CHAPTER FORTY-NINE

Avilla's pov. "Rohan?" I asked shocked. They both turned to face me and only one had an apologetic look on their face. I really can't believe this, I am busy worrying out us and he was over here making out with some girl at his party. I told Camilla that he had doubts and this just confirmed it. "Avilla, I can explain" he said desperately. "Please do" I urged him. I really wanted to hear the nonsense he was going to say to me. "Rohan, who is this?" the girl asked him in her whiny voice. "Get out!" I told her firmly. "What? You can't talk to me like that" she insisted. "Get the fuck out of here!" I screamed at her. "Jesus Christ! Calm down Avilla" Rohan said when the girl scurried out of the room. "Don't you dare?" I told him harshly. "I am sorry" he said instead. "No, go ahead and explain to me. We're you about to have sex with her?" I asked. "No, yes. Maybe" he said unsure. That broke my heart, Rohan has broken my heart again. The intimacy that I have been begging from my mate is what he was about to freely give some girl without as much as a thought who he hurts in the process. Stupid son of a bitch! Sorry Penelope. "Okay" I told him quietly. I turned towards the door to get out but he was already blocking me. "Move" "Wait, please let me explain" he begged, holding my by my hand. I yanked my arm back and turned towards him. "HOW COULD YOU?! I TELL YOU THAT I AM READY TO MOVE FORWARD AND YOU GO AHEAD AND DO THIS. THIS IS A COWARD'S WAY OUT. YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT YOU WEREN'T READY AND NOT PROVE YOUR POINT BY STICKING YOUR TONGUE DOWN SOME GIRL'S THROAT!" I screamed at him. "No, wait ..." he tried saying. But I cut him off before he could say anything. "Don't...just don't. I can't even believe anything you say to me right now, you are a liar and a cheat." I told him. I was way too angry to listen to him right now. "I said move, if you don't move, I am going to start hurting you" I warned him seriously. He noticed the look in my eyes and stepped aside for me to pass. I opened the door making sure to hit him with it, I was a little bit glad when he winced. I walked down to the party fuming and swearing under my breath. I wasn't paying attention to where I was going and I hit a lot of people but I just wanted to step outside. My breaths were short and I could feel an attack coming on. My eyes were welling with tears. I walked faster till I got to the door and pushed it open, the air hit my face making me take a deep breath. I could hear the sound of my heart shattering and I struggled to breath. Tears streamed down my face as I walked to the chair outside. I wrapped my arms around me and slowly rocked myself as I sobbed quietly. I needed Camilla but I didn't want to pull her away from having fun. I gritted my teeth, I could feel my wolf's anger, and it rolled off her in waves. I tried to calm her down but she was snarling in my head. How could Rohan do this to us? How? I have tried all I could to make this thing work but I can't force someone to like me. It's not just possible. I took out my phone and texted Camilla, telling her that I wanted to go home and she should have fun. She didn't answer my texts so I assumed she was with Mitchell. I ordered a taxi that took me home with tears all over my face. This is the second time my heart was breaking because of his selfish and vain nature. I don't think I would give room to anything like that happening again. Enough is enough. He thinks because he is a wolf and probably thinks I am human, therefore he can do anything he wants and he would still come back to me. That is very wrong, it is time I start putting myself first instead of some selfish animal that can't even consider my feelings. I got home and ran up to my room, I didn't bother to take my dress off when I collapsed on the bed and let the tears flow. I sobbed till I was tired and I fell asleep from there... I was woken up by the constant ringing of my phone, it was loud and I just wanted to smash it. "Hello" I answered. "Avilla, where are you?" a voice slurred. "Camilla? I am at home." "You left? I have been looking all over for you" she said. She was slurring that I could barely understand her. "I sent you a message" I told her. "Oh seen it. You okay? You sound sad" she asked. "Yes, I am." "Okay, bye" she screamed into the phone. I winced at the volume and hung up. She was the sweetest, even when she is drunk, she still cares enough about me to call me. I don't really know how I would have coped in this town if I didn't find someone like Camilla. Even though her brother was a dick, she is the sweetest girl I know. I tried going back to sleep but I couldn't, so I went downstairs and turned on a show to watch. No interest in it either, it was like I could feel nothing after what I saw tonight. I wanted to go tell his father so he could beat him some more but I just didn't want anyone interfering anymore. I think it was their interference that made him talk to me in the first place. I watched the show with heaviness in my heart till I slept off.