You Lied

I was right. I woke up and he wasn't there anymore. Instead, a note was in my night stand. 'Hey I'm sorry, I couldn't stay long. There was an emergency so I had to leave, but I'll see you at school today." I sighed and kept the note in my drawer. I got up and prepared myself to school. 'It shouldn't hurt to ask Kyle to drive me, right?" I ask myself I pick up my phone and dialed his number. 'What's up?" he says 'Where you?" I ask 'I'm just right on time to pick you up" he says and heard a honk outside. I hung up and look over the window. There he was waving at me. I smile and ran downstairs. 'Are you sure it's, okay?" he asks as we drive to school 'Yeah. I think" I answer When we reached the school, there was also a car who parked beside us. We both went down. And on the other car, it was Bianca and the other person caught me off guard. Sebastian. He was looking at us irritated. Well, I am irritated. 'Kyle, hurry up." I tell him and walked ahead leaving Bianca and Sebastian there standing. 'You, okay?" Kyle asks 'Never been better" I say sarcastically He stayed quiet. He knew better than to talk to me about it. 'Good Morning! Where is lover boy?" Abby asks cheerfully as we sit down on our table 'Yeah Abby" Kyle says warily 'Oh, sorry" she zipped her mouth We were waiting for our professor when, Bianca and Sebastian came in laughing together. Well so much for putting me on top of his list. Then our eyes met, and he glanced towards Kyle with his fist clenches. He walked towards us and told Kyle to move. He was about to stand up when I stop him. 'No, Kyle. Stay" I say without looking at Sebastian and just the board He bobbed his head up and down and walked away. 'Don't" I tell Kyle and Abby as I sensed they were about to say something then our professor came in. During the class, my phone kept vibrating. I didn't pay attention to it as I knew it was Sebastian. He doesn't have the right to get mad at me. When he left me alone for her. 'I heard rumors that Sebastian is just using you to get Bianca back. But I told them it wasn't true" Kyle says 'Where did you hear these rumors?" 'From my team, you know one of them has a girlfriend. A cheerleader to be exact with gossip and all" I sighed 'Yeah. I know it's not true. We've been dating for like months now and I know that's not true" 'Where is he anyway, isn't he supposed to be here? With you?" Abby says 'I don't really know. But I trust him. I trust him. I do" I kept telling that to myself. They are just friends. She's his bestfriend, so it's fine. The whole day went like that now it's 2 in the afternoon without me seeing not even a glimpse of him. I waited for him on the bench, where he used to wait for me. It's still early. 'Kristen" I look over and there he was standing. I ran towards him and hugged him. 'I miss you too" he whispers and kissed the side of my head. 'I went to my dad early in the morning and she was there, and our parents insisted on both of us go to school together" he explains I nod 'You can just tell me about it. I hate that I have to see it first, I have a lot going on my mind. So please, tell me in advance" He pecked my lips 'Okay" he says and I hug him again We both went home after that. He stayed at my house for a while and returned to Grandma Melody when it was late. When he left me alone, I started breathing heavily? 'I trust him" I kept repeating it to myself. I played with my bracelet that I didn't even notice it got bruised again. He can't leave me, my father left me, my mother left. I have no one literally. Just him. He can't leave me. He can't. I kept thinking. 'Woah! Woah! What the fuck are you doing. Stop that!" I snapped out of it. 'What? Uhhh, ohhh!" 'I thought you're, okay?!" Ian asks 'I am just-----I----I had a lot of things going on in my mind" 'What had happened if I didn't come on time? Huh? See you laying down on the floor? Why would you even do that again! You can just tell me what's wrong! I don't want to leave you alone anymore. I don't trust you" Ian says I didn't talk, just stare at him with tears in my face. 'Do you have something to tell me?" he asks holding my shoulders and I shake my head. 'You almost scared the shit out of me" he whispers to me 'Don't tell anyone about this" I manage to say 'Okay. Come on let me take you to your room" he says and I just nod. After that, he waited for me to sleep and not long, I fell asleep. ---------- What happened last night was tiring. 'Are you okay?" Sebastian asks 'Yeah just didn't have enough sleep last night" I tell him I thought about telling him about it. Maybe I should? He's my boyfriend anyway. 'Wait" he says 'What?" 'What's this?" He asks tugging my arm I should tell him? 'Uhm----last night I---" then I got disturbed by a sudden phone call. Sebastians phone. He answered. 'Shit, yeah. I'm on my way" he says and hung up 'Something wrong?" I ask worriedly 'Yeah, something came up….with uhmmm, Darius yeah. I have to leave, see you later okay?" he kisses my temples and ran away, he seemed nervous. I didn't even get to say something. I sighed. I decided to sit at the Cafeteria to write something for the upcoming reach out program. Then Darius came. I furrowed my eyebrows. 'Woah, if you don't like me, then just say it" he teases as he sits down 'Oh no. Aren't you supposed to be with Sebastian?" I ask 'Huh? Why? Where is he anyway?" he asks me 'Oh uhm, I don't know. But he said he'd be back later" I say forcing a smile 'Okay" he says. Then my mind wondered off to what he said. He said he was going to see Darius? And Darius is literally just right in-front of me now. Why would he lie to me? ------------ 'Darius, you waiting for Abby?" I ask him 'Yes. You? Sebastian?" he asks and I nod Lucky for me, Sebastian came in first. 'Sorry. Did you wait long?" he asks I shake my head 'You told me you were with Darius, and he is with me the whole time. Where were you?" He looks at Darius and that's when he knew he fucked up. 'I'm out of here" Darius says and he left, I look at Sebastian 'What? where were you?" I cross my arms in-front of my chest He sighs 'Something came up. Bianca's parents called and she was in a fit. I had to go there" Bianca again. I thought this was over. I smiled 'I'm tired. Can we go home?" brushing off my thoughts He lead me to his car and drove me home. I didn't wait for him to open my door. When we stopped. I immediately went down. I was near the door when he stopped me. 'Kristen, I' sorry" I turn to him. 'Do you even know why you're saying sorry?" He nods 'Yes, because I went to Bianca and left you" 'No. Try again" He thinks for a while but then nothing. 'You lied to me, Sebastian" 'I'm sorry. It won't happen again. I promise to tell you everything from now on" 'Leave me alone just for tonight" I tell him and he nods 'Okay. If you feeling good just give me a call and I'll be right there" I nod and close the door. When will I be enough for anyone? Am I being selfish wanting him all to myself? Am I wrong wanting something that is mine? Is he even mine to keep and lose? Maybe he isn't. Maybe he isn't mine to lose.