Going Back

Kristen's POV I was crying on the conner of my room crying and cradling myself while it was raining. 'No, no, no" I whisper to myself Someone barged into my room. 'What are you doing? Come here" someone hugged me 'The rain together with my thoughts won't stop" I whisper shaking 'Shhh, it's fine I'm here, I'm here" It was always like that. Me crying or sometimes they catch me almost hurting myself. I needed help. My Dad, Selana or Ian will always come for me. Then eventually I got out from that darkness because of them. Months later, this is me, this is us. 'Kristen, get your ass down here, right now!" I got down and pop my head in the Kitchen. 'Calm down, Mom. I'm here" I say Ian and Dad looked at each other and said 'Mom?" I chuckled 'Yes, Mom" 'When did you call her mom?" Ian asks 'Uhhhh I don't know, she's used to it now" I say dipping my finger onto the cake batter and Mom slaps my hand away. 'Stop!" Mom chuckles 'When they separate, you go with my dad and I'll go with your mom" I say laughing 'Hey!" Dad says 'That's a good Idea though" Ian says teasing them both 'Right?" I say 'Stop it, we'll not separate, especially with the baby upstairs. I won't let go of your father" 'Oh yeah, my baby brother!" I say my eyes twinkling 'As If I let you go out that door without me" Dad says I laughed and shake my head. 'So, are you ready to go to school today?" Dad asks 'Yup. I'm just going to talk to Abby through a call meeting and settle things before going." I say taking a bite on the banana After that, Mom Selena, baked some cookies and I ate that for breakfast. Then the door bell rang. I open the door 'Grandma! I'm glad you could make it!" I see her eyes, tears threatening. 'You look good, dear. I'm glad you called me" 'Don't cry grandma, of course, I called you. You're a family. Besides dad wanted to thank you for taking care of me all the time" I hugged her and she hugged me back. I served all the food she brought. I missed her cooking. 'I'll be heading up stairs, I have a meeting in less than a minute and after I'll go to school" I say and before hearing what they all could say, I ran upstairs and open my laptop and I joined in the meeting They were all shocked as I was going back. They all said they missed me a lot and just everything. After that, they ran me down about everything I need to know. Our Adviser, was also there, excited for me to come back. Though Abby had done a great job, they needed me in some aspect that's why they wanted me to lead them once again. For the last time. 'Can you handle school, I mean you have a lot of catching up to do and work here" Our Adviser asked 'Yes, I was home schooled, so no need to worry about school works" I answer 'Okay then, that's settled. See you in like 15 minutes I guess" he says and they said their goodbyes and hung up I took a deep breath. I can do this. Then I went down. 'So, I'm going to school" I announce They all looked at me. 'Are you really ready?" My dad asks 'Of course, she is. Right sweety?" Mom says and I nod with a smile 'What about---" 'Yes, Ian. I am capable and aware of that. I think I'm prepared for that too. So, yeah. I gotta go" I cut Ian off 'Okay, use mine" Mom says throwing her car keys. 'Thanks, Mom. See you later" I say and wave at them goodbye I went down from the car and everybody started talking and whispering about me. I didn't mind them. I went to find my team and I found them waiting in my locker. 'Welcome back you bitch!" Abby screams at my face and hugs me while crying 'Why are you crying? You've seen me almost every month" I say laughing 'This is different!" she says crying 'I missed you too" I say and looked around 'I miss you all" I tell them Abby let's go of me. 'We need to head to the office to settle everything first and then your classes also" Abby says Then she stiffens. She looked at behind me and then me. I knew from that moment it was Sebastian. I smiled at her 'It's fine. I'll go to you soon." As soon as they were gone, I turned to my locker fixing my stuff, as I waited for him to talk 'I get that you're mad---" 'I'm not mad at all" I cut him off and smiled 'I decided to rest and it helped me a lot. It wasn't only because of you, there are a lot of reasons why I did that" I tell him and closed my locker to turn to him 'I don't want her" he says looking at me and I just stayed quiet 'I need you, I want you, I love you not her" I smiled 'You should've thought of that months ago. You're like a year too late, don't you think?" This time he stayed quiet. I laughed at myself internally, I don't even know why I am listening to him right now 'She needed you at that time and I needed you too. You had a choice and clearly, it wasn't me. I tried to find you because you said you were busy and I find you with her" I paused 'When I saw that, I questioned everything, even myself. Then I thought oh yeah, it was always been her." I took a deep breath and walked pass him. 'She is not my girlfriend. I was in-love with you the first time I saw you, I was afraid to admit that. Until now, nothing has changed. It's still you and always will be" his words stopped me 'I was your girlfriend. I was. But like I said, you had a choice. I needed you. I did, Sebastian but you weren't always there for me" 'I know, I'm sorry" he says, and I heard that a thousand times already 'it's fine" I say and took a deep breath" See you around, Mr. Harris" with that I walked away not a single tear has fallen. I went straight to the office and found Kyle standing at the door. 'Kyle!" I shout and ran towards him to hug him and hugs me back 'I'm glad to have you back" he whispers 'Thank you for everything" I whisper back and we both let go 'Hurry up, we'll catch up later. They need you now" he says and I nod As soon as I went in, they showed and discussed to me everything I should be working on starting today. After that, we all went to our classes, our professors were also glad I came back. 'So, after this we should go and hang out together" Abby says 'I'm not sure if I can though. Maybe tomorrow would be better?" I ask 'Okay, I won't force you. But we need to hang out before Ian picks you up" She says And I nod I was already preparing my things to put it in my locker then Kyle came up to me. 'I'll go to your house later, Ian asked me to" he says 'Oh, okay. Mom is cooking tonight" I say as we walk to my locker 'I missed Aunt Selena's cooking" he says and I chuckled 'Who wouldn't" then someone came up to me "Hey, Kristen can I talk to you?" Bianca says "You dont have the right to talk to her" Kyle says but I stop him as he's in front me "Kyle its fine. You can go, I'll see you later" I tell him "Are you sure? I can stay here if you want?..." "No its fine" I smiled at him and he nods before he walks away "What do you want?" I ask started walking towards my locker. "I just want to say sorry and explain to you what happened before" she says I didn't answer and continued fixing my stuff inside. "He loves you. What happened before was just, I was selfish and was blinded by my love for him" "You done?" I ask trying not to care at all "No, not yet. I realized now that I can't force him to love me, when who he loves is you. When you disappeared, I tried everything to make him fall in love with me but he just loved you and I know that" "Like you said, you can't force him to love you then you can't force me to love him again. Please, I dont want any of this. I was gone for a year to be good and find myself and now that I did. Don't. Just don't ruin it like what you both did before" I spat I turn around to walk away. "I was jealous of you that's why I hurt you. If a man loves you, you won't have to ask anything but, in my case, I begged everything he had to do for me, then when you were together, you didn't have to beg, he just do it for you. Thats a different kind of heart break. I was hurt" that stopped me from my tracks and turned around to face her. Her face was just inches from me. "Thats not an excused for you to hurt us both. Don't lecture me about heartbreak because you don't know what I have been through because of you. What happened to me was just far more worse than what you're are feeling right now, I'm not saying you're not in pain or you don't have the right to feel that way, but never tell me as if you were in a lot of pain more than I do." I turn around to walk away again and then she held my wrist. "I'm sorry" she says but I push her away and she fell to the ground. "Kristen!" A familiar voice said "How could you push her? if you're mad at me then go to me!" Sebastian says "No, it's my fault Sebastian. Please don't get mad" Bianca tells him as he helps her up I scoffed "Ah now I get it. You said sorry then expected this to happen so he would pity you again" I smirked "pathetic" I spat "No, Kristen. I am really sorry. I didn't want this to happen. Please I'm sorry" Bianca says "Stop saying sorry to her!" Sebastian shouts "Yeah stop. You don't need to try harder for him to choose you, he will always choose you over me, you don't need to pretend like you always did. You both look good together" I say with a smile on my face and walked away. When I was far away from them. my chest felt so heavy again. And it was getting harder for me to breathe. I rested my back on the wall. And trying to catch my breath. Then suddenly, someone pulled me towards a dark room. "What the?!!?!" then I turn to look at Sebastian "Why do you make everything so hard for me?" he whispers to my ear and I pushed him away. "Do you think it's easy for me?" My voice breaking, I was in pain, actual pain "I waited for you every fucking day. I love you still but you don't, you just left me here without nothing to do but to wait and wait. Why did you leave me?!" he shouted the last part I felt my anger rising " I left because it was the best for the both of us, not because I stopped loving you!"