Crime Scene

It was later the same day, and I was just getting ready for bed, the entire rest of the day was spent with me, and Jackson sat at the base telling them what had happened. The number of times I had to explain the story of me talking on the phone with Mario was insanity! But that's not the only part of the story I had to relive in great detail, but the moment we found Derek was also spoken about more times than I could count on my hands. Every time I would have to go over in great detail what happened, the image of his body lying there facing me, his eyes wide open looking terrified kept repeating over in my mind. I felt as though I needed to wash myself repeatedly to get whatever was in the air off me, but still the thought of Derek looking back at me wouldn't leave. After getting changed, I look at myself in the mirror, my eyes also looking terrified just as Derek's did. 'Pull yourself together Ally." I whisper to myself in hopes I would start to calm down, but still the feeling wouldn't leave me. The overwhelming feeling of being trapped soon pulses through my body, my mind telling me I needed to leave this place before what happened to Derek happens to me. I turn on my heels and promptly leave the bathroom and arrive in my bedroom, this was more open so I thought it would be better than the bathroom. But when the feeling of the walls beginning to cave in, I realise I can't stay in here either. I start to panic as I make a mad dash for the door, I swing it open and arrive on the landing type part of the upstairs. My heart rate was going a mile a minute, my breathing also picking up as I look around the house in a panicked manner. This was when I attempt to try and calm myself down, I know I'm safe here at Jackson's, not even Derek knew I was staying here before he was found out to be the bug. I walk over to the balcony banister and place both hands on the railing, my head down as I attempt to slow my breathing telling myself I was fine. In the mist of this, I hear a door to the side opening and someone rushing to my side, placing their hands on my arm and back. 'Ally, what's wrong?" Jackson asks while I lift up my head to look at him still feeling terrified, I didn't even know what was happening myself if I'm being honest. 'I don't want to end up like Derek." I cry out remembering how terrified he looked, why would anybody ever to do to another person?! 'That is never going to happen to you, I'm always going to be here to protect you I promise." He reassures me while I turn so I was now fully facing him, my arms holding his so tightly as we both stood there in our pyjamas. 'You're okay Ally, calm down take some deep breaths okay." He tells me looking me in the eyes as he spoke, I do what he says not breaking eye contact with him. 'Please don't leave me, I can't lose anyone else." I cry having calmed down but still worried, he places his hands on either side of my face still looking me in the eyes. 'I promise you Ally, I'm never leaving you now you're with me." He tells me placing his forehead on mine while I close my eyes, now having Jackson here with me was calming me down even more and the feeling of being trapped had left too. I don't know where that feeling had come from and why it came, but the feeling of Derek who was close friends with Mario and still ended up like that scared me. What if he starts to feel like my father is no use to him and I find him that same way? 'I think you're having these worried thoughts as you haven't had a proper night's sleep in days, your mind is going a million miles an hour and that's causing you to panic. All you need is a good night's sleep; you'll be back to your funny crazy self tomorrow." Jackson smiles pulling away from me, but his hands still remained on my face, but the thought of being alone in that room again after that episode scared the crap out of me. 'But what if that happens again when I'm alone?" I ask refusing to let go of his arms, not that I think Jackson minded that much. He looks down a little in thought, I could see he wanted to suggest something, but he didn't really know if he should suggest it. But he soon shakes his head moving his hand down to take mine. 'If it will make you feel better, I will lay with you until you fall asleep." He suggests with a little nervous smile, I liked the thought of someone being with me, so I nod my head accepting his kind offer. He smiles leading me back into my room which I had left in a panic not five minutes before, but this time the walls didn't seem like they were caving in due to Jackson being here. We both climb into bed while he makes sure I'm comfortable under the covers, but I soon take his hand again as the tired feelings take over. 'I'm sorry I caused that panic for a second but having to go over what happened with Derek so much, I couldn't get the thoughts out of my head." I say feeling bad that he may have been going to sleep himself and I just woke him up in the most dramatic way, but he shakes his head his hand going through my hair. 'Don't worry Ally, what you saw today was terrifying and something nobody should ever see, your reaction was justified, don't feel bad." He says before my eyes start to fall closed from the missing sleep I have had over these last few days, but I jolt awake out of fear after a second. 'It's okay, I'm right here." He whispers while my eyes once again start to close and within a few short minutes, I was asleep. I wake up the next morning alone, I hadn't got any idea how long I was asleep for but the sun bright up in the sky told me it was quite some time. I sit up and do my morning stretch before searching for my phone, where discover it was 11am! I haven't slept in this late for years! Perhaps Jackson was right, I did need sleep. I get myself ready for the day after my late start, but for once I actually felt refreshed. I leave my bedroom and start heading out into the landing, where I hear Jackson's loud voice booming from downstairs. 'I'm not taking her to the base today, so she'll have to sit there and talk about what happened over and over again!" Jackson shouts which did make me pause to not interrupt, it doesn't take a genius to realise he was talking about me. 'She needs a break! Since her father went missing it's been go go go for her! She isn't used to this kind of work, she's just a human being that needs time!" He shouts obviously, talking on the phone to someone, I wonder who? 'It's not getting to her?! She woke up in a panic last night because of all this shit. She walked into a fucking crime scene and found Derek, aren't you comprehending how mind fucking that would be for a person?! You enlisted me to do this job to protect Ally, taking her into a situation such as that will do more harm than good! You will get to find Mario and we'll put him away, but let Ally take this day to process what happened yesterday. Now you may not like that I'm disobeying an order, but I have to think of Ally's mental well-being." Jackson says before he goes silent again, I knew this meant he probably hung up the phone to who I'm guessing is my mother. I sigh before starting my journey once again, not knowing what kind of reception I was going to get if he knew I heard the conversation. Once I reach the middle of the stairs I spot Jackson, he had his head down but soon realised I was there, and he smiles over at me. 'Good morning sleeping beauty, I hope you had a nice sleep." He smiles back to being his happy self which I did love, I smile joining him at the bottom of the stairs. 'I've never slept in to that late I think ever." I say stretching as I went, he laughs a little walking into the kitchen but does return with a bottle of water. 'Thanks for last night, I know having to stay with me until I fell asleep last night probably wasn't what you wanted to do." I smile opening up the water to take a sip, but he shakes his head with a smile. 'It was an honour that you trusted me enough to do that, it's okay Ally, what you saw yesterday was horrible." He tells me trying to make me feel better, but I still felt bad. 'But you saw the same thing I did and wasn't reacting like me." I sigh knowing how much of a baby I was last night; I should have taken on the chin like I normally do. 'I trained to do this sort of work and have sadly, become accustomed to it. But even when I saw something like that for the first time, I reacted the same way you did. It's human nature for us to feel that way, so don't you ever talk down about yourself, it shows what a compassionate person you are." He says really trying to make a point, but what he said did make me feel much better about the way I have been acting since seeing Derek. 'So, what's the plan today?" I ask placing my hands behind my back with a smile, I knew cracking on and doing something productive would help me fully get passed what I had seen. 'You and I are having a relaxing day, there will be no talk of work or Mario at all today!" He exclaims taking my hand and leading me over to sit on the sofa, I go to speak but he holds his hand up stopping me from doing so. 'Not a word Ally, let's relax." He smiles shutting me down, but I didn't mind, the thought of not having to think of anything to do with Mario felt nice. But that wouldn't last.