Chapter 18 : Dp Consider

| Do Consider | The next day, I woke up with swollen eyes and I regretted crying last night. Seems like I need to conceal it before going to work. Lazily, I got off of my ass on my bed. Reina grabs her early breakfast with her new set of friends. Well, they have a group project to work on. As much as I want to stay here all day to avoid Linus, but I can't, because I have work. I remind myself that I don't need to be affected by the things that happened last night. If he tries to talk to me. I will allow him. We need to clear things out. Reina was right. If I continue to avoid it, nothing will happen—we can't solve the problems between us. I think I'm not ready for that. I hope he will get absent today. I overheard him and his friend the other day, saying that they have to undergo training this weekend, in preparation for their fight next week. My memories were still clear about what happened last night. I feel sorry that I slapped him but I was surprised and it was my first time. He can't blame me. It was my first kiss, and he just stole it just like that? I don't know if I'll consider Reina's word that he may like me. I'm not expecting it. He's rich and I'm just a mere commoner. I don't like the idea either. I don't want attention. I'm not ready for commitment. Not yet. My goal is to finish my studies and has a decent job. If I want to succeed, I need to set goals. Without goals, I may lack focus and direction. Setting goals does not only allow us to take control of our life direction. It also provides my benchmark for determining whether I'm succeeding. To accomplish my goals, I need to know how to set them. I can't simply say, ‘I want and expect it to happen. It must start with careful consideration of what you want to achieve and ends with a lot of hard work. I need to be SMART. I never put ‘having a boyfriend' in my planner, and it's not my goal either. But who am I to question what he feels about him, so as he. I know I can forget it but I can get through this. The sooner the better. "Good morning, Kara," I greeted as I stop beside her. She then smiled at me and greeted me back. "It seems like we do have lots of customers again, huh?" "Of course, what we do expect. Some of them were Linus fans," she answered. "Yeah, Linus," I mumbled "Hmm… Is there something going on between the two of you? Just my opinion, but you don't want a guy as handsome as Linus—it's not that I'm telling you that you're choosy, but the guy seems to like you and you're just numb, insensitive—and keeps on avoiding him," she said. I laughed sarcastically. "I'm not into it. I have priorities and entertaining men is not my thing." Really?" She laughed. "You know what… nothing will be lost if you try it. Having a feeling of infatuation or love for the opposite sex is normal. Don't tell me you didn't experience having a crush on someone?" I shook my head. "What?" she laughed. "You're impossible. What are you, an alien? Even a five-year-old kid has a crush, sometimes crushes. And you… you don't have one? You gotta be kidding me," she said and laughed again. I turned on the slicer and started to slice the bread. "I don't know," I answered. She crossed her arms and look at me. "It feels good when you have a crush on someone or you have these butterflies flying inside your stomach when he's near. An electrifying—a spark when your skin accidentally touches his." She reached out and turned off the slicer. "College girls like us dreamt of having crushes, boyfriends… while studying. I'm not implying that it has to be that way. My point is, never ignore your feelings. Let it out, embrace it and make it as your inspiration—your motivation." "I don't know, but I'll think about that," I said. As expected, Linus was absent, and I should be happy. But why does it seems like I'm disappointed because I didn't see him? I spend my time in the café and decided to go home at eight. I'm the one who closes it. Our manager is out of town to settle some important matters and she entrusted to us her café. I lift my head and meet the alluring skies. If the weather is fine, the moon and stars give beauty to it. Some students were still outside doing some stuff. I'm about to turn left when I saw the man that can make my heart beat fast. The man slowly gave shiny colors to my plain world. I stopped and he continued to walk in my direction. "Rebecca, please, let's talk," he said as he leaves a meter distance between us. I look around to see if there's someone who can see us. I cursed when I realized that I stopped in the dark shady part of the street. To end this, I answered, "Okay."