Gone

I open my eyes to discover I'm laying in bed, my hands stung as I look down to see them wrapped up in bandages. Beside me was Gray sleeping peacefully with his arm wrapped around my stomach, he didn't leave me like he promised he wouldn't. It was pouring with rain outside which was quite fitting for what happened, than I start to wonder if they've managed to get Rupert and Lizzy out the lake yet. It was pitch black when I left last night, you could barely see your own hand, just image trying to find two people in the lake. I hope they're not down there too long. Gray's phone ringing from across the room causes us both to jump, he looks across at the phone but his head soon whips around to me. "You are awake, you aren't in any pain are you?" He asks me sitting up straight, while his phone still rang in the background. "Um I don't know, Gray your phone" I say pointing towards the chest of drawers with the phone on, it might be important. "My love are you in any pain, even the tiniest little pain I want to know" he says still ignoring his ringing phone, that person probably needs to speak to him. "I mean my hands hurt but Gray your phone is ringing" I say looking to him then to the phone, which stops ringing when I turn back to it. "Oh look it appears to have stopped, the doctor did say your hands would hurt as they heal, I will mind-link someone to bring you up some painkillers" he smiles before his face goes blank, I couldn't do that last night as I couldn't get hold of my wolf but as I try again, I still can't get hold of her. Once Gray comes back he clocks my face, he takes my arm rubbing his hand over it like he knew what I was thinking. "You cannot get a hold of your wolf, the chemicals that Rupert used to knock you out has also knocked your wolf out, at this moment we aren't sure what chemicals he used and what we can do to get her back, but the doctors are trying" he says as I just look down at the bed, I don't have a wolf. "What if they don't find them and she's never going to wake up? I'll just be a human" I say looking at the wall, a part of me felt lost without my wolf, she's been there when I was going through the toughest moments of my life and now she's just gone. "They will find them my love, it might just take some time but I will look after you" he says wrapping his arm around my shoulders, that's easy for him to say he has a wolf! "I know my love, if we could swap places so you would not be going through this, I would in a heartbeat" he says holding me tightly, he can still hear my thoughts?! "So you can still mind-link me and hear my thoughts, but I can't?" I ask which doesn't really make sense to me, how does that work? "None of this makes sense my love, due to that horrible individual that took the easy way out" he growls his eyes going darker, he must be talking about Rupert. "He wasn't all horrible, in his mind he had no choice" I sigh remembering the horrible events from yesterday, he gives me a look which told me he didn't like what I just said "you didn't see him Gray, yeah at first he was this heartless man who wanted nothing more than to hurt me and your mum" I say thinking back to when Lizzy and I were in that warehouse "but then I managed to talk to him, he was just hurting and missed his mate so much that he didn't know what to do with himself, in his mind he blamed himself for what happened to his mate but also to Matilda, that's why in his mind he needed to go through what she would have, then it would all be fixed" I say not even looking at him when I spoke, I couldn't get the image of him jumping in the lake with Lizzy in his arms out of my head. "Why did he take my mother with him?" he asks which finally makes me look over at him, you'd think after he lost his mother he would be sad but he didn't, either he hasn't fully processed what's happened yet or he's good at hiding it. "He told me before he did it, he wasn't going to hurt Lizzy but she had to open her mouth" I tell him which makes the image of her laying on the dock fill my mind "just so you know, your mum was already gone when she went in the water with him, she wouldn't have felt a thing" I say hoping to ease his worry a little, his face once again doesn't change while he just stares at the wall. Before we could speak anymore his face goes blank, I'm glad he's able to take full advantage of that. I once again try my hardest to reach out to my wolf but once again, I got no reply and didn't feel her there like I always did. Can she really be gone? What if she never comes back? "They have just recovered the bodies of Rupert and my mother" he explains which causes me to look down a little, yes I'm over the moon that they've been found but, even the thought of them being in there makes me want to cry "we have the funeral for my mother set up for tomorrow and I do not care what happens to him" he growls out talking about Rupert, whoa that's fast planning for a funeral. "I will sort Rupert's for him" I say beginning to climb out of bed but he stops me, he didn't look too pleased about what I said "I was the last person he ever spoke to and he doesn't have anyone else, I'm doing it" I tell him once again climbing out of bed, I also need to find a way to keep the promise I made to him. "What promise?" Gray asks as I start to walk to the bathroom, I don't answer at first so within a second he's in front of me while I stood in the doorway of the bathroom, how did he even move passed me that quick? "Just before he did what he did, he asked me to promise him that I would keep Ellie's name alive, he didn't want her memory tainted by what he done so I said I would make sure people remember her for the right reasons" I say trying to move passed him but he holds my arms, luckily not touching the parts that are bandaged. "My love, I know you are hiding your emotions from what happened last night, it's okay to feel those feelings" he tells me which immediately make tears form in my eyes, I was intending to cry out my feelings while I showered but here we are "I do not want you hiding your feelings away from me my love, I want to know about whatever emotions you are feeling" he tells me but I shake my head, I didn't want him to feel bad for me especially now. "But you've just lost your mother Gray, I need to be strong so you feel like you don't need to hide your emotions away from me" I say trying my absolute hardest to win the battle with these tears, they were putting up quite a fight. "I am not upset about my mother, I mourned the death of her many years ago, to me and what we are telling the public, after all these years we were able to locate her body and she is now being put to rest" he says which causes me to study his face, I was trying to see if his face would tell me a different story, but it wasn't "you experienced and witnessed some awful events last night, you need to feel those emotions that you are pushing away" he tells me running his hands up my arms as he spoke, I have to admit defeat against the tears once he finished that sentence. He immediately wraps his arms around me while my arms wrap around his neck, the tears start to celebrate their victory as they just spill out my eyes and I continue to cry. "I was so scared Gray, I thought I would never see you again" I cry holding him so tightly as I cried. "You do not have to be scared anymore my love, I am here and I will forever be here" he says holding me tight too. We were stood in the doorway of the bathroom just holding onto each other for dear life, as I cried out all the feelings I had last night.