CHAPTER 31

AMELIA RIVERA'S POINT OF VIEW I looked upon the sky,  as the cold wind passes by my bare skin. The sky was blue as the ocean,  the sun glows as bright as the moon. The rainbow is as colorful as before. While the birds were flying freely in the sky. The bird's chipping was so relaxing on the ears. And the way the branches of the trees sway makes the surroundings look peaceful. I sat down on the chair beside me and took a sip of my juice. On the table,  beside me,  the wedding invitation was. It was well decorated according to the designs that I wanted "Im gonna give this later to every guest," I whispered to myself. I stared at the invitation cards blankly. I was now doubting whether would I marry Renzo or not! I took a deep breath and sighed. I didn't understand what I am feeling now. I felt guilty for promising Renzo to marry him. Well! I didn't promise to marry him. I just agreed to the idea to marry. Because it was once promised by my dead parents. I just want to run from my feelings towards Blaike that is why I agreed to marry him. I thought I could love Renzo for the past years when I am with him. But until now,  my feelings were still for Blaike. I asked myself many times during those years if I could ever love Renzo? But even myself... I didn't even know the answer! "Could I ever still love Renzo?" I asked myself in disappointment. I took a deep breath and sighed. It is making me stressed thinking that I could never love him. But I wanted to try to love Renzo for more years. I would continue this marriage because I agreed with his mother. It would bring shame to the name of our company and my family's legacy if I would break the agreement. So I would do this,  and maybe this time I can fall in love with Renzo. Renzo was nice,  caring, and a gentleman. Every woman could fall in love with him easily,  because of his charming and good characteristics. He has a charm that a woman could never say no to.  He was so perfect,  that you could never find something wrong with him. He was such a nice person that you could ever meet. I think my heart just can't love Renzo? That is why until now I had no feelings for him. Or maybe---- Because I still loved Blaike and I can't move on from our love story. Maybe that is why I still cant loved him now. I dont know! It was hard to explain what I am feeling right now. I felt happiness and sadness right now. I can't find the right emotion for the feelings I am feeling now... Did Renzo deserve this? For the past three years,  he became my crying shoulder. He was always been the first person to be with me. He was the person to hear all my rants,  my problems, or whenever I want a person to talk to. He always makes time for me every time I needed him. I felt guilty all these years because he confess to me that he loved me. Every time Renzo asked me if I like him back,  I was just quiet because  I didn't know what to answer or tell him. I was speechless... Every time he was around me. I was not comfortable because thinking that the person was there for me who loved me,  that I cant love back. "I need to let go of Blaike right now. Because I can't bring back the past,  our loved ones.  It was now part of the past that I had to accept, " I needed to let go of Blaike to learn to love Renzo. I am getting married that is why I have to move on from our failed love story. "I still loved Blaike!" "Amelia, " a voice called me. It interrupts my thoughts... I looked at the person who called... It was Renzo... Wai-t! Did he hear what I said? Did he--? "H-have you heard everything I said?" I utterly asked him. I felt shy right now! Because if he heard that I know it would break his heart since he loved me. He was still in love with me. And I can't risk his heart getting hurt again because of those words. I didn't wanna break his heart and shatter it into a million pieces again. "No, " his confused replied. I looked straight into his eyes to see if he was telling the truth. And with the confused looked on his face, I am sure that he was not lying. "Okay!" I answered and smiled. That was so embarrassing! "So what are your plans today? Won't you go to your office today?" He asked me and sat down next to me. "No! Im wanted to rest for a while. Since these past few months, I was busy planning our wedding and in the office too, " I answered. "What would you gonna do today?" He asked again. "Nothing! How about you why are you in here? Aren't you supposed to be in your Mom's company?" I asked him. Renzo was managing the company when his mom is away on a business trip. While his brother was full-time in their company,  Kenzo was always in there,  he just worked and worked. Not like Renzo,  he was just in there to help his mom and brother. Renzo wanted to manage the company too. But since his twin brother Kenzo was doing that he didn't want to interfere so he just let his brother. Whenever his Mom was away on a business trip there he was going on the company and helped his brother manage the company. Even though Renzo would help and manage the company,  Kenzo would not care about it. But Renzo just insisted on managing his own business without interfering with his brother's wants. "Mom just got back from her business trip so that is why she doesn't need me in there. And  Kenzo was there to help her.  Right now that Kenzo was doing a big presentation for the new investors, " he answered. "Okay!" I replied. I was out of words,  I didn't know what to say to him any longer. "Did the wedding invitation come?" He asked me as he changed the topic. Because our atmosphere became tense when one of us stopped talking and the surroundings would become silent. "Yes, " I replied and get the wedding invitation and handed it to Renzo. "Why didn't you tell me earlier?" He asked. Is it my fault that he did not ask? I didn't bother him because I thought he would be in the company. After all, his Mom would come back next week. But I was wrong his Mom came back earlier than I expected. I just looked at him blankly and raised my right eyebrow. He told me yesterday that he could not distribute it and asked me if I could distribute our wedding invitation. That is why I didn't bother to tell him. "Im sorry!" "It is okay, " he said and snatched the wedding invitations in my hand. "I would hand it now and deliver it to every guest now. I would drive to their home and give it to them, " -3 continued and stand up. I just nodded at him and smiled. Then he walked away to give our wedding invitations to our guests.