Chapter 060

"I'll give you something, here," he said as he reached for the paper bag. I just took it and looked at what was in it. A box of cookies and brownies inside the paper bag. One of my favorites, so I smiled immediately. Aunt Victoria knows my favorites. "Please tell Aunt Victoria, thank you," I said smiling but his mouth twisted. "I have done that and not Mom," he muttered. I couldn't stop laughing because of his behavior. Did it come from him? I thought it was from Aunt Victoria. "I'm sorry, I don't know. Thank you for this Tine, I appreciate your effort but don't do it every day because I might miss it," I replied. He smiled at me and immediately fix a few strands of my hair. "I won't be able to see you tomorrow, we've been practicing all day this week. It hasn't started yet so I went to you and gave it to you." "So I'll see you tomorrow here on the field." He looked at me in surprise because of my answer. I'm sure of what I said, yes there will be the last rehearsal tomorrow and I don't think it will be all day. "Looks like you don't want to, okay I won't," I said while scratching my nose. "No-no... I want to," he replied shyly while avoiding looking at me. He became even cuter in my eyes. "Tine," I said and he immediately looked at me. I will tell him the reason why I was not able to answer him yesterday. "I appreciate all your efforts just to make the surprise better yesterday but I can't help feeling sad. I'll be honest this time and I hope I don't hurt you because of what I'm going to tell you. I found out that I have this guy that I love before I had an accident and lost my memory. His name is Martin but I can't remember anything about him. Even his last name I don't know but he became part of my dreams. Maybe because of him, I didn't answer you right away and I'm hesitant to answer your question. I don't know if he is still the reason why my hearts beat or not. I want to see him and I want to apologize for leaving him. Tine, I don't want to hurt you, you're special to me and you're already part of my life. I don't want you to expect on me, Tine and now I'm admitting it to you. Because I don't want to get to the point where you fall in love with me more and I can't even catch you." He didn't look away from me and the expression on his face didn't change. I couldn't see in his eyes that he was sad or hurt by what I said. He immediately took my hand and wiped the tears running down my cheek. "Vienna, I have no regrets for what I told you yesterday. And I don't care if he was the man you loved then. Didn't I tell you yesterday not to force yourself to love me? Just let me love you, don't think about me. I like you and that won't change. I'll help you to find him, I won't leave you, Vienna. Don't worry, I won't change the way I look at you once you see and know him. I will still love you and I will not leave you." I hugged Tine tightly because of what he said. And I suddenly remembered what Therese had told me last night. She's right, we can't teach the heart for who to love because you can feel it on your own. Hopefully, the day will come when I will also learn to love Tine. He's important in my life and I want to make up all the kindness he did. I will let him love me and I will try to love him. SEBASTIAN'S POV "Sebastian, what's the problem? You were like that yesterday. You're angry even for no good reason. Did you see Vienna's face earlier? That girl was tired and then you said that. Do you think she wasn't hurt by what you said? Sebastian, you've been at the Music Club for 2 years but it's just now you did that earlier. I hope it doesn't reach Professor Lozano, 'cause we're doomed," Dim said angrily. I don't know why I was angry earlier that's why I regret now what I did to Vienna. It was as if the annoyance and jealousy I felt because of what I watched yesterday suddenly rose in my head. "Sheene, you're in charge here, I'll look for Vienna. Louie, practice for a while, the other members will also practice, and you, Sebastian, cool your head." Dim left and as soon as he left, I then realize what I had done wrong. I hurt Vienna, because of the jealousy and anger I felt I said those things to her. "You have to apologize to Vienna if you don't, you're dead. It's my first day here at the Music Club and I'm so happy because I've seen her but that's what you told her," Cheska said angrily. I suddenly wiped my face, why I've been carried away by anger and jealousy?! I suddenly remembered the video I watched yesterday, Tine's confession to Vienna. The words he uttered lowered my hope that Vienna would never be mine again. It's too late for us, I can't get back our relationship. Maybe the decisions I made last night that I will avoid her were just right. And I will try to forget everything we had together before. I have also decided not to introduce myself to her. She's happy, I'm happy that she's happy and I don't want to ruin the happiness she feels. I will endure all the pain just won't let her know about me and us. I'd rather be the one to hurt than Vienna. I love her, that's why I'll do that thing for her.