bet he has it and will die from it. I thought Dolly was an innocent woman who didn't socialise that much because that's what she said to me when I had a conversation with her. I guess people change, but whatever. I am with the woman who has known Elijah all this time, and all of a sudden, I feel a bit awkward with her. Especially when she knew that Gab and Ella were Elijah's children. Since the day she told me about Elijah and her, Dolly has always tried to avoid me, even though she knows she's going to fail since she works for me. I feel sorry for her because she met the worst man on earth. Dolly is a great woman, and she should never meet someone like Elijah because she deserves better. "Hey, my pumpkins," I said when they didn't notice my presence. They turned around, and when they saw me, they got up from their place and ran to me. I open my arms to let them hug me. "You want to spend time with mommy today?" I said, and their eyes were full of excitement. "Yes! Yes! Yes! Want it!" They jump in excitement and then hug each other. I smile warmly at their behaviour and then look at Dolly, who is looking at us now. "Dolly, can you change their clothes because I want to bring them out today?" I said to her. "You're not going to the office today?" She asks. "No, I think today I want to be with them." I smile at her, and her face looks uncomfortable knowing I will be at home. "You're coming with us too because I don't think I can handle these hypers," I said, and she nodded her head, then smiled at me. "I will get ready now, and both of you go and change your clothes too," I said, and they just ran upstairs without waiting for Dolly. I shake my head when I look at them. "Dolly," I call her, and she turns to face me. "Yes?" "I know things are quite different now, but I hope you are not feeling uncomfortable around me. I don't care about that one-night-stand thing because Elijah means nothing to me now. So, I am fine with it. I said this because your face looked so awkward and uncomfortable when you saw me. I am fine with all that, I swear," I said to her, hoping she would feel better. I don't want Elijah, Dolly, or anything else to resign. It's so hard to find a good nanny these days, and I don't want to lose her. "Thank you, Ms. Johnson. I admit I am feeling a bit different, but since you said that, I think I feel better now. Well, if there's nothing more, I need to go upstairs and see Gab and Ella." I nod my head, and she walks upstairs, and I follow behind her. I walk back to my room and take my towel to take a shower. I wrap my body with a towel before getting out of the bathroom. Get into my walk-in closet and pick up a pair of baby blue rip jeans and a white t-shirt to pair with my black leather jacket. I sit at my vanity table and start doing my makeup. I apply a bit of eyeshadow, along with mascara and eyeliner. Then apply blusher. Lastly, lipstick. Just enough to make sure my face looks presentable. After I feel like I'm done with my makeup, I open my bun and let my brown hair fall down. I just comb it to make it neat, and then I'm done. I take my handbag and put things that I need in it. After that, I walk out of the room and walk downstairs. ***** Right now, four of us are at the restaurant to eat. Well, Gabriel and Gabriella surely eat a lot because I just brought them to McDonald's like an hour ago, and now here we are again at the Italian restaurant to eat again. Just when we're in the middle of eating, someone just comes and takes a seat on the empty seat beside me. I look at it and then stop eating. What the hell is he doing here? I glanced at Dolly, who almost choked on her food when she saw Elijah. Poor girl. "Hey, baby." Elijah greets me and kisses my cheeks. I'm shocked by his spontaneous movement. I look at him, and he's already smirking at me. I look at the twins, and they're looking at me and Elijah now. "Why do you kiss mommy?" Gabriel asks Elijah with a serious face, even though it turns out to be cute, but at least he tried to be fierce. "Only me can.." Gabriel joins in. I look at them, surprised by their action. "Well, what if I'm your dad?" I just stayed silent, and when he asked them that question, I felt like my blood pressure was going down. I look at the twins curiously to see how they react to it. "No! You are a kind uncle, not a daddy," Gabriella said. Okay, this is not what I expected from her. I thought she liked Elijah. This is going to be hard. "Gabriella, who taught you to raise your voice like that to an elder?" I ask her, and immediately she looks down and plays with her fingers. "I'm sorry." She mumbled, but it was loud enough for us to hear it. I look at Gabriel, who just eats his food without even caring what is going on here. "Can we talk for a minute?" I ask Elijah, and he agrees. "Gab, Ella, mommy, and uncle have something to talk about, so can you guys wait and eat properly?" I just nodded in reply. "Dolly, excuse us for a minute,"Then I and Elijah walk to the toilet, and it's a good thing that there's no one here. "What do you actually want?" I ask while crossing my arms over my chest. "I want you." He replied, and I sighed. "Can't you understand that I don't want you anymore in my life?" If you want to spend your time with Gabriel and Gabriella, then go on. I will give you permission, but the fact that you want us to be a family again, I think that's not a good idea at all." He looks hurt a bit by my words, but then he smiles. I raised my eyebrows at him weirdly. "I loved when you said my name. I miss when you—" I cut him off. "Don't even think to finish that sentence because I don't want to hear anything from the past," I said, and then what he does next makes my eyes widen in shock. He kisses me! I try to wiggle out of his grip, but he still kisses me. His hand holds my waist securely, and another one is on my face. He kisses me like there's no tomorrow. I try and try to get away from him, but still, he's too strong for me. I hit his chest a few times and pushed him away. I nearly melted when he nibbled my lower lip, and then I opened my eyes again and pushed him, and this time, it worked. He looks at me, shocked by my movement. "Don't ever try to kiss me again. I don't like your dirty lips on mine. You kissed lots of women, and now you kiss me. What is going on with you? I hate you, Elijah. Go and find another woman to kiss," I said, walking away, leaving him alone there. When I got back to my table, I saw the twins had already finished eating, so I called the waiter and asked her to bring the bills. I put like 100 dollars on it and then walked out with the twins. I didn't even want to know what happened to Elijah back there, because now he just makes me hate him so much. "Mommy, mommy, where is the uncle?" I look at Gabriella. "He has to work; that's why he went back first," I reply, and that's a good thing she believes it. Of course she believes it; she is just a kid. "Well, it's late; we should go home now. Let's go." "Ms. Johnson, is everything alright?" Dolly asks me "Not really, but I think I can manage it." I smile weakly at her. We walk to my car, which is parked not too far from the restaurant. When the twins were in the car, someone turned me around, and that was Elijah. "What do you want?" I ask with an angry voice. I thought I had already made Elijah give up to get me, but I was wrong. He's still here. "Mommy." I look at the twins and then force myself to smile. "Go and stay with Dolly in the car. Mommy needs to talk with Uncle." They nodded their heads. Dolly helps them get in the car. I walk a bit far from the car because I don't want the twins to hear it. "Alexa, please, I want you back. Don't do this to me. I know I deserve this, but you can't be selfish." He said to me: "Selfish? What did I do, huh?" I question him. "I already told my parents about the twins, and they really want to meet their grandchildren. Please..." He tries to hold my hands, but I pull my hands away. "Fine, take them and bring them to your parents. No matter what, they still have your blood. I will tell them the truth, and then you can take them to meet your parents. When do you want to bring them? You have my permission." I said to him: I know I shouldn't trust him with Gab and Ella, but if this is the only way he stops his pathetic behaviour, then I should just let him take the kids with him for a few days. "What about you? You didn't want to meet my parents? They miss you too, Alexa." I miss them too because they're like my own parents. I miss them so much, especially your mom, but I am not ready to meet them yet. "Listen here really carefully, Elijah. Maybe you can take the twins hearts, but not mine. I. Will. Never. Go. Back. To. You." I poked his chest a few times. When I look at his face, who looks so broken? Pain? Whatever the cause, he deserves it. This is just a little of the pain that I felt. "Also, don't use your parents when you are the one who wants me to come with you." I walk to my car and get in. I turned my head to look at Elijah, then looked at the road and started to drive home. I don't care about his feelings at all because he never cares about mine. He deserves to be treated like this. He said he changed, but then he slept with Dolly a few months ago. He's still the same. He's never going to change. _________________________________________________________