Chapter # 67

Searching desperately for Zariah, his mind ceased functioning without her, he knew he must find her. However she was, when she was before his sight, he was relieved and her vanishing rendering his whole ability to fathom. Losing his breath, he checked all the places and stopped at their apartment as a last attempt on finding her. 'Zariah?!" Entering the place, his booming resonance echoed in the empty place, distress gleaming, seeking the one he needed. 'Zari?!" 'Zar-" Slamming the door opened of their room, she saw a sleepy Zariah who forced her eyes to open and greet the perturbed man before her. 'Hmm?" Panicking, he rushed to her, 'Don't ‘hmm' me!" 'What the hell are you doing here?! Why did you disappear without telling me?!" 'I.. uh.. I.." 'You what!? Do you have any idea how worried I was!? What if you need me and I am not there?!" Scowling, he grabbed her arms, observing her body worriedly, unstable breaths, needy eyes, gripping onto her firmly. Removing his hands softly from hers, she sat on the bed. Her fingers held the sheets distressfully, gritting her teeth. 'I thought you don't want to see me… that seeing me is hurting you and I don't want to hurt you anymore," 'What?" Gloom coated her voice, afraid to capture coldness in those eyes, she found herself in a darkness where the hand of her beloved was absent. 'And I thought about it a lot. That is why…" And it was too hard to move further without his companionship so she decided to force comprehension in his mind. Taking a deep breath, she opened the drawer and slammed the gun in his hand. Staggered, his eyes widened, hands losing strength when she pointed it at her heart. 'Why don't you make us equal?" To her serious enunciation, he found his mind becoming numb. Throat drying along with a deadly shiver which purloined his senses. His eyes stopped at the gun at her heart and back at her face as unknowingly tears began to brim at the terrible state. 'Did-" He gulped apprehensively, 'Did you feel the same powerlessness?" She nodded unwaveringly, 'Yes, since the beginning, each time I pointed my gun at you. I felt exactly like this," 'Oh my God…" Gasping, his body quivered tremendously when he apprehend how agonizing it must be for her, steps retreating. 'I had no idea… it would be this hard." Clutching his chest, he lowered the gun, unable to point at her. Dread and pain blended, hairs falling on his forehead as an indication of his strain. 'Back then… with Alice.. I took the gun… I thought that I would be able to shoot… I was so damn determined as well but… it was ‘that' hard?" 'I thought the same too, I was determined too but look at me, was I able to do it? I failed every time so let's reverse the roles," She growled, hitting his chest to drag him back to reality. Slamming the gun back in his hands, she pressed her forehead against him, a dark smirk lingering on her lips, provoking him. 'Do it," A tear rolled down his cheek, shaking his head in denial, a fragile whispering was released, 'No…" 'You can't do it, you know why?" Failing to aim let alone to shoot and reflecting the same malice he once did, she declared the undeniable truth. 'Because ‘you' are a worshiper of ‘my' existence," 'No, no, stop it…" 'Why don't you try to pull the trigger and end this ordeal?" 'Shut up!" Throwing the gun away when she indirectly showed him how harsh it was. When forced to follow the same trails, he was absolutely vulnerable. His body reacted instinctively, wrapping his arms around her, embracing her firmly, kissing the top of her head. Hands icy only by the imagination of pulling the trigger, refusing to release her. 'I am sorry, I am so sorry for provoking you to kill me in the first place, my love," Whispering worriedly, his hands encased her body without any intention of letting go. Eyes widened, a horror glistening as she continued, 'Do you understand now why I always pointed my gun at you but never pulled the trigger?" 'Why did I stupidly give De Villiers but never intended to kill him? And tried to save him?" 'Yes, yes, I understand now…" Shutting his eyes, his grip on her tightened, voice restricting around his throat to stop testing his barely existing limits. He was already tired and depressed and her pushing him towards the limit just to experience what she once did caused a rampage. 'I have no idea it would be this hard, I am sorry for making you go through this," 'Do you get it now!? Pointing is fucking easy pulling the damn trigger isn't!" She yelled. Hitting his chest, ripping them apart with tears gleaming in her eyes. 'I am sorry, I am so sorry, I didn't realize…" 'And I swear, If I had known about Alice, I would have declined my father too even when I was hypnotized to be his perfect creations," Clutching his shirt, her voice slumped in sorrow, praying he would understand and stop being infuriated. 'Because I fucking can't hurt you or the ones you love! Nothing tops you, Nathaniel! No one is more important than you! I love you-" Before she could shatter in a sob as an expression of her anguish, his fingers raked in her hair, unable to hear her sobbing and crashed his lips on hers. Flabbergasted, her body froze when his lips moved gradually, pushing her down on the bed, getting on top of her. 'I am sorry, I am so sorry for even acting angry and purposely trying to hurt you. I was mourning, I was disheartened," He apologized sincerely. A tear from his eyes fell on her cheek, resting his forehead against her, his fingers entwined, securing them beside her head. Her breaths hastened, stunned to react when his melancholy crashed with her as the sound of his pants clenched her heart. 'You don't look at me properly, you don't talk straight, just coldly fulfilling obligations because I am pregnant, you don't actually care," She sniffed, tears on the verge of release. 'Don't be ridiculous, it's nothing like this. Okay, I agree, I was infuriated but I can never stop caring about you," Wiping her tears with his thumb, he released a shaky smile. 'Take these thoughts out your mind, my love, this will never happen," Brushing his lips against her again, his grip on her tightened. Amid his wrath, his realizations, all the aching and inscrutable sensations. One things was always clear- 'I love you and no power in this world could make me hate you. Never," Staring at her man in mesmerization, he desperately relieved her, to find the yearning to eradicate her vexations. To see he could never fathom leaving her hand and closing her eyes, she hummed. 'I see…glad to hear it," Swallowing hard when her lips part, inviting him to explore further, he pressed his lips deeper, kissing her passionately. Freeing his one hand, he wrapped it around her throat to deepen the kiss, flaring an intense fire in her body. Locking her, he bit her bottom lip with a husky chuckle. Pulling away a little to contemplate the woman beneath him with profound admiration. 'I love you, Zariah, I love you so much, you are my first and last love and I will always love you," Holding her hand in her palm, she expressed the same love, affection and need, swaying along the spark of the moment. 'I love you too, Nathaniel, you are the only one for me, I have chanted your name all my life and I will, always," Giggling, her fingers moved around his neck, bringing him down to capture her lips. Smirking, he leaned down to her neck, kissing intensely. Causing her to arch her back and pull his hair when the ecstasy of his one gesture traveled to her core. Leading his hand under her shirt, he was breathing heavily in her ears, forming goosebumps all over her skin, making her shiver and requiring more of him. Removing his shirt from the side, his teeth sunk into her shoulder, making her moan, swaying in her heavenly sensation. 'Fuck, I could never have enough of you," He growled, biting her earlobe. 'Me too," She moaned. His fingers never failed to drive her insane, leaving her to require more as his other hand slid inside her shirt. Her body burned at the heated contact, holding her side to press it harder on the bed while compressing her between his muscular body. 'Zariah," 'Hmm?" 'Let's place it all behind and get married when we will reach home. I want you to enter the mansion again as my bride," He offered earnestly. 'I would love to," Wholeheartedly accepted his offer. She embraced him, greeting his body to become one with her as they both shared an intimate night together. Clearing heart, complains and all the heaviness that separated them. The next day, he was in the bed until he heard the sound of her throwing up. 'Huh…?" Getting up hastily, only in his trousers, revealing his pumped body, he saw her puking. 'Hey, are you okay?" He asked worriedly, rubbing her back to help her ease up. 'Do I look like it?" She hissed after being done and cleaning the mess. He helped her and asked worriedly. 'I hope it isn't because I was rough or made you scream… right? I knew I shouldn't have been rough, this was not good for you," 'Thanks for the reminder but no, I have been feeling nauseous since breakfast," She smirked faintly, poking his chest to run her fingers down his toned abs to feel slightly better. 'Ah, it must be because of your condition. Here, easy," He smiled, helping her to sit on the bed when she was done. 'You better?" 'Yeah," 'Here, sit," Sitting beside her, he rubbed her hands, kissing them. Drained from throwing everything she managed to swallow, she rested her head on his shoulder. He smiled, placing his hand over her shoulder reassuringly and sparked conversation to shift her mind. 'Are you happy now? Adam hugged you," 'Yeah, it felt amazing. He ran, for a second I thought he might trip but he didn't. I can't wait for our baby to do the same," Smiling beautifully, her gaze lifted to greet him. She almost wanted to ask if he was happy but the gleam on his face didn't require questioning. 'You know what? I want us to have the same life too… I want us to live happily ever after," He breathed out, fingers clasping her chin to ensure they both locked eyes perfectly. 'If I am being honest, Zari, I am feeling too exhausted." 'We have been walking on this rough path for years, don't you think we deserve a break from this devastating loop of troubles?" He suggested tenderly, kissing her forehead to end these tribulations. Chuckling anxiously, she pulled away a little, taking his large hand in hers. 'Can I say something honestly?" 'What?" 'I will gladly walk on thorns if you are with me." Tracing her fingers on his line, their hearts pounded madly when she innocently spoke that intoxicated him. A symphonic sensation dropped to his core, tranquilizing him. 'With you, even pain is beautiful. With you, everything is memorable. With you, my soul lives," His face glowed, staring intensely at her gentle features, blushing, timorously smiling, tugging her hair behind her ear. All those heartwarming actions at once, magnifying his beats. 'What about the words of us living a normal life?" He asked playfully. Placing her palm over his exposed chest so she could indulge in the depth of gratification he attained. 'That? I… uh.. I was just checking if you would prioritize your hatred with Guru or your love for me." She explained nervously. He smirked, snaking his fingers to the side of her neck, 'I should have known, I knew this was out of your character," They both laughed a little, sharing a memorable moment together. His eyes were screaming to stare and build a home in the city of her world- the place he believed he belonged. 'But, there is no Guru and I will end this hatred too. This is the end of Zoran and then we will live happily together," Nodding with a tear of happiness, her arms move around his sides to hug him sweetly. 'Just you and me, no heartbreak in between," Chuckling melodiously, he caressed her, fingers trailing from her head down to her shoulder, kissing her forehead as he promised wholeheartedly. 'Just you and me,"