CHAPTER 27

AMELIA RIVERA'S POINT OF VIEW I was looking at myself in the mirror. Should I be doing the right thing? Do I love Renzo? Do I have some feelings for him? Is this the right thing to do? But how about Blaike? What if he finds me,  then he wanted to be with me again? There were a lot of questions running in my head. It wanted some answer,  but even me I dont know what to answer on my self. This question keeps my heart shattered into a million pieces. Marrying a person without love seems heartless. But,  Blaike. I didn't know! Three years ago,  when he was going to jail. Some random people kidnap him,  or kill him,  no one knows. Some policemen tried to find him because they taught it was some of his men who helped him escape but not. They found his body on a lake,  and he died. My beloved Blaike died. But inside me,  something was telling me he was still alive, and I also taught that crazy idea. Until now,  I believe that the love of my life was still alive. But if Blaike was alive why did he not contact me all these years? But according to the lab, it was not Blaike,  the body was not his. I didn't know what to believe! Whether he was alive or not. I would not trade my feelings for him for anything in this world. I took a glance at myself in the mirror,  as I was brushing my hair off. While fixing myself,  there would be so many teachers running inside my head. Renzo was a nice,  fine man,  but no matter how I tried I can't have feelings for him,  maybe not just a little bit. After three years of loving him, I tried but I gave up. I can't understand if I had fallen on him or not. I just can't even understand myself. 'Darling, " a sweet velvet voice called him. I put down my brush and looked at the door that was calling me. "Renzo?" I whispered his name. I looked directly into his eyes,  and our eyes meet. Those puffy eyes he had that make any women fall in love,  the long thick eyes lashes,  his red that was red as rose, his pointed nose, and his messy dark black hair. His masculine body is noticeable on his white shirt. Those masculine he had,  and inside his shirt were six packs abs. "Amelia, " Renzo once called my name again. I was brought back from reality when he called me again. I wanted to pinch myself because of shame. I just said to myself that I didn't like him,  but now,  I was daydreaming about him. Shame on you Amelia! "Wha-t are you doing in here?" I utter. "Don't you remember we are gonna go in the bouquet today?" He remembered me. "Elaine, Skyie,  and Kenzo are in there right now. They are waiting for us, " he continued. Oh! Shoot. I forgot about it! Why didn't I remember it so easily? I was so ashamed of myself. Today was the fitting day for my bridesmaid, but I forgot now. I was lost in my thoughts between Blaike and Renzo. "Come on! We are running late, " I stated to him in a hurry. I grab my phone and put it in my shoulder bag,  then grabbed Renzo's hand and dragged him all down towards the car. "Umm, " he was speechless because I dragged him down in here. He was still processing in his mind what was happening. I just gets the key to my car,  as he was still processing the scenes in his head. I use my key and press it to open the car,  it also makes some loud noise,  and with that Renzo came back to his senses. "Ow! Okay. You can go in now,  Darling, " he calmly said making himself comfortable in the embarrassing atmosphere because he was in his himself earlier. He then opened the car door for me and I goes inside. He goes inside the car too,  and I gave him the car key. He started the engine,  and we drove off. I looked at him while he was driving and he looked at me. "Is there any dirt on my face?" He asked,  and looked on the road again. He was driving,  so his eyes should not take off on the wheel and also on the road. Because if not,  we would both be in a car accident. "Nothing!" I replied. I looked away in embarrassment. I opened the car window and looked outside. As the atmosphere between us goes silent,  the cold air passes by my bare skin. The sun glows up like the moon, the sky was bright as the water, and the birds were flying freely in the sky. I wish I was free too... But I have an important role in the company,  especially in Renzo's life. On the day,  that I agreed with his mother to marry him.  I never loved,  I never do,  and I dont think I can if I can still be in love with Blaike. I gave Renzo hopes that I could fall in love with him by agreeing to marry him. I can't understand my self why I agreed in the first place. Maybe I thought it was a great idea since Blaike was arrested for conspiring to kill my parents. And I wanted to fulfill my parents ' wish to marry the man they picked for me and it was Renzo. I was taught if I agreed to marry him,  I would be happy and finally be able to love him but I was wrong. I still don't love him after three years of engagement. I still dont love Renzo... ************************************** "Amelia, " a familiar voice of a woman called me. "Long time no see!" She continued and hugged me tightly. "Elaine, " I called his name with my sweet velvet voice. She then put her hands away from me,  to let go of the hug. "We just saw each other like last week in my office," I stated as I smiled at her. "Im sorry!" She chuckled. I took a deep breath and sighed. I looked at my soon-to-be sister-in-law, Elaine. She was beautiful,  caring, and fun to be with. She had a nice personality,  she was almost perfect. That is why Skyie,  my brother,  liked her. Their wedding would be held four years from now. I am happy for Elaine and Skyie. I hope they would not end up like me and Blaike. "Maam! This way please, " a staff interrupts our conversation. We sat down on the green cozy sofa,  with a center table in the middle,  and some magazines on the table too. I sat comfortably, as Elaine sat down next to me. "Do you want juice,  water,  or coffee, Maam?" She asked. I looked at her! And think for a second before answering... "Coffee,  please! But without sugar, " I replied to her and switched my attention to Elaine. "How about you,  what do you want?" I asked her. "Just some juice, " she answered and smiled at the staff. "I'll be right back! Maam, " she politely replied. I just nodded at her. I looked at her until my eyes can't see her anymore. I switched my attention to the surroundings. There was so many different gowns, dresses, and tuxedo. My eyes landed on the beautiful crystalline gown. I  stand up to examine the wedding dress that I felt I was gonna love. The gown was white, I stared at it and touched the gown,  I was feeling what type of fabric they used to make this gown,  it was satin. The cut was tube but it has wraps to put on my shoulder. Along the gown, there was like crystal diamond that was embroidery on this. "I love it!" I whispered to myself and stopped to show my excitement. "Hey! Sis. Do you think this dress fits in on your wedding day?" A familiar voice asked me. I looked at him and remove my hands from the gown. It was... "Skyie, " I called his name. "Do we look great?" He asked. "You looked handsome, " I chuckled. He was wearing a blue tuxedo and a black next tie with his black pants. The way his hair is messy,  and the way he smiles,  he looks more attractive. But,  duh! He was my brother... "Nah! Come,  on! Sis. Tell me if you are joking, " he stated. I laughed at him. "How about me, sis?" Elaine interrupts. "You looked beautiful! It suits you very well. My dear,  sister-in-law," I answered and smiled at her. Elaine was wearing a tubless dress that makes her collarbone show up,  and her feet and legs were little shown since there was a slice in the side of her dress. They looked good together. "Is that what you wanted?" I asked them. "We are just gonna try to find some more, " he replied. "Wait! Sis. And we would try to find more suits and dresses for us to try on, " Skyie excused himself with Elaine. I just nodded and let them go. I then see Kenzo was having trouble fixing his necktie. (Kenzo was Renzo's brother) "Are you having trouble?" I asked him. Then helped him to fix his necktie. He just stared at me blankly. "There you go!" I said after I finished fixing his necktie. He was also wearing a blue tuxedo and red necktie. Blue was the theme of my wedding. "I can do it myself!" He coldly replied and walked away. What was his problem? Maybe he and Renzo were identical twins but their habit was different from each other. I just didn't mind it and let him be. I looked around everyone is busy finding the best suit for them,  even Renzo was busy. This whole bouquet was rented by us,  so no one was in here except us. "My wedding is just in a few months,"