CHAPTER 47

BLAIKE IVERSON'S POINT OF VIEW "Amelia, " I whispered her name while tears were forming inside of my eyes. My tears wanted to race down my cheeks from my eyes. I tried to stop it from falling from my angelic precious eyes,  but I can't. I stood frozen at where I was standing right now. I just keep on watching and listening carefully to the toast they are doing. "A toast for our upcoming wedding, " Amelia happily stated while raising her glass of wine to make a toast. I looked directly at Amelia's eyes from afar to see if she was really happy. But I can't see happiness in her eyes,  happiness that she never had when she was with me. There is a lot of changes in her,  over the past three years. She became more beautiful and looked so elegant in what she was wearing. I can't on the past three years she would be more beautiful than ever. I just stood where I was standing now as they both make a toast and announce of the there upcoming wedding. Tears were continuously flowing from my eyes... I stayed there for at least five minutes to witness their happy engagement. Until my eyes became blurry and I can't hold the pain that I was seeing. As I walked away from them... I felt like there was a sharp knife pointing at my chest. It felt like someone wants to kill me at this moment. The pain just goes by as my tears continuously flow. This was the first time I felt this kind of pain inside of my heart in the past three years. I can't believe that when I was ready to come back with her,  to spend the rest of my life with her. She was now getting married. Maybe if I just arrived earlier then she would not be getting married and she would be with me. I took a deep breath and sighed... I reached in my pocket to look for the keys to my car. When I touched the keys inside of my pocket. I immediately opened my car and goes inside. When I goes inside the car,  I immediately burst into tears. I dont care if I am a man! Even though I am a man,  I still had some feelings too. I still had a heart that could hurt anytime. Tears were continuously flowing from my eyes through my cheeks down to my skin. Now there were a lot of questions forming inside of my head right now. It wanted some answers that I can't answer. Only Amelia could answer it,  but I am too afraid to ask her. Am I not worth it to wait? What does Renzo have that I don't have? What does Renzo do when I was away? Does Amelia love him? How long are they been engaged? How long does their relationship? When is there an upcoming wedding? Does Amelia have already move on? Are three years too long to wait? Can't Amelia wait for me? Does Amelia doesn't love me anymore? Does Amelia is happy with him? What does  Renzo do to make Amelia fall in love with him? Would it be a sin if I continued loving Amelia even though I know she was getting married? Can Amelia love me again? What if I confessed to Amelia that I still love her, would she still come back to me? What have I done wrong in my life do deserve this shitty life? There are a lot of questions that keep appearing inside of my head. While my tears continued flowing. "Am I not worth it to wait? What does Renzo have that I don't have? What does Renzo do when I was away? Does Amelia love him? How long are they been engaged? How long does their relationship? When is there an upcoming ing wedding? Does Amelia have already move on? Are three years too long to wait? Can't Amelia wait for me? Does Amelia doesn't love me anymore? Does Amelia is happy with him? What does  Renzo do to make Amelia fall in love with him? Would it be a sin if I continued loving Amelia even though I know she was getting married? Can Amelia love me again? What if I confessed to Amelia that I still love her, would she still come back to me? What have I done wrong in my life do deserve this shitty life?" I asked myself one after another question. I just let my tears keep streaming down my face. I can't hold back the pain. I can't stop myself from crying because of the pain that I was feeling right now. All of the things that were happening to my was so hard to accept. The pain inside me keeps on adding. It hurts like shit! I never thought that loving someone could be this painful. It was more painful than being hit by a bullet. I just let the tears from my eyes let out the pain that I was feeling. I just broke into my tears inside of my car. The pain of knowing that the person I love,  was getting married any day right now,  hurts me a lot. SKYIE RIVERA'S POINT OF VIEW I was now heading home, but then I stopped my car when I saw a familiar figure. That I could never expect to see again in a million years. "Mom..." I utterly said. I immediately parked my car on the side. I wanted to run toward my mother and hugged her. I dont care if she was my mother or not because they just looked like my mother. My father took me away from my mother ten years ago. That is why my father abandons me. I didn't see my mother. After I locked my car. I hurriedly run towards my mothers and hugged her. "Mom," I called her. She seems shocked at first because a stranger is hugging her. Because a grown man was hugging her. So I let go of the hug since I am not sure if she was my mother. Because she and my mother looked like. "I am sorry, maam! You and my mother looked like each other. I am sorry,  I have just mistaken it was you, " I immediately apologize to her. She seems shocked on she saw my face. She was like she saw a ghost. "Skyie..." She whispered. Wai-t! Does she know my name? "Mom? Is that you?" I immediately asked her. Then tears of joy were now forming inside my eyes. I let my tears stream down my face one by one. I smiled as I was looking at my mother. Finally,  I saw her after ten years of longing for a mother. "Yes!" She answered while whipping my tears from my cheeks. ************************************** We are now in a park so that my mother and I can talk. Because she misses so much about me. While I am growing up. "I missed you so much, mom. Since the day that Dad abandon me, I never stopped waiting for the day that I meet you again,  Mom. Dad dragged me to come with him,  even though I didn't want to, " I said as I opened a topic. My mother just listens to me... Ten years had passed by she looked the same. My mother was still beautiful as ever. I never imagine in a million years that I would see her again,  here. On where my step-sister was planning to do their wedding. I wish where my father is right now. I wish he was happy! Even though he was the one that makes my life miserable. "I am just in here to see you for the last time. Because I am going somewhere far away with my new family," my mother said. I just stared at her when she said that... I felt like my life shattered into a million pieces as she said those words. There was like a sharp knife pointing inside of my chest right now. The pain inside me increases. I felt like my tears were wanting to fall,  but I hold them back. I just force a smile on my mother... "I am happy to see you mom for the last time. I wish you would be happy with your new family. And they would take care of you well in there, " I replied. I am happy for my mother,  but I was also sad because I can't be with her. I thought seeing her would be our greatest reunion but no. It was the most painful day to see my mother again. My mother would leave me again for her new family. Maybe I just needed to accept that fact because she has a life too. And I am a grown-up man who can handle himself. "I just want to make sure to see you for the last time before I go. Take care always my son. You would always be my son no matter what. Take care of you self Skyie, " she stated. I felt my tears wanting to come out of my eyes. Because her words made me stab my t because of pain. "I will,  Mom!" I replied and force a smile. "And one more thing that I wanted you to know, " she stated. "What is that mom?" I asked her. Her words make me lose my balance on my seat... It was the most shocking thing that I know in my whole life...