CHAPTER 50

RENZO SMITH'S POINT OF VIEW I sat down on my bed crying and having a mental breakdown. From what I saw in Amelia's eyes,  she was still in love with Blaike. Eyes never lie,  it always shows our real emotion no matter how hard we tried to deny them. It just hurts me! Knowing that the person I loved already love someone else. I've been there with Amelia for three whole years without leaving her side. Maybe until now I still just can't accept the fact that I can't love can't be forced. No matter what we do,  we can not force someone to love us. Even if we are there,  by their side,  they could still not love us back. We could never force anyone to love us back the way we love ourselves... And it hurts! The truth hurts me badly... "How can I just let myself get hurt?" I asked myself. While the memory of what happened earlier flashback on my mind... FLASHBACK "Could I ask for one more favor?" I asked. "Of course!" I stated. "Could I see Amelia for the last time and talked to her?" He asked me. His favor shocked me... But I would make it happen since after this he would go far away again. And we could never see him again. "Of course!" I replied and forced a smile. "Okay! Same time,  in here also. Thank you so much,  Renzo!" He thanked me. ************************************** When I got home I sat down on our black cozy sofa. While I was driving on the way home. I was thinking if I still should let Amelia see Blaike. I am still afraid that I would lose Amelia... But since it is the last time they would see each other. I must let them see each other again. Even I know that my heart would be shattered into a million pieces. I could not just stop everything that just happened. "Amelia, " I softly called her name. I took a deep breath and sighed. I handed her a piece of paper written with the time and place where she should see Blaike. "What is this?" She asked me as she raised her left eyebrow. She seems confused... "Blaike wanted to see you, " I stated. "Really? Where is he?" She excitedly asked me. I can see the excitement and happiness inside Amelia's eyes. I can see from Amelia's eyes that she still loves Blaike... Eyes never lie... "Meet Blaike at that address.." END OF FLASHBACK "Could Amelia ever gonna love me back?" I asked myself wondering where did I go wrong. I just lay down on my bed restless. Feeling hopeless and hurt. At the end of the day,  loving someone is very painful. I didn't realize that loving Amelia could be this painful... BLAIKE IVERSON'S POINT OF VIEW "Are you ready?" Rod asked me calmly. "What?" I asked him. I glared at him... He was so annoying... I took a deep breath and sighed. I walked back and forth in the garage because I hesitated to see Amelia. Renzo just texted me that Amelia is on her way to go to our meeting place. And here I am thinking if I should go or not. I felt my heart racing like crazy. It was beating so fast and loud that I could hear it right now. It was making me nervous... "Just go! Amelia is waiting for you in the park. Do you want to wait for a girl?" He asked me and pushed me inside my car. "I would go just stop pushing me, " I told him. But it was too late I was already inside my car. He just wave goodbye to me. I have no choice! I just started my car engine and started driving my car. I drove to the park. The driving was at least thirty minutes away from home. I park my car and went to the park. My eyes were looking for Amelia's shadow somewhere.  My eyes are only focused on seeing Amelia. After five minutes of walking and finding here. I finally saw her,  I walked directly towards her. "Amelia!" I softly called her name in my sweet velvet voice. She then looked in my direction "Blaike?"  She called me. She stand up and run toward me to hug me,  I just hugged her back. I missed the warmth of her hug. I missed feeling like this. It is been three years since the last time I hugged,  touched,  and saw her. I missed the feeling that I could be by her side. I was longing for the warmth of her hug. I missed her so badly... I wanted to cry. Because tears started to form in my eyes. It wanted badly to come out of my eyes. But I hold it. I didn't want to see that I am crying the first that I saw her. I closed my eyes as I felt the warm embrace of her hug. "I miss you so badly! Where have you been all these years? I am sorry if I reported you to the police. I just still can't accept the fact that you were involved in killing my parents. I was still heartbroken at that time about my parent's sudden death. I am sorry if you had gone through this, " she stated between her sobs on my should,  while she was still hugging. I just hugged her tightly... "Don't be sorry Amelia! I was never been angry with you. You were the only person I loved all these years. I understand the pain you were feeling. I also lost my parents,  and it was a very heartbreaking event that happened to me. Nothing changed,  you were the Amelia I used to love, " I replied to her then wiped the tears that fall from my eyes. I tried to overcome the tears that wanted to fall from my eyes. My shoulder was a little bit wet because of Amelia's tears. I just patted her back,  while she was hugging to make her calm down. I dont want to see her crying like this... It hurts me so badly... Like shit! I just hugged her tightly, I wanted to make this day memorable. Since it would be the last time that I would be seeing her. I promised Renzo that this is the last time I am gonna see Amelia. I would to their wedding to witness it. After that, I would go to a faraway place where they can't see me. I didn't want to bother them. Because I know Amelia could be happy with him. I was not with Amelia for three years on ups and downs. But Renzo was there with her,  now I would just show up and take away Amelia from him. I would not dare to take away Amelia from Renzo. Because I know how much it hurts. I would respect Renzo's feelings. "Blaike, " she called my name and hugged me before removing her hands. I wiped her tears and we both sat down on the bench near us. I looked directly into her eyes. I gaze at her gorgeous face like there was no tomorrow. Since I know to myself that this would be the last time that I would see her face this closed. I wanted to spend every second staring at her face. "Amelia! How have you been all these years?" I happily asked here. "I am fine! How about you?" She replied. I missed her sweet angelic voice. The way she speaks makes my heart flutter. I can feel butterflies in my stomach. And my feelings started to be deeper and deeper. "Congratulations on your wedding, " I congratulate her. I taught her she was gonna smiled. But I was wrong she seems sad and disappointed. I looked into her eyes but she looked away. Is she not happy with Renzo? "So you know that I am getting married to Renzo?" She asked me as she broke the silence between us. "Yes! I am happy for both of you. Finally, I can see you getting married to thaan that could treat you better. The man that could give everything to you,  that would be you the queen of his world. You would be treated like royalty by Renzo's side. I am happy to see you finally found your happiness, " I happily fold her while I am forced to smile. But I didn't show her that I was faking my smile since I didn't want her to see that I am in pain. Deep inside it hurts seeing the person I loved was getting married to someone else. But I could do nothing about it,  but just accept it. Since I was been gone from her life for so long. "Blaike could you stay? Could you still love me? Can you stay by my side? I would divorce Renzo after a year. I just wanted to fulfill the promise my parents promised to Renzo's parents. I still loved you, " she said. I was shocked at the moment... But  I didn't let the inner me overcome. I already promised Renzo that I would never ruin their marriage and I am happy for both of them. I think I would just go since this talk would not go on smoothly. I might ruin their upcoming wedding. And I didn't want that to happen. "I am happy about your wedding. I don't love you Amelia anymore. Please be happy with Renzo, " I stated and stand up. Amelia kneel on the ground and began to beg me. Her eyes were shedding some tears. Even if hurts for me to see her like that. I just walked away from her. I can't see her like that. Because I might refrain my self from hugging her and telling her how much I loved her. "Please! Blaike. Stay with me. I am begging you..."