I did something bad

Sebastian's POV It's almost a year since I've lost her and I didn't know how did I survive with all those months I was not with her. I'm also going back to my grandma's house since my dad couldn't find her. He stopped me this morning but I didn't stay. 'Grandma!" I shout 'Here darling!" she shouts back I followed her voice and found her on the kitchen cooking a lot of food. 'You didn't have to cook for me" I say and kissed her cheek She chuckled 'Silly, it's not only for you. I'll be also sending a friend some" 'A friend?" I asked raising one eyebrow 'Yes. A long time friend, I haven't seen in awhile" she smiles 'Why didn't I know about him?" I ask 'Him? Now, who said it's a guy?" she smirks 'Oh I just thought you were dating" I tease She throws the spatula at me. 'Grandma!" I whine She laughed 'Why would I date someone else that is not your grandpa! You stupid boy!" I shake my head and went to my room. I dropped myself on the bed. 'Home at last" Then my phone rang. I groaned. 'What?" 'Why are you grumpy? Come to school hurry up to asshole" Darius voice rings in my ear 'I don't want to" I say and put it on loudspeaker and put it on my night stand 'Just come now, I promise it would be fun" 'I don't want to" I repeat 'Sebastian, we're graduating soon, you need to go here right now" 'What would I do there?" 'Uhhh Study? Isn't that the purpose of coming to school?" 'Exactly. That's why I don't want to" 'Dude come on. Get your ass right here or I will drag you here myself" 'Fine" I finally say 'I will wait for you. Be sure to be here at 10am" he says and hung up 'Geez, what are you my girlfriend?" I ask him looking at his phone number I still have time though. It's 8am still. I will just take a quick nap and will go to school later. ------------- 'Dude!" 'Hey!" I groaned. 'You fucking…" was the last thing I heard and I fell down the bed. 'What the!" I shout and saw Darius in my bed 'What the hell was that for?!" I shouted 'You're supposed to be there at 10am and in case you haven't notice, it's already 1 in the afternoon" he says I rub my face. 'I'm sorry. I needed to sleep. I haven't been sleeping well. I guess I over slept" He sighed 'I understand. Now come on." I rolled my eyes 'Don't you have a girlfriend to go to?" I pick my clothes while I wait for his answer. 'Yeah, she had to be with her friends today. They are having a meeting now about school programs and all" 'Wait. You said you were allowed to listen to their meetings? Why are you here?" 'She, told me, I can't listen to this one. It's an important one. So, she just told me call some friend to hand out with for a while" 'If only I wasn't your only friend" I say and went to the bathroom, I heard him chuckled. I stare at myself in the mirror. I look like a mess. 'If you're seeing me right now, would you pity me? Would you be mad at me?" I ask myself, wanting to ask Kristen all these things. I shake my head and went to shower. After that I changed my clothes and then went out. 'Let's get going" I slap Darius' feet and he jolted up. 'Grandma, do you need a ride? We're leaving" She shakes his head 'My friend is shy, she prefers to see me and only me" 'Okay then. We'll get going" I say and left the house. Darius drove us to school as I don't want to drive today. Hell, I'm not even in the mood to go to school if it weren't for Darius right here. I haven't seen Bianca in a while either. 'Hey, have you seen Bianca in a while?" I ask Darius 'Yes, at school. Why do you ask?" 'Nothing, I just haven't seen her in a while" 'She's waiting for you today" I nod and the rest of ride was quiet. When we got to school, I went down and go to Bianca. She was alone today. 'Hey" I say 'Oh hey! I thought you don't want to go to school?" 'Yeah, Darius dragged me here" I say and chuckled She nods. 'I've been meaning to ask you something" 'What is it?" I ask, she was serious 'If, I have done something bad to you. Will you forgive me?" I was confused she's asking me this. I tilted my head looking at her and raised my eyebrows. 'Huh? Are you serious?" I asked laughing but she was still having this straight face. 'It's just a what if" she took a deep breath 'Depends on what is it. I mean, I could never stay mad at you and besides, I don't think you'd do something that big, that I could never forgive you, I trust you big time" I say and she smiled Then Darius came. 'Yo dudes" 'So, one more class and we're out, do you want to hang out like old times?" he asks as he sits down 'I don't mind. I miss this kind of hang outs. How about you?" I ask Bianca 'I don't mind either. But there's something you two should know about first" she says 'What is it?" I ask 'Yeah, what is it? It sound so serious" She was about to say something when some started getting excited and somewhere whispering. We all looked around. 'What's up with these guys?" Darius asks I got up and ask one of the ladies whispering. 'What's going on?" I ask 'Didn't you hear? She's back" one said 'Who's back?" 'Your ex-girlfriend. Kristen Miles. It's been the talk of the entire school!" she said and they went away, I froze in my spot. 'Did I just hear it right?" Darius asks 'You heard them right. That's what I was supposed to tell you. She's coming in today" Bianca says with a smile 'Excuse me" I say and ran toward the entrance, there she was talking with Abby, with her other officers in line They were smiling, laughing and hugging. It's been a while since I saw those smile and hear her laugh, and I didn't realize how much I missed them until now. I slowly got near her. She's at her locker, beside mine. Abby sees me and she looked at Kristen. 'It's fine. I'll go to you soon." She says and they all leave her, her back facing me. As soon as they were gone, she turned to her locker and fixed her stuff in. 'I get that you're mad---" she cuts me off 'I'm not mad at all" she said and smiled at me 'I decided to rest and it helped me a lot. It wasn't only because of you, there are a lot of reasons why I did that" she says as she closes her locker and turns to me 'I don't want her" I say looking at her eyes, she stayed quiet just staring at me. 'I need you, I want you, I love you not her" She smiled 'You should've thought of that months ago. You're like a year too late, don't you think?" This time I stayed quiet. I wanted to listen to her now. 'She needed you at that time and I needed you too. You had a choice and clearly, it wasn't me. I tried to find you because you said you were busy and I find you with her" She pauses 'When I saw that, I questioned everything, even myself. Then I thought oh yeah, it was always been her." I stayed quiet and she took a deep breath and walked pass me. 'She is not my girlfriend. I was in-love with you the first time I saw you, I was afraid to admit that. Until now, nothing has changed. It's still you and always will be" 'I was your girlfriend. I was. But like I said, you had a choice. I needed you. I did, Sebastian but you weren't always there for me" 'I know, I'm sorry" I say 'it's fine" she says and took a deep breath" See you around, Mr. Harris" with that she walked away from me once again. I turn around to look at her slowly disappearing from my sight. My mind was just full of thoughts. She needed me and I wasn't always there for her and until now, I haven't still figured out why I didn't receive any of her calls or messages. I messed up big time but now that she's back, I'll make sure I will make it up to her. I know she said it's a little late for me but like they said, it's better late than never.