CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE

Avilla's pov. Things were moving smoothly now, Rohan was the perfect gentleman and he bought me lunch in school and he often too her on dates. He called them friendly fun and she rolled with it. She was happy and he was happy too, she noticed some other attributes that drew her closer to him. It was really amazing. She has been hanging out with Camilla who was over the moon that they were finally together and finally she would have Avilla by her side for a long time. Camilla knew that they were okay being what they were now but it was getting really hard to ignore the signs that Rohan didn't want to push the connection further. He keeps holding her at arm's length, he keeps saying they are friends and they are having fun but it seems that's all he wanted to do. She has tried so many times to approach the topic about them being serious but he always evades it like it doesn't matter, she has talked to Camilla about it and she said it was nothing. Werewolves don't believe in being serious with their mate when they know that they have that person for life. I understood that but he wasn't making efforts to strengthen their mate bond as it is. She was ready for this but it appears that he wasn't and that he was still doubtful for the fact that she is human. She has been having fun with him though, he has proved to be sweet and gentle in his ways but there is a lot about him that I still don't know and he has refused to give it up. I was feeling bad and that I was only enabling something that shouldn't be there. I didn't want to look so desperate that I push myself on him and he rejects me again. I won't be able to take it. Right now we were at lunch eating quietly and enjoying each other's company but his mind seems to be somewhere else. He keeps pushing his food around on his plate and he looks so lost in thoughts. "You okay?" I asked him. "What?" He asked confused. "You have been staring at that wall for the past five minutes now, penny for your thoughts?" I pushed. He shook his head quickly bringing me to the conclusion that something was indeed wrong with him. "Nothing really, I just spaced out" he said. I nodded slowly not believing him but I couldn't push him or force him to talk to me about his problems. He wasn't ready to share any of those yet and I understood. He was still reluctant about us and it only served to bring me to the conclusion that maybe he is hanging out with me because his father made him. He didn't change his mind till after the beating he received from him. Maybe I was overthinking this, he was being a gentleman and taking this slow just like every girl's dream but I wasn't like every other girl. I wanted my mate and I wanted him bad but it seems my mate didn't want me. "You know you can talk to me about anything, you know that right?" I asked him. I wanted him to feel comfortable enough to tell me what's bothering you. I reached out to grab his hand on the table, he looked at me with a small smile gracing his features and I felt my heart melt into a poodle. He was really handsome. "I know, thank you" he said before letting go of my hand. I felt awkward for a minute but I pushed past the feeling, it was nice for a fleeting moment when he held my hand. This is what I was talking about, he finds it hard to make any sort of physical connection with me and is always so withdrawn like he is thinking about something all the time. I had to talk to him about it sooner than later before it was too late. "Hey, what do you think about spending the night at my place?" I asked him, smirking a little when the water he was drinking went down the wrong way. "Sorry" I said when he started coughing. "You just don't blurt things like that!" He hushed. "Oh my bad!" I said flatly. I wasn't sorry, I wanted him to come to my place tonight. I was ready to take this relationship to another level and if he was delaying because he didn't want to rush me then I think I can make it easier for him. "Uh...I don't think that is a good idea" he said nervously. "Why not?" I asked in surprise. "Avilla, I really like you and I want us to take things as slow as possible" he said. "Oh" that was all I could say, so it was my fault that we haven't gotten to the next step, it is because Mr. hot pants wants to take things slow. In a way, it was really sweet but I wasn't looking for sweet and savory right now but a very hot male on me right now. I was tempted to plead with him but I had the rest of my pride to deal with. I have pushed this way too far and I was going to stop and let him take the reins. I couldn't possibly the only one that wanted this to work but even though I try so hard, if someone wanted to be with you then he would pull heaven and earth just to make sure that it happens. If being slow with Rohan means that I get to be happy then I think I would follow the long road to happiness. "I want you but there are so many factors delaying us" he said. I wanted to tell him that I knew all about the supernatural world and make things a little easier for everyone but I was going to let him do this on his own.