CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

I wanted to talk to my dad about this whole thing but I decided to wait a little bit before I could get him to talk to me. He could tell me what to do so I could run and make things right between me and Avilla before it is too late. It was the least I could do before other males move in on her like she is their prey. I could sense ben was about to move in on her, he still didn't know that she was my mate and I was yet to tell him that I had found my mate and rejected her. He was going to be so furious with me just like Camilla was. I remember our conversation the other day, 'Hey man, you okay? It was pretty intense back there" he told me as he patted my back. It was the moment I stormed off just after Avilla pulled that stunt of flirting with that human boy, I looked for a sign that showed me that she was doing it on purpose but she definitely seem to be moving on. Not caring if I was hurting or not. Even though I was the one that rejected her in the first place, I wanted her to look at least hurt as to why I talked to her like that but all she did was accept it and move on. 'yeah, I am fine" I answered, the fresh grass smell was helping me calm down and it was the only thing stopping me from going back in there and ripping that dumb boy to shreds. 'You don't look good, man. You almost broke a table" he reminded me I knew I came very close to shifting right there and then, my wolf and I couldn't get over the fact that she looked good today in all black. I thought she got all dressed up for me but apparently she didn't even look twice in my direction and she spent half of her time with the other human boy she made friends with. I almost broke his neck when I saw him walking her to class. 'Are you sure?" ben asked again. 'Yeah man" I assured him. 'Hey listen, is there anything going on between you and Avilla?" he asked me suddenly. I turned to him with my mouth open, I wasn't sure where this was coming from and I definitely didn't know what to answer to that either. It was clear he liked her from the beginning at the coffee shop but my reaction prevented him from making a move. This was the time to tell him that I found my mate and it was Avilla. But I was stupid and apparently foolish to not give that answer. 'No, she is Camilla's friend" I told him finally. He let out a sigh of relief 'good, I was scared something was going on between you two and I would hate to be in the middle of it" he said after some time. This was the perfect time to tell him but for some reason my lips were glued shut and I didn't know what to tell him. 'Because I was thinking of asking her out on a date" he finished finally. As soon as those words left his mouth, I froze. In my freezing state, my hands were wrapped around ben's throat choking the shit out of him. He had some nerve to want to go out with my mate? All those other humans he paraded around with were suddenly not enough for him that he felt the need to add my girlfriend to the already growing pile? Was it so important to have this one girl that I desperately wanted? If he was observant, he would have notice the chemistry between the both of us since that coffee shop but he was obtuse and oblivious and only thought about himself. Why must he be so dense all the time not to recognize signs? I opened my eyes and it turned out that it was just a wish and he was standing there smiling and looking at me with expectant eyes. He really liked her and I was a fool thinking that Avilla wouldn't fall for ben's charms just like the other ones. Who wouldn't? He was funny, sweet, charming and he was not grumpy or grouchy like me. It gave me some kind of reputation of being the guy who stayed alone and never talked to anyone. 'Sure, go ahead" I told him. My wolf huffed in my head calling me an idiot before blocking me out. He was mad at me for this, I was mad at myself too. Ever since then, I haven't heard anything from them. I didn't know if they had gone out and if they were married with kids now too. I was so pissed off at myself that I wished my dad could beat some sense into me again, clearly this beating should have come three days before I gave my best friend permission to take my human mate out. Who in fact can fall in love with someone else forgetting about me entirely because the mate bond was clearly one side and I was the stupid idiot who didn't think this through. I laughed at the whole situation and at myself. I was stupid, so stupid. I needed to talk to my dad about alpha Dickson and my theory and he needed to tell me what he read in that journal so I could crawl on my knees and beg for forgiveness. I needed a fresh start with Avilla and I needed it fast, she was always on my mind every single time, even when I put several hours in training, she still wouldn't leave my mind. I was going crazy. The rejection was affecting me more than it was affecting her and I didn't like it one bit. She was already a part of me even when I fought so hard for it to be the opposite of what I wanted.