Chapter Forty-Two

Just to get into the building was difficult, you needed to wait outside for ages telling them your name and if you've set a meeting up. Than a man comes out asking for ID and starts to search you, just in case you're sneaking something in to give to one of the patients. I wasn't really too bothered about this, all my mind was focusing on was what I was gonna say to Tristan. I knew I had to word what I was gonna say in a way that wouldn't set him off, last time I was here he was better but still not fully there. After what feels like forever, I'm escorted into the building. Once the door closes you hear all the locks locking, they really don't want these people to get out. I lock my things away in a little box at reception, before following the man once again. We walk for a few more minutes until we reach the meeting room, once the door opens I spot Tristan sitting at the table. "Erika, I'm so glad to see you" he smiles as I make my way into the room, the door being closed behind me "you look incredible" he smiles amazed as I take the seat in front of him, my mind drawing at blank to on what to say next. We don't talk for a few minutes, I should have thought about what to say before I got here. He didn't seem to mind the silence though, he just looks over with a smile on his face. "You have a tattoo?" He asks breaking the silence, I give him a confused look as I didn't have any tattoo, was he now hallucinating?! "on your neck" he says pointing to the side of my neck, oh he's talking about my mark! "Oh yeah, I only got it a few days ago so I keep forgetting" I smile finally speaking for the first time, glad I was able to think of an excuse quickly "I'm sorry I haven't visited sooner, I've had a hectic few months" I say which was a huge understatement, this last few months have been life changing. "It's fine Erika, I'm just so glad you're here now" he smiles placing his hands on the table as though he wanted to take mine, luckily mine were under the table. "So how have you been doing?" I ask hoping to move away from the topic of us, I didn't need to get into us right now. "Really great actually, the doctors think they've finally found the right medication and dosage to keep my brain level. I feel like the old me again, they say I could be able to leave this place in a few weeks" he smiles which was amazing news don't get me wrong, but that meant he would be out for the first time since everything happened, it's lucky I came to see him when I did "that means you and me can get back to what we were before" he smiles which does make me sigh, I guess I can't avoid the topic anymore. "Tristan.....I think this is the last time I'm going to visit you in here" I say not looking up from the table, I didn't want to see his expression when he heard me. "Yeah I know that's what I just said, I'll be able to leave soon so you won't have to visit me" he smiles happily not getting what I was trying to say, he's making this so much harder! "That's not what I mean, Tristan I've.......found someone else, I'm with someone else" I say but look up at his face this time, he seems to be shocked at first but than looks as though he was gonna cry. "What do mean, romantically with someone else?" He asks inching a little closer to me as he spoke, I give a little nod of my head before looking down "but you promised, you said if I come in here you'll wait for me" he starts to cry a little which does make me feel so bad, I sigh looking down holding my own tears back. "I never promised you Tristan, you did this because it was the best thing for you. I've came to visit each year to check on you, but that doesn't mean we're ever gonna get back to how we were Tristan. We had great times but it's in the past now" I say as he just shakes his head moving his chair back, I also move back a little getting nervous. He gets up from his chair and comes to stand near me, he kneels down in front of me holding my arms in his. He than places his head in my lap and starts to cry, I have to hold my tears back as he holds me so tightly. "Please don't leave me Erika, I need you to stay with me, I can't do this without you" he cries shaking his head telling me no, I take his head in my hands and move him slightly to look at me. "You're gonna do greats things when you get out of here, you don't need me" I say looking him in the eyes but he shakes his head "this guy I'm with, he makes me so happy Tristan. I've never been so happy in my life, if you really care about me you'll let me go" I say stroking his cheek with my thumb as I spoke, I still was feeling so bad now he was crying. "But I can make you happy Erika, I promise things will be different when I get out, just give me a chance" he cries trying to reason with me, but I couldn't take any of the offers. "I can't Tristan, you and me are over" I say looking over at the door, the man from before was there looking over at us concerned. So he saw all this go down and didn't try to help me?! I give him a look saying help with my eyes, which he thankfully understands and opens the door. He rushes over taking Tristan by the arms, he fights against him screaming no still holding onto me so tightly. "I can't let you go Erika! Please!" He cries as more people start to run in, it takes about 4 men but they eventually manage to pull me off me. "Erika please! I can't do this without you! I'll change I promise!" He cries as I rise from my chair, he was still fighting against the men as they drag him away. "I wish you all the best Tristan" I say before I turn and walk out the room, once I was out the door tears just roll down my cheeks uncontrollably. I hear his screams and shouts as I walk down the corridor, he cries my name over and over again as I reach the locker. I knew this was going to be hard and he probably wasn't gonna take it well, but I wasn't expecting him to act like that! Once I round all my stuff up I leave the building, all I wanted to do was get home and try to pretend this never happened. Once I get outside a spot someone stood by a car, Cody was there with his arms crossed as I walk over. How did he know I was here? I make my way down the steps getting kind of nervous, what if he's gonna be mad? "Cody, I thought you were at that important meeting-" I try to say but he cuts me off, to say I was nervous he was gonna be mad was a understatement! "The meeting wasn't that important and it already ended, that's when I found you wasn't home" he says as I come to a stop in front of him, he still leant on the car "you don't have to explain, Reece told me everything and I understand" he smiles finally moving away from the car, that was a huge relief I'm gonna tell you! "This is the last time I'm gonna come here, I told him that I'm with someone else and it's over. Not that he took it very well" I sigh looking down at the ground, him shouting my name like that was a lot "but the way I see it now, that chapter of my life is over so and now I can start living the amazing chapter I have ahead of me, with you, the pack and all the amazing adventures we have in store" I smile looking at the bright side of all of this, he immediately smiles taking my arms and pulling me into him for a hug. This is definitely one hug that I needed, I knew I had to have that conversation with Tristan at some point, didn't know it was gonna be that hard thorough. The loving moment was interrupted by loud shouting, just from the voice I knew who it was. "Erika, please don't leave me, I can make you happy!" Tristan shouts from one of the glass conservatives they had, the same guys from before were trying to hold him back "it's always gonna be me and you, you must remember that!" He shouts still being held back, I pull away from Cody who just holds me tighter. "That must be Tristan, the guy that not only touched what was mine, but also the one that tried to kill my mate" Cody growls getting rather angry staring up at Tristan, I knew he would have no trouble scaling that building to get to him. "Can we go home?" I ask pulling at his arm a little, he looks down at me with a smile placing a kiss on my head, which does make Tristan go mad. Cody takes my arm leading me over to the car while opening the door, I thank him climbing in where he quickly walks over to his side. Soon we were driving home away and from Tristan. What I said back there was true, talking to Tristan was closing that chapter in my life. But I needed to have another conversation with someone else too so it could fully be done with.