Chapter 105

DARIEL'S POV:- 'She left us! She left me! She left Helder for your Father and I hated it! She made us like this!" I blinked in disbelief when he told me everything. My chest clenched upon knowing everything. My body trembled as I stared at this unbelievable man. 'How… Do you expect anyone… whose home you destroyed, whose spouse you killed… to.. Love you?" I whispered vaguely, staring at him with a sorrow brimming in my chest. 'She made me do this. I didn't want to but why did she return in the first place?!" He yelled. Slamming his hand down furiously but I forgot all my boundaries and limits and punched him in the jaw. 'How could you say this, asshole!?" I yelled, losing my breath when after ravaging my family he was blaming us. 'You killed my father, you destroyed my family, stole our rights, put my mother into depression. Heck, even you made Helder like this and considered yourself innocent, dammit!?" My voice broke when I hit him again until Saafia held me from behind to not cross my morale and beat him to a pulp though I wanted to. For what he did to us, he deserved all the misery. 'How could you!" I scowled, pushing him away as he coughed up blood yet the smirk on this bastard's face was not removing. He was smirking, having no sign of remorse on his disgusting face. 'Dariel, stop it, stop, please," Saafia whispered, panicking to see me like this, pulling me closer to herself as I was scowling from wrath. That was why I brought her along. If I was alone, upon knowing the unbearable truth, I would have killed him. 'How can I, Saafia?! Didn't you hear what he just said!? He is a fucking murderer!" I shouted, curling my hand in a fist. Constantly glaring at him, I was internally losing my mind. The way his smirk was not wiping off was outraging me. How could he possibly be ruthlessly calm after telling me he killed my Father out of jealousy? 'He deserved that negligence Mama gave him, he deserves all the hatred!" I growled, moving back to take a seat. I was barely holding my patience to not end his life there. Saafia kept holding my shoulder while taking my hand to caress it. 'You devastated my family! You took my Father away from me, asshole!" I whisper-yelled, pointing my finger at him but nothing evoked shame in him. None of Saafia's actions were soothing my wrath. But they surely stopped me from not killing him. 'You had a son too. Didn't your heart tremble before hurting all of us?" Exhaling, I attempted to ask him calmly but he glaring at us, not caring about the inexplicable grief in my eyes. He didn't bother to show compassion to us. And didn't end his grudge with Mama, he fucking continued it to us and Helder. How heartless of him… 'You took away our rights, happiness… because of you Mama killed herself… You made me cruel… you made your son a cluster of hatred… How horrible could you be?" I whispered, panting as tears blurred my vision. I couldn't believe all these realities were concealed from me, he was the reason my life was destroyed, that I became like this. He did this without a second thought… And to my agonizing words, he enunciated coldly. 'I have no regrets. She deserved all the sorrows for leaving me and choosing my brother over us. She wanted to create a happy family with you guys so I destroyed it." 'You have lost your mind, Harry Cannedy. You are a detestable person," Saafia growled when she heard his unbothered statement. 'Hmph, I don't want to hear that from a woman who slept with my son-" When he hit my sensitive nerve, I punched him across his face again. He was seriously testing my patience, I would show him hell for the torment he did to our family. 'She didn't!" I yelled, pushing him away. Immensely furious, I pushed my hair back as Saafia appeared before me, holding my coat worriedly. 'Dariel, please, he had become blind in envy. Leave him." My anger was startling her so I took a deep breath, opening the first two buttons of my shirt to end the suffocation in me though it didn't help at all. 'I won't forgive you, you will pay for your sins, Harry," I growled, pointing my finger at him in contempt. The urge to show him the same hell arose in me but at the same time, I found myself enervated. What would be the difference between him and me if I did the same? 'Hmph, do whatever you want. My Helder will save me." He scoffed, uncaring of his outcome. Of course, he had made our lives miserable, he completed his grudge, he cared for nothing. Even Helder. 'We will see about it." I scoffed back as we left. I couldn't spend a single moment in his vicinity anymore, if I did, I would lose myself. With an overwhelmingly wrathful mind, I went back to the hotel as I broke. Hitting the bed post, I cursed loudly. 'Fuck!" 'Dariel, calm down, please," Saafia flinched. She was about to place her hand on my shoulder but I pulled it away angrily, in distress as I growled. 'How do you expect me to calm down after knowing that my father didn't have an accident rather he was killed by my Uncle?" 'After knowing that behind my mother's grief was this man and I couldn't do anything." I continued outrageously, taking off my coat and throwing it away as I fell on bed, covering my face. I was holding back my heartbreak all this time but not anymore, it had become unendurable for me. How could he possibly do this to us? To his own brother. My whole life was falling apart in one moment and amid this storm, my biggest regret was- 'She was suffering right before my eyes for her past sins and there was nothing I did to save her, to help her, she bore with it all alone." There was nothing I could do to help her… 'I was useless, I was weak, pathetic, Saafia," 'No, you were not-" 'Yes, I was! Not once she shared her ache with me. I was a worthless son," Failing to bear it anymore, I ended up crying. Tears I had been suppressing all this time began to spill out to show my pain, my ache. 'Just because I was weak and kind, she never shared her sorrow and took that to her grave. It killed her and there was nothing I could do to prevent it…" My heartbreak grew uncontrollable and I ended up weeping, liberating the anguish I had been carrying. Clutching my chest evoked intense compassion from Saafia. 'After all this, how can I calm down?" I sobbed, breathless, anguished, immersed in pain. 'Oh, Dariel," Tears rolled down my cheek as I wrapped my hands around her waist when she pulled me into her soft arms to give me her shelter in his harsh time. At least when I scattered, she was there to hold me. 'Dariel, I understand you must be going through a lot. You must be going through mixed emotions but don't worry, this too shall pass." She whispered, kissing the top of my head when I was holding her desperately while crying, pouring my agony out. 'Everything will be alright," And resting my heavy weight in her domain, I allowed my devastation to break as she could gather my scattered form. But, the main question roaming wildly inside me was- ‘What should I do now?'