CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR

Avilla's pov. "Avilla!!!" I looked to Camilla in confusion, who in the world could that be? We ran downstairs to know who that was and we met Rohan with smoke coming out from his ears. He looked like he ran all the way over here. "Rohan, what the hell is going on?" Camilla asked her brother. "What the hell was that?" He directed his question to me, ignoring his sister. "What was what?" I raised up my chin in defiance. "I come to beg you for forgiveness and you go ahead to kiss be in public?" He shouted. "Excuse me?" I asked him. "What were you doing with Ben?" He asked again ignoring me. I stared long and hard at him. He was the one getting all angry with me when he rejected me in the first place. Now he has the nerve to come here and get all angry and sexy at the same fucking time! "I would give you a minute to apologize to me, right now!" I said firmly. "Apogee to you? Why would I do that?" He asked me. Camilla stood one on one side, watching the drama with hooded eyes. "You asshole!!! Pull your head out of your ass, you idiot! You called me to go out with you, no, no. You begged me to go out with you, I agreed just for you to stand me up because you were meeting with some girl? And you have the nerve to come down here and scream at me?" I said lowly in my best cold voice. He stopped a little, he seemed to have forgotten that I saw him with some random bitch. "Um..." "You have nothing to say huh?" I taunted him. He looked speechless and frankly, I don't think I want to hear anything from him. Even though he rejected me and begged for forgiveness, I thought he was going to finally get his head out of his ass and make us closer but this just proved to me that he was an ass. "Listen..." He started to say. "Get out" I said calmly. "What?" He asked like he couldn't believe what I just asked him. "I said GET.THE.HELL.OUT.OF.MY.HOUSE!!!" I added emphasis. "You are asking me out of your house?" "Yes and I would appreciate it if you and I stop deceiving ourselves with this whole thing about being friends. It's never going to work out. Please go" I told him. I was suddenly exhausted, I was angry with him. "You don't mean that" he said more quietly this time. "Yes and don't call me anymore" I told him before leaving both him and Camilla downstairs to head up to my bedroom. I shut the door quietly and slid down the wall beside it. I didn't like the way my wolf and I felt. She was depressed and to be fair I was too. I thought we were getting along lately and we felt something for each other. Taking it slow and unraveling more of each other but I think I have been fooling myself thinking that we could have more. "Hey sweetie, can I come in?" Camila asked as she knocked quietly on my door. I sniffed but nodded at her, she came and took me into her arms and rocked me as I cried into her shoulder. I was a mess, I have always been a mess since I came here. It was like I had no rest and my life was just designed to just make me sad each time. "It's going to be okay" Camilla whispered into my hair as she comforted me. I nodded but the tears couldn't stop coming, my heart was breaking all over again, it was just like the day I got rejected. I just couldn't believe it, I was going to die alone. "What is wrong with me?!" I cried out. "Nothing, my brother is an idiot" she said in support. "He is, he really is" I laughed through the tears. When I was all cried out, Camilla ordered pizza and got a tub of ice-cream from the refrigerator so we could eat our feelings out. We were watching the vampire diaries and I was really loving Damon in this. "Hey, what would you do if you met a vampire?" Camilla asked me. "If he is as hot as Damon Salvatore then I don't think I have a problem with that, besides. I heard they are really good in bed" I answered She laughed at me, "Yeah, imagine if Mitchell was a vampire. He would be really hot" The question made me laugh hard, I imagined if I was a vampire and I found my mate, maybe all this won't be happening to me. They are kind of hot, watching them so their while neck sucking thing is such a turn on for me. I am such a sick freak, someone breaking my neck and taking my blood sounded like the most erotic I have ever seen. If only I could find one now, I would so want him to take my virginity. "Hey, aren't vampires and werewolves kind of like immortal enemies?" I asked her. "Not really, only when they are threatening us. All supernatural can exists or co-exists when they are not gaining for each other's throats" she said. "Okay then, I guess I have found my new mission." "Get myself a hot vampire to climb" I said dreamily. "You realize that they will suck your blood, right?" She asked. "Even better, that is so hot! Watching them do it here is so hot and I want to be Caroline right now" I told her. "You are such a slut" she teased me. "Well, yeah! I am a bad bitch!" I told her. I sighed for the hundredth time today, all my fantasies were alive right now and it was so sad because I was going to be alone without anyone to share my fantasies with.