Somehow

Abby's POV 'It's really weird how, he doesn't care at all. Well, she'll be back tomorrow but still." 'Yeah, if I can't see you for just an hour, I'd be fucking worried and go to places I know, to find you" Darius answers me, though I should be blushing over what he said right now but I'm kinda worried about Kristen and Sebastian Yesterday, Sebastian was really weird acting like he doesn't care at all. Did he really mean that? Should I tell Kristen though? She's just sick now and she said she'll be back tomorrow but still, Darius is right, he should be worried about her right now but yesterday, I even saw him laughing and just being the same old Sebastian 'What's up guys!" Sebastian disturbs my thoughts as he sits down at our table 'Been good, you?" Darius says 'Never been better but I'm so bored with my life right now. Now that me and my dad stopped bickering" Sebastian chuckled I was about to talk when my phone rang and they both looked at me. 'It's Kyle I have to take this" I say and Darius being jealous of him, rolled his eyes 'What's up?" 'Do you know where Kristen is right now?" He asks 'Yeah, she's at their house" I say looking over at Darius and Sebastian 'She's sick" 'Where are you right now?" 'At school" 'Yeah, uhm she's sick but not the sick kind that she can be okay in a jiffy. I think it's time you learn about it." 'What are you saying? You're scaring me right now" I say and Darius look at me and mouthed 'What's wrong?" And I mouthed back, 'Wait" Kyle took a deep breath 'She's here at the hospital right now, she just woke up" 'What?" I screamed and made everyone in the cafeteria look at me 'Yes, I'll send you the address, you can't tell anyone. Just you" he says and hung up. A tear run down my face as I put down the phone I sat down. 'Hey, what's wrong?" Darius asks 'Are you okay? You look pale?" Sebastian says 'Something happened and---just---I can't---I have to go" I say and stood up ready to leave Darius stops me 'I can drive you" he says and I shake my head 'No, I can drive. Just text me when you get home alright?" I say and pecked his lips and ran away as fast as I could I went to my car and I'm shaking right now, I'm so worried about her. Can I even drive? So, when I lost patience in opening my car. I called a cab instead. And went to the hospital where Kyle texted me. Not long after, I arrived and ran inside. 'Kristen Miles?" I say and a nurse told me where to find her room, I ran to get to her and I barged in her room. She's lying there, smiling at Kyle. 'I hate you" I say and ran towards her to hug her 'I'm sorry for not telling you" She whispers, I hear her voice, it's so weak I let her go. I looked at her. 'Coronary Heart Disease" she says I gasped 'That's----" she nods smiling at me 'I know" she whispers 'But what did the Doctors say? Where's your dad?" I ask 'I could get a heart transplant" she said and took a deep breath 'Dad is mad at me for now" she chuckled 'Mad at us actually. He's angry that he didn't know. He also said that why did Ian and Mom know and he didn't" I raised my eyebrows 'Yeah, why didn't you let him know?" 'I didn't want him to worry. For you to worry also and for everyone else. I wanted to live my life peacefully and also make it up for all the things I did" I cried 'Stop talking, it's like you're saying goodbye" She chuckled 'It's not even funny. So, I guess that's the reason why you didn't want to get back with Sebastian huh?" She nods 'I didn't want him to watch someone he loves die in front of him again, there's a chance I won't survive. He once said, he'd never let me go, that was what I was afraid of" 'I understand. But you'll be gone for a lot of days, maybe you won't even attend graduation. What do I say to him then if he asks?" 'He hates me right now, I don't he'll ask you anything. It would be better that way, if something happens, he wouldn't blame himself or cry over me" She smiles 'And I did the right thing on hurting him. I said the right words. I hurt him and that's good enough to make him stay away from me, he deserves so much more. He can just hate me for all his life, at least that way, he wouldn't suffer losing me" 'Stop talking like you're going to die! nothing will happen to you. You're strong, you'll survive this" I say, she smiles and we both went in for a hug After that, visiting hours was over. I went home, Kyle drove me back. As soon as I opened the door, Darius pulled me out of the car and hugged me. 'I thought something happened to you" he says and kisses my head 'I'm sorry" I whisper hugging him back 'I'm going now" Kyle says I let Darius go and turn to him 'Thank you for the ride, see you tomorrow" I say and he nods and drives away Hand in hand, me and Darius went in my house. 'I know you what to ask, so ask away" I say as we sat down the couch 'Why? And What?" he says and I understood 'Promise me you won't tell anyone?" 'I promise. I'd rather sew my mouth shut than tell anyone and lose you" he says and I peck his lips 'Okay" I explained him everything. From the moment I left the school grounds until why me and Kyle are meeting tomorrow. He was silent at first letting me finish. 'Yeah, so that's it" 'Wow. That's soooo….Big? Big to keep it?" he says 'You won't tell, promise baby?" I say 'Yeah. And I won't tell. But still he has the right to know?" he says I sighed 'I told her that too but she said not now though" 'I understand, it's her decision anyway. But he will find out soon" 'I don't think he will. I mean he acts like he doesn't care anymore. He's trying to move on now" 'I know but when he finds out the reason why she pushed him away, I don't think he will just stand there and wait for her to call" 'I know that but at least he wouldn't know" We snuggled up to each other, until my mom called for dinner. We ate peacefully, but my mind keeps wondering off to Kristen. When it was already late, Darius left and told me he'll just hang out with Sebastian tomorrow and I made him promise me again not to tell him and also promise that he'll sleep here at my house. He promised me both. 'What time will you go there tomorrow?" My mom asks as she was doing the dishes and I was biting into an apple 'Definitely morning" I say 'Yeah, I know but what time?" she asks again 'Maybe around 10? Why?" 'I won't be home tomorrow, I have a business trip to attend to, 3 days. I want you to bring her the chicken curry that she likes so much, make sure she eats a lot" Mom says 'I nod. Okay. That wouldn't be a problem. Darius will be sleeping here tomorrow night, I hope that's okay?" 'It's not like the first time" she says and I chuckled 'Just remind me about the curry. Thanks mom, I'm sure she'll be saying 'This is too much"" I say mimicking Kristen 'Yeah, I know that kid. She's too young to experience that kind of pain, I hope she recovers from it" 'She will. She's Kristen Miles. She can fight that stupid disease" I say and my mom chuckled. 'Yeah, she will" she says and we smile at each other. After that, I went to my room and sat at the edge of my bed, took my laptop and searched more information about her sickness. Symptoms, cure, possibilities and the worst-case scenarios, that happened and might happen. I read a lot. And her symptoms, I saw all of it. Shortness of breath, her frequent pains, and also when we went to that reach out program, she looks so weak there, there was a sign of discomfort. But I unconsciously ignored all of that. I scoffed. I really hate myself for being the worst friend ever. I know she wouldn't blame it on anyone but for me, we are all to blame. We didn't notice it sooner. If we did, she's be okay by now. We all care about ourselves. I close my laptop and cried my heart out. I never thought I'd ever cry for a friend. But she's more than just a friend, she's like my sister now. And I don't want to lose a sister. I'll make it up to her… Somehow….