CHAPTER 51

BLAIKE IVERSON'S POINT OF VIEW I just left Amelia there because I didn't want to see her cry. Then let me be carried away. And then I would let myself to hugged her. I didn't want to ruin the wedding that they planned for three years. Since I was not there for her all these years. Every tear that she shed would make me turn my promise into a disaster. I already told Renzo, that I am not gonna ruin their relationship. I just wanted to say goodbye to the person I loved. It was hard to let go,  it was hard to say goodbye. But this must happen. I am gone for the past three years. I am not there when she needed me. She was happy without me all these years. She learned to stand by herself,  even though I am not on her side. I recall the event that occurred as I was walking toward my car... FLASHBACK "Blaike could you stay? Could you still love me? Can you stay by my side? I would divorce Renzo after a year. I just wanted to fulfill the promise my parents promised to Renzo's parents. I still loved you, " she said. I was shocked at the moment... But  I didn't let the inner me overcome. I already promised Renzo that I would never ruin their marriage and I am happy for both of them. I think I would just go since this talk would not go on smoothly. I might ruin their upcoming wedding. And I didn't want that to happen. "I am happy about your wedding. I don't love you Amelia anymore. Please be happy with Renzo, " I stated and stand up. Amelia kneel on the ground and began to beg me. Her eyes were shedding some tears. Even if hurts for me to see her like that. I just walked away from her. I can't see her like that. Because I might refrain my self from hugging her and telling her how much I loved her. "Please! Blaike. Stay with me. I am begging you, " she stated. END OF FLASHBACK I took a deep breath and sighed... Tears started flowing from my eyes. It started to fall one by one. I can feel warm tears streaming down from my cheeks through to my skin. I let every tear come out of my eyes. I let the pain inside me come out. Every tear that came out from my puffy eyes,  indicates the pain that I was feeling. It represents every sadness and pain that I was feeling. I wipe down the tears that were flowing down to my cheeks... I opened my car door and goes inside. I started the car engine and drove more than the speed limit. I wanted to drive my car as fast as I could. Since I wanted to get rid of the guilt and pain that I was feeling at the same time. I could not bear the pain that I was feeling at this moment. ************************************** "Stop crying! You looked like a crying baby, " Rod teased me. I wipe down my tears and drink all the wine in my goblet glass. I just keep on drinking until I can't pour any wine into my glass. Because I was already run out of wine on the bottle. "Shut up!" I shouted at him. He just pull a chair and sat down next to me. He opened the bottle of whisky and poured some into my glass and also put on his. We drank until we finished the bottle of whisky. The whole surrounding is quiet because it was night. The moon was bright as the sun. The stars are glowing in the skies,  the whole sky was dark. The birds are chipping above the branch of the trees. The whole thing was quiet,  Rod didn't dare to speak up. He just silently drinks by my side. We just drank and let the cold breeze passes by our bare skin. I took a deep breath and sighed... I gathered my courage to open a topic. I wanted to cut off the long silence between us. "Rod!" I silently called his name. "Yes?" He answered while looking for a sip on his goblet glass. He was still staring at the skies. Admiring the cold and silent night. He was just serious while looking up. He keep quiet when I told him to. He seems to understand the pain I was feeling right now. Rod became a brother to me. We are like to be connected in blood. He became a family to me for three years. Now the time had come,  we would part our ways. Tomorrow I would announce to the team that I would be leaving and gonna keep Rod in charge of the group. I also got the approval of my superiors. I could finally leave the organization. For now,  I am just gonna wait for Amelia's wedding to be held. After I would see her on the aisle marrying Renzo. My heart would realize from worries that she would not be okay without me. I could finally rest in peace thinking there is someone that could take care of her,  even though I am not in her life. There is still someone willing to love her despite her flaws. "Sorry for shouting at you, "  I said sorry. Then took a sip of the wine that was in my hands. "It is okay! I know that feeling you are feeling. I was hurt too when Ayiesha liked you. I know that kind of feeling Blaike. You don't need to say sorry to me, " he answered and looked at me for a second before turning his attention to the skies again. His was only focused on the stars. So I just looked up while still drinking the whisky hat I was holding. "The pain was unbearable it was like killing me inside. For almost three years,  I didn't feel this kind of pain in my life. But now, that I was feeling it, this hurts so much that I didn't even wanna live right now. I am happy for her but at the same time, I was deeply hurt too, " I started. I wanted to release all of the pain that I was feeling inside of me... This kind of feeling was getting insane. It drives me mad at myself. Because this kind of agony was gonna make me miserable day by day. "It just hurt so much knowing the person you loved was marrying someone else. But I promised Renzo that I won't ruin their wedding. I want to keep my promise,  so I would just go far away from them and then moved on. For now, I just wanted to see them happy, " I added. Rod looked at me in despair but looked away immediately. He poured some whisky into his glass once again to refill again before taking a sip. "Loving someone could be so painful. So we must be ready for the consequence at the end, " Rod commented. "I agreed!" I agree. I just took a deep breath and sighed... I just wanted to be free from the pain that I was feeling. Since the pain was unbearable. This would be a torment for me, but I need to bear it for the best. "If you needed someone to talked I am just here for you, " Rod comforted me. I just nodded and we both continued drinking. ************************************** I walked confidently towards the meeting hall. I called a meeting to announce that I am leaving the organization. And also to appoint Rod as the new leader of the group. I needed to organize this since tomorrow was Amelia's wedding. Even I am not okay yet,  because of what happened a few days ago. I needed to build up my courage to face all the unfinished business that I needed to do. My responsibility to the organization must not interfere with my personal life. After this, I would just see Amelia get married to Renzo after that I would be leaving again. I am gonna live with my father and mother. My father would gonna be released from prison tomorrow afternoon. And I am gonna attend Amelia's wedding in the morning. Every decision I make,  I made sure that I am not gonna regret it at the end of the day. Because I know to myself that I did the right thing. Rod would be the best candidate to take over my position. If they wanted to replace Rod it is up to them to decide not on me. But I am sure that Rod would do his best to make the group to best among all. "Good morning!" I stated on all of them. All of my men were already in the meeting room. Rod was standing beside me. "Good morning!" They all answered. I took a deep breath and sighed before I am going to say everything. I already informed Rod about this. So he was already ready to take over the leadership position. "I gathered you all in here to make an important announcement. I would be leaving the underground society. We won't gonna see each other anymore. I just wanted to inform you all that Rod would take over my position ad a leader..."