CHAPTER 41

ROD AZRAEL'S POINT OF VIEW "Ayeisha..." I whispered her name. I walked away from them,  I don't want to cause a scene. I just advised and comforted her because she was heartbroken from Blaike. Now that she had finally moved on,  she is now with another man. How about me? How about my feelings for her? I wanted to cry... Because it hurts me so bad seeing her be with someone else. I tried to hide my feelings toward her until now. But I can't hide the pain I was feeling. I tried to stop my tears from falling from my eyes. Because I didn't want anyone to see that I am getting weak because of love. In our organization,  we should not have any weaknesses. That is why we are orphans who dont have any family. So it would not be against our every mission. I didn't realize love would be my weakness. Now I understand why the organization doesn't want Blaike to remember Amelia. Because it would just be a threat to our mission. "Love, " a voice caught my attention. A couple was hugging each other,  they are twenty meters away from me. The familiar figure of the woman caught my attention. She was Ayeisha... The woman who was hugging the man beside him was Ayeisha. I felt a sharp knife stabbing my chest.  My heart shattered into a million pieces as I saw them happily hugging each other. The smile on Ayieha's face was different. It was the first time that I saw her happy in these past few weeks. Now a question occurred to my mind... Does Ayeisha happy with this man? "Love, " Ayeisha called him as she loosen the hug between them. "I wish I was with you all the time. I missed spending a lot of time with you, " the man sighed as he said those words. Ayeisha gently holds the man's face and wiped the happy tears that were falling from his eyes. How I wished that Ayeisha could also do the same to me. "Come on! Love. We saw each other every day because we live on the same roof, " Ayeisha jokingly said. They lived on the same roof. What? But Ayeisha was living with us... Is that why I didn't see Ayiesha on the house lately? Does the organization let her fall in love with this man? Does the organization know this? I know that any of us didn't let the organization fall in love. Because they didn't want it to be a burden to our mission. It is the rule for the boys. But is it also the rules for the girls? Ayiesha put her head on the shoulder of the man. I just sadly watched them while I broke myself into a million pieces. They looked happy while I was watching them in here. They looked so perfect together. But how about me? How about my feelings? I can't watch them anymore... I want Ayeisha to be happy. But I didn't want her to be happy with someone else. I am being selfish because I wish that Ayeisha and that man would break up? I just want Ayeisha to be mine... All mine! I stand up and looked away,  away from them. I walked away as far as I can so that I could not see them both. When I reached my car,  I go inside and started my car engine. After a long drive,  the guards opened the gate for me so I could go inside. I park my car in our parking area. And goes directly into the garden at the back of the house. I sat down and closed my eyes. I wanted to feel the warm breeze. "You want some juice?" A familiar voice spoke up. I opened my eyes and almost jumped out of my seat when I saw her. "Ayeisha!" I loudly shouted as I stand up from my seat. "Do you want some?" She asked me. But I didn't bother to look at what she was handing me. I was a bit confused now... I just saw her on the beach with some guy. Now she was standing in front of me. I am dreaming or this was real? "Ayeisha... Is that you?" I asked her in disbelief. I took a step one by one before touching her face to know if she was real or just a ghost. "Hey! Stop, " she hissed,  and she hit my hand so that I would stop. The way she hits my hand hurts a little. So this was not a dream,  it was all true. But I just saw her earlier on the beach. Right? Was it all my hallucination earlier? Did I see her on the beach earlier? A lot of questions keep popping inside of my head. It was running and spinning inside of my head like crazy. It wanted some answers that would gonna bothered me. I just gonna brush my mind,  on what happened earlier. "You seem you saw a ghost. Is everything all right?" Ayeisha asked me then sat down on the chair. She put the juice she was handing to me on the table beside her. Because I didn't get it when she was handing it to me earlier. I sat down next to the chair on her and grabbed the juice that she had indeed to gave to me earlier. "Did you go to the beach earlier? Why I haven't seen you in the house lately?" I asked her. Because a lot of questions wanted some answers. It just keeps bothering me as it stays inside of my mind. Maybe it won't make her feel uncomfortable if I asked her those questions. "I am just in my bedroom earlier and I still haven't left the mansion yet. And this past few days,  I am just reporting something to one of our superiors, " she answered. She didn't leave the house? Maybe it was not her the one I saw earlier. Maybe I was just overthinking. "Are you dating someone?" I immediately asked her. I wanted to shut my mouth the moment those words came out of my mouth. "No!" She immediately responded. "I won't date at this moment, " she continued. I was stunned by what she said... Those words that came out of her lips made me calm down. And stopped me from overthinking. BLAIKE IVERSON'S POINT OF VIEW I looked at all the photos that my mom gave to me. It was all our family photos. My mother was busy in her bedroom,  fixing her things. She gave me this old photo album so I could have accompanied it. I could recall my old memories. I can't remember much of my childhood. But since that day,  I forgot my mother's face. I loved my mother and father since they are the only family that I had... "Dad..." I whispered in the cold breeze. How I wish we could also be one big happy family like the other families. But we can't... My father is in jail,  and the organization must not find out that my mom was still alive. I don't want her to be involved in our mess,  in my mess. Once I finished my mission and my Dad gets out of the jail. We could use my savings and move to another state,  or country,  where far away from here. We could start a new life far away from her,  from the organization. To live a simple and normal life. I flip the pages one by one as I saw our old photos together. I imagine the past,  on how happy we are back then. I wanted to go to the past and experience the happiness we felt back then. But then... I remembered I cannot always bring back the past. I have to live my life and be happy with what I have. Right now! At least now we could be a happy family like back then. Sooner or later we can finally all be together. "Son, " my mom happily called me and sat down across where I sat down. "Where is your father is he coming in here?" She asked me. I was stunned by what she said. So I closed the photo album I was looking for and looked away for a second. I can't answer my mother's question... "H-He was in jail, " I utterly replied. "I know! I thought he already got out of jail, " My Mom said. I looked at her with a confused expression on my face. How did she know that my father was in jail? "How did you know Mom?" I asked her. "Some of your uncle's men told me that when they are delivering some food in the house. And also when they are handing me some money," she answered. So my uncle's men reported it to my mother. Even though my uncle was dead she was still taken care of here. I was glad that my mother did not have a difficult life when she was away. "Did you already meet your half-brother?" She asked me as she changed the topic. I have a half-brother? "Who?" I immediately asked her. "Skyie Rivera..."