Chapter 092

Suddenly, the five letters from Sebastian entered my mind. I was happy when I read that as if my sadness suddenly disappeared because of the sweet words mentioned in the letter. I didn't think that Sebastian was that sweet, even though the content of all those were simple greetings, I felt thrilled. But there was a part of my heart that was sad when suddenly his serious and cold face entered my mind. He didn't like that before but he changed because of me. I burst into song in no time when I looked at the picture of me and Sebastian. I don't even remember when it happened but I'm sure we were happy and this day was very memorable for both of us. Even though I haven't seen and been with him for three years, my view of him hasn't changed even though I've lost my memory. I suddenly fell silent when I heard that voice. I couldn't even move my hand or my mouth. That voice, the voice that everyone is obsessed with, the voice that is as cold as ice, and the voice that makes my heart beat faster. The owner of that voice was none other than Sebastian. I slowly looked up and looked in the direction where the voice was coming from. I'm not wrong, he is. I got down from the hammock and closed the photo album I was holding. He also took a step in my direction and now I could see his whole face. My heart felt like it was squeezed when I noticed his lethargic eyes and his tired body. I feel sorry for the way he looks now, I never thought that what I did to leave him would have this effect. "I'm sorry.." That was all I could say and my tears kept pouring out. I looked down but suddenly I felt his warm embrace. "You didn't mean to do that, shh.. stop crying. I can't bear to see you like this, stop crying my love," he said softly, causing me to hug him tightly. I don't want to lose him again and I will never ever leave him again no matter what happens. *** "I don't know what to say to you now that I'm in front of you," I said. I prepared for this but when I saw him, I seemed to lose everything I wanted to say to him. He didn't answer me but he just looked at the whole house. So I had a chance to look at his face entirely. I secretly smiled, he was still the man I loved before. Nothing has changed in him even though I haven't seen and been with him for three years. "You don't have to explain or tell me anything, I already know everything. I already talked to your mom, she explained to me everything that happened before," he said as he turned to me. I immediately looked away when I noticed the sadness in his eyes. I can't look at him when he's in that situation, especially since I'm the reason. "I want to talk to your dad, I want to hear his explanation why he kept you away from me and why he didn't tell me about what happened to you 3 years ago. I can't accept your dad's explanation, that's not a good reason for him to keep you away from me. But what else can I do? Your dad is dead, I can't listen to his explanation anymore," he added. I don't know how to answer him, he obviously can't accept dad's reason. We're just the same until now I still can't believe that dad reached that decision. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry if I kept my true identity a secret from you. I did it so you wouldn't be hurt and so you wouldn't have a hard time remembering me but I still hurt you," he said causing me to look back at him. "And I'm sorry if I wasn't there when you needed me. If only I knew about what happened to you, I wouldn't hesitate to go to see you even if your dad stops me." I looked away again when my tears started to flow for the second time. "I hope you can forgive dad, because of what happened to me, he came to that decision. I understood why you did that, you are only thinking about me, but I just can't accept that you too will also keep a secret from me. I have forgiven you and I hope you can forgive me too. I'm sorry if I wasn't there when you needed me, I'm sorry if I hurt you and I'm sorry for leaving you. I didn't mean to do that Sebastian... I didn't mean to leave you.." I said crying. He gently pulled me to face him and immediately wiped the tears that were running down my cheeks. "You didn't do anything wrong and you don't have to apologize to me. I was angry with you before, but all that disappeared when I found out the reason why you suddenly left me. Don't think about that anymore, okay? I'm fine and I'm happy again because you're finally back," he replied and a bitter smile appeared on his lips. He came closer to me and immediately kissed me on the forehead. I just closed my eyes when I felt his lips on my forehead. "I will not waste this opportunity to tell you how I feel. I love you Vienna and I have never changed the way I look at you. I know that someone already owns your heart but I just want to admit it to you before you know it from others. I love you Vienna, I love you so much.." "I love you too Sebastian," I said making him surprised. "I haven't changed how I feel about you, even after three years apart. I may have lost my memory, but my heart hasn't forgotten—you're still the one it beats for. I know it sounds unbelievable, but I'm telling the truth." Tears welled up in his eyes, and he quickly looked away—but I kept my gaze on him. "When I was in the US, I didn't like any guys there, no matter how rich or handsome he was. I was mistaken for a homosexual because every man who tried to court me, immediately rejected them. I left an important person here in the Philippines so I never liked another guy. When I came back here and met you, I couldn't get you out of my mind. I thought it was just because of my curiosity that I was thinking about you, but that's not the reason. I really like you that's why I'm doing something I've never done with a guy. I love you, Sebastian, I love you-" He cut me off. I was surprised by what he did and I didn't know what to do. I feel mixed emotions right now but joy prevails in my heart. He kissed me. He kissed me gently and carefully. I slowly closed my eyes and responded to his kisses.