Chapter 69

DARIEL'S POV:- How do I tell you I had my own restrictions? It was too hard for me too… How do I tell you that I am not your culprit? Watching Saafia drifting apart from me with this seal on my lips was too hard. One truth all it would take to stop her but I couldn't release it and the more she moved away from me. The more it shattered my heart. I can't… I can't bear it. Entering our room, following her trails for the past few days desperately, I saw Saafia putting her things in a suitcase. 'What are you doing, Saafia?" I asked vaguely, eyes widening with a horror she was impotent to see. I agree she was devastated that I kept it hidden from her but punishing me for a sin I already repented was too much. 'I am going home." She responded coldly, placing her things. 'This is your home." I hissed, grabbing her arm to not let her continue her absurd actions. 'I need space, Dariel." Declaring coldly, she ripped her arm away from mine, piercing my heart by negligence. 'Saafia, don't leave me. I am sorry, I will always be sorry but don't leave me here, I will do anything please stay." Breathing out slowly, I put my hand in the air, curling them in a fist. She didn't listen and continued her work, having no idea how badly it was hurting me. 'Stay for what?" Taking a deep breath, she stopped and turned to me, taking my wrists in hers to evoke a spark I needed as my life source. 'Dariel, if I stayed here, I would be entangled in strange thoughts. I-I can't think properly here. I.. I want to go back so I can contemplate what I should do next." 'What do you mean you should do next?" Not giving me a moment to hold any expectations, she made a heartbreaking announcement. 'To decide if I want to live with you or not." A deadly shiver went down my spine, a crushing weight caused me to shake my head in denial, my breaths tightened around my throat. 'No, no, no, don't say this. You- you can't desert me after being so near." Whimpering, my lips began to quiver, bringing my hand to hold her but not allowing me, she moved back. 'Then you shouldn't have come near the woman whose father you indirectly killed. Looking at you reminds me of my father, I can't bear one glimpse of yours." A tear came near my eyes, watching the woman so close to me that I considered her my world, taking things to leave my shades. 'I will bear all your complaints, all your anger but don't go, please." My voice couldn't go higher, trembling with blurred eyes because in my senses, it was impossible to witness her departure. 'My father has died, Dariel and the one who did it is free before me. I can't do anything, I can't save him, I can't apologize and now I can't give him justice either." I agree with her points but, it was too much for me. Taking her things, she turned her back on me, having no idea if she left, she would take my soul along. Hastily closing the gap, I held her arms from behind. 'All of it is screaming in my mind. I can't stay here anymore. I am leaving." She whispered with tears coming to her eyes as well. Closing my eyes, the tears rolled down my cheek as my fingers declined to my firm grip on her. She remained motionless when I leaned down, nuzzling to her ears. Forcing the lump in my throat, I shut my eyes, tightening my grip as I whimpered desperately. 'I beg you, Saafia. For the sake of our love. Stay." She shivered, eyes widening as she looked over her shoulder at me in incredulity, 'What?" Failing to maintain my composure, I broke into a miserable sob. Opening my eyes to get a hazy glimpse of my beloved. Weak tears rolling down my cheek as I confessed wholeheartedly. 'I love you. I love you so badly. I love you, Saafia. I love you. I love you so much." Her body froze when I continued to weep, placing my forehead on her shoulder. I sought mercy in her shadow. My existence would vanish if she left me. 'I will scatter without you, stay with me. I need you. I will do anything you say but don't go." I sobbed, pressing my head harder to the point my wails made her cry as well. She knew she was deeply in love with me too. My sobs were piercing her heart. 'Separation has become necessary, Dariel. Let me go. Let me go… please." She whimpered, shaking violently when I refused to leave her. My hands were not strong enough to allow that. 'No, please. Please…" I cried, kissing her shoulder, placing my weight on hers. Dying to convey my emotions to her so they would halt those steps but to no avail. Sniffling, she placed me in a harsh predicament, 'For the sake of our love, let me go." The second she said it, my body reacted on its own and I released her instantly, missing her warmth immediately but when those lips swore on our love. How could I not follow them? Lifting her pressured gaze, she expressed her greatest worry, 'I don't want to hate you." 'What…?" 'Seeing you is breaking my heart and I am afraid if I stayed, I might end up hating you so please, let me go." She confessed her perturbation. Deep down, I was slightly relieved to know that she didn't hate me. 'Will… will you return?" Gulping my emotions and drinking my tears, I sniffled, dying to touch her again but didn't. 'I don't know." Murmuring, she walked away. Bearing the harsh pain inside, I forced these steps to bid her goodbye properly. She sniffled, not daring to look at me. She knew if she looked, she would scatter too but there were so many things I wanted to tell her. A simple ‘I love you' was not enough. 'Saafia." With tears, I called her lovingly when she was about to leave, forcing a smile, waving my hand weakly at her. A tear rolled down my cheek as I whispered sincerely. 'I love you." She looked down, covering her mouth to not cry and left hurriedly. My eyes watched her leave until she was out of sight with immeasurable pain. When she was out of sight, I took my hard steps back to the room where I was greeted with silence and anguish. She left me alone in the room with a shattered heart and murdered feelings, still screaming these words- ‘For the sake of our love. Stay.' But, she didn't. The tears I suppressed momentarily began to spill when my beloved walked away from my domain, leaving me to wallow in grief. Curling my hands in a fist, I closed my eyes from ultimate dejection. My eyes fell on my reflection in the mirror as the anguish grew and unable to keep it inside, I grabbed a nearby vase and threw it on the mirror. 'No!!" Breaking into a heartbreaking cry, the sound of shattering glass echoed in the room as I fell on my knees. Hiding my face in my hands, I found my heart being torn apart. 'I am sorry. I am so sorry," I cried with tears smearing across my hand but she was not here to wipe them anymore. I never imagined life would be this empty without my Saafia. ‘Return to me, my love. I can't bear any distance from you…' I prayed hopelessly, my soul calling her. I wanted her to change her mind and return to me but to no avail. The thought- ‘she might not return' burned my soul. She was so near me that I made her my world, in fact, she was! She was everything I desired, I needed! 'Saafia… please return to me… Don't leave me," With his words being chanted on my lips, my wails echoed in the room where I left in solitude as I continued to cry at the point where life threw me. How was I going to convince my heart to live without her anymore?