Inevitable

Kristen's POV After eating dinner, I went to my room. I sighed staring at the ring he gave me. 'I want to wear it but I can't" I whisper to myself Then a sudden knock on my door disturbed me. 'Come in!" I shout as I place down the ring It's dad. 'Hey dad, what's up?" I ask, he sits down on my bed. 'Can you not really forgive the guy?" he asks suddenly 'He didn't only break my heart, but also my trust dad. And trust takes years to build and it only took a minute to break mine" I say 'He's really sorry for what he has done." 'Sorry doesn't cut it all out. It's like he showed me how worthless I am. He chose someone else rather than believing me and now that truth came out, he acts like that. I do understand, I really do but what if the truth never came out? What will he do then? Who will he choose? I get that he tried to find me but if the truth never came out, we'd still be fighting over it again and again, it would be like a chain" I ask my father who's apparently on his side He sighed 'I know what damaged he had done, but did I ever tell you that when you were hiding, he went here every time he can? He apologizes to me, to us." I nod 'Yes, I saw that one time, he was with Bianca. Ian got so mad about it. He apologizes and had the nerve to bring her. What kind of apology is that?" 'Can I ask you something?" He asks as he ignored what I just said 'You're asking me right now. Go ahead" 'Are you really going to do this? I mean, what are you really afraid of? Do you really can't forgive him? Or you're just hiding something from him that you don't want him to know?" 'I----" I stop talking, does he know? 'Your mom has the same habit you know. She pushes everyone away just to hide something. You got that from her" he says 'Nothing dad. I just don't really want him anymore. If we get back together, we'll just hurt each other on the process. And I don't want that" 'You're afraid of getting hurt or you're afraid of hurting him?" he asks 'Both. Staying would have only resulted in more pain. We're just not yet ready for the relationship. We both have issues that we still need to sort out" 'But you still love him, do you?" 'I don't know. I'm not sure but now, the only thing I want is to have my family with me, to make it up to this family, to you" I said and he leaned in and kissed my temples. 'What do you say we visit your mother's grave tomorrow?" 'Just you and me? What about Selena? Ian? And the Baby?" 'I told them about this already and they said maybe you need it" I nod 'Okay, let's go tomorrow" He kisses my temples again and left my room to let me rest. Then Selena came in. I chuckled 'This is planned, I knew it!" 'No it wasn't, he needed to talk to you and also I needed too also" 'Alright, I'll let you both slide" I say chuckling and she did laugh 'So, what's up?" I ask her 'When will you tell your dad?" 'When I'm dead?" I chuckled and she find it not funny 'I'm serious Kristen" 'I don't know, I just want to make it up to him for now and then maybe I will tell him. I don't want him to worry about me all the time. Maybe after school? I still need to finish one more semester and I'm done" I tell her ''Okay then. I'm counting on you on that. After graduation you tell him, alright?" and I nod 'Words Kristen" 'Yes, Mom" I answer and smiled 'Okay you go and rest, I prepared everything for tomorrow. I just hope your dad doesn't forget anything, so I will tell you I have prepared a lot" I chuckled 'Okay" She kissed my cheek and left my room I really hope tomorrow, it goes well, I hope… ---------------------- So, me and my dad went out early. We had to visit my mother's grave early to avoid getting caught up with the rain. As my fears came back. I went out of the car first and there was also a man in his suit beside ours. 'Dad, come on! Hurry up" I yell 'Geez, can't you be patient, I'm already an old man." He says and I rolled my eyes and he chuckled Then the man in suit turned around. 'Oh, Mr. Harris" I say 'My man, Christian! Long time no see" My dad says 'Dad, he's the mayor, why do you talk to him like that" I scold 'I know, we're friends" 'She's your daughter?" 'Isn't it obvious? She looks like me" dad says 'Oh come on, she doesn't and fortunately she doesn't" Mr. Harris joked 'You never change old man" Dad tells him 'Visiting your wife I see" Mr. Harris says 'Yeah, I haven't been here in a while" I left them talking and I went to my mom's grave inside. 'Hey Mom. I'm sorry I haven't been here in a while. I hope it's okay I've been calling Selena Mom too. Dad said you met her already, she's nice isn't she. I thought she'd be an evil stepmother" I chuckled to myself 'I miss you mom" I whiper 'I'm sure she misses you too" Dad says 'Where's Mr. Harris?" I ask changing the subject 'Outside" I nod. 'I'm giving you and mom some time" I say and he nods and I went out. 'Long time no see" Mr. Harris says 'I'm sorry for what happened" I tell him 'Nothing you should be sorry about. I get it" 'What happened to his mom?" I ask out of the blue and he looked at me 'Oh sorry, I didn't mean to pry. Just never mind I asked" I say He smiled 'It's fine. She died in a car accident together with my baby girl" 'I'm sorry to hear that" 'Sebastian is right for blaming me. It was my fault" 'You didn't want her to die. Nobody wanted that. It's not your fault Mr. Harris" if I die, would Sebastian be this sad too? I don't want that. 'It is really my fault. That day, Sebastian wasn't home, she got worried about him. She told me we should look for him but I was too busy with a phone call about a problem in city, it was my first term as Mayor" he said and took a deep breath 'I told her, just a minute but it took almost an hour. I didn't even notice she left, then after that I heard a crash. I rushed outside to see, Sebastian was already crying his heart out near the car" 'He didn't know, she was out to look for him, didn't he?" I ask and he nods 'I was afraid that he would blame himself for what happened. That's why I let him blame me, because it's really my fault. If only I paid attention to her rather than my career, she wouldn't have died" 'It was nobody's fault. Nobody can stop, one from dying. It's inevitable." I say then we both went silent. 'So, it was my fault" We both turn around and saw Sebastian there standing, flowers on the ground. 'Son---" 'I heard you, it's my fault" he says again, his voice breaking 'No, it wasn't. It was mine. I didn't pay attention to her" Mr. Harris says 'It's my fault' he whispers to himself 'Son, it wasn't----" he didn't get to finish his sentence, as Sebastian ran away I stopped Mr. Harris from following him. 'Let me" I tell him and I smiled at him as he nods I ran to follow him and there he was kicking his car, shouting and just anything. 'Sebastian" I say 'Don't" he says 'It wasn't your fault. It was nobody's fault. You said you heard everything. Then you also heard what I said. What happened was inevitable, nobody can't stop that from happening" I say But he doesn't listen, he just kept kicking his car. 'Stop hurting yourself!" I finally shout He stops and turns around. 'Stop hurting myself" he repeats 'You don't want me to hurt myself, but you're hurting me too. Should I tell you to stop that too? Will you stop hurting me too?" he asks 'I----" He shakes his head 'I hurt you, my sister, my mom. I hurt everyone. It was always my fault and I was always too stupid to see that." 'Sebastian---" he cuts me off 'No, it's true. Maybe you're right. I need to stay away from you. Don't worry, I will from now on." He chuckled sarcastically as tears streamed down his face 'Sebastian, it's not like that, it's just…we can't be together anymore. I'm tired of this over and over again" 'Finally the truth came out" he says as he runs his fingers through his hair 'You're tired of me just like everyone else" 'Sebastian, please listen to me and----" 'Just stop. You want me gone? You want me to stay away from you? Then fine, I will. Goodluck with your life from now on, I wish you all the best. Goodbye Kristen" he says as he went in his car leaving me standing and crying while looking at him driving away. 'Let's give him time" someone says behind me and I look who it was and its his dad and mine 'I'm sorry. I think I hurt him more" I say 'He just need time. Don't worry. I'll go ahead. I think he'll be waiting for me to get home" Mr. Harris says and leaves me and my dad Dad open his arms and I immediately went in for a hug as I cry. I didn't know how we got home but we did, I couldn't remember what happened but then suddenly it started raining then everything just went black.