Chapter 100

Maybe Damien felt he couldn't love anyone because some bad experience he had. As I listened to him, it made me sad to think that this world was being unfair to kind people. I wanted to talk to him about it but it was a step by step process. I didn't want to come at him like I was curious about his personal life. I wanted to know because he was my friend. He looked sad when he spoke to us about it. 'Well, if you don't want to tell us what really happened, the only thing that would happen is that I'll have to find you a girlfriend." Laura replied. She was now feeling much better than how she was earlier. 'What?" Damien asked. 'Yes, that will be my goal in this journey. To find my parents and find you a girlfriend that would eventually become your wife." Laura said walking faster and ahead of me and Damien. I couldn't help but laugh. I didn't know what was giving Laura her guts but whatever it was, it was working. She was funny. Now, she was the one with the horses, taking steps with them. We walked further, my eyes on Damien because I needed a perfect time to talk to him. Shortly after when the sun was already out, we decided to let our legs rest and let the horses drink water. Damien had mentioned that after the horses fed, it would be time to ride on them. That announcement got me scared to the bone. 'Don't be afraid." Damien said to me when we stopped to have a rest. I sat close to him and he could see right through me. 'I'm not." I said, still trying to balance my breathing. I watched him look into space like he was still thinking about what we said earlier. 'It's everything okay?" I asked him. 'Yes." He smiled and turned to me. 'I'm glad you and Laura are talking again. You guys have this kind of connection that's beautiful and is only shared between Friends. I love that." He said in deep thought. I wanted to ask him more but I waited for him to say more. 'I never had that while growing up. I never had Friends and I was always alone." 'Why?" I was curious as we sat on the rock drinking water and gaining our strength back under the shade of a tree. Laura was just a few distance away from us feeding the horses and she was laughing hysterically like it was the funniest thing on the planet. 'No, no. Dora, don't do that." I heard her scream to the horses. 'She named the horses?" I blurted out in shock at how crazy Laura could be. Who names a horse they would use for a journey only. 'Yes. She's so funny." Damien replied and I remembered that I asked him a question. 'So tell me, why?" 'Why what." Damien looked at me like he had forgotten the conversation we were having but I knew that was not the case. He was only pretending to forget so he wouldn't talk about it. 'Why did you say you've been alone all your life? What about your family?" I asked, remembering I had only met his sister on that particular day and none of his family members. 'Well, my father was a warrior and my mother a warrior too. It was at those times, that women were also warriors so my mother was trained. When my sister and I were still young, we were trained to be warriors too. My parents would go out and come back so late. Our childhood was taken from us and we became adults fighting for our lives and for everyone else." Damien's face was bended when he told me his story. It was beautiful to hear from him and all he had to say about his family. 'I'm sorry about that?" I told Damien, truly feeling for him. Mine was a case of having no father but it was a case of having two parents but never felt loved for once. 'It's fine." He said. 'Is that why you don't believe in love?" I asked him, hoping he'd answer me again. 'Not really." He was being too slow to answer my question and I wanted to stop but I couldn't because I wanted to know more about him. 'I just haven't tried it before. It's not just for me?" 'Love?" I stared at him. 'Huh?" He asked me. He was trying to avoid calling the name. 'Don't pretend like you didn't hear me. People like you must have fallen in love with someone, then gotten their heart broken." 'I'll never get my heart broken." Damien responded, confidently. 'So what are we waiting for? I'm done feeding the horses, can we go now? I'm excited to ride a horse." Laura jumped up and down. 'Some of us aren't as excited as you." I told her and both she and Damien laughed. 'I'll teach you. We can start now if you want." Damien told me. The sun had disappeared for a while and it was a beautiful time to learn how to ride horses. 'You can learn a lot." Laura urged me. I didn't know if I was ready to learn how to ride a horse or if my fear was pushing me back. 'Are you that scared?" Damein asked me. I stared at the towering structure of those horses as it stood and instantly my legs began to shake. Was this how I would ride a house when in my mind, it was too dangerous. My mind was filled with the worst scenario of me getting hurt and limping ti Black heart. 'So?" I had forgotten that Laura and Damien were waiting for my response as I stared. I knew more 5han anyone that the longer it was postponed the longer it took to learn how to ride one and I wanted to learn how to ride one as soon as possible. Thorn had promised to teach me but hadn't. For some reasons I couldn't understand why Thorne had been the first person that came to my mind but I wanted to teach him that I could do more without him in my life. I wasn't trying to prove anything to Thorne but deep down, I wanted him to see what I could achieve even without his help, including riding a horse. I wondered where he was and why? Was he still as greedy as he was, months ago? 'You?" Damien brought me back to reality. 'Have you ever loved someone?" 'Nobody." I answered looking away. This was exactly how I wanted to react