Evan Part 5

When I arrived at my house or apartment, I spent my time lying on my bed. Father and mother forbade me to do anything other than rest. Even though I'm fine, I can't deny my knee still hurts. Compared to this pain in my knee, this sadness I feel bothers me more. I still can't forget the terrible events a few hours ago. The scary sight of that awful accident and the spirits flying from the victims' bodies who died in that accident were constantly imagined in my head. I went through so many terrible events today, but I can't beat the pain in my heart because of Aunt Silva's words earlier. Every time I remember, it will make these tears fall by themselves. I coupled this with the change in Sean's attitude toward me. I'm very disappointed with his attitude. All the joy I had felt with Sean today disappeared instantly because of the incident earlier. What would happen to my relationship with Sean without his mother's approval? It's not possible to walk normally even if Sean and I decided to stick with it. Should I end my relationship with Sean? But I was well aware of it. There was no way I could part with Sean. I remember the last time we had a big fight while studying at Grandes High School. At that time, he gave me a choice between continuing to help calm the ghost that Sylvia sealed with the consequence of losing Sean or following Sean's wish to stop involving me with spirits. In return, I would stay with Sean. At that time, I preferred to keep helping calm the ghost sealed by Sylvia, which eventually made me break up with Sean. At that time, I thought I'd be fine without Sean because I still had Angie beside me. But I was wrong. Losing him made my heart feel empty. It's like something important has disappeared from my life. It was then I realized how much I loved him. I even confessed to Angie that Sean was my first love. If I parted with him, I would quickly get a second love, a third, and so on. I have many friends, and as far as I can remember, they often tell their love stories, which end in separation. Indeed, they looked broken then, but they quickly returned to get another love. I thought I would be the same as my friends. Even though it was difficult at first, I would accept the breakup and move on to get another love. I don't know. Maybe I'm not normal because I can't quickly get another love after the breakup. Since long ago, several men have expressed their love for me, not meaning to show off, but I am pretty proud because I am pretty popular among men, although not as popular as Sean. Even though I had parted ways with Sean then, I still couldn't put my heart on another man. Yes, I'm not normal because falling in love with someone is tricky. If this time I parted with Sean again, could I? I shook my head. I know what the answer is. As time passes, my feelings for Sean are getting bigger and more prominent than before. As for Sean, I don't know. I doubted his love for me. In the past, I could feel his immense love for me just by looking into his eyes, but lately, I haven't seen the glow of love in his eyes anymore. Maybe other people, including Sean, will wonder why when at the beach, I asked Sean about his love for me. Of course, I have my reasons for asking that. I don't see the glow of love in his eyes anymore for me. I don't know when this happened, but I'm becoming increasingly aware of it today. Maybe he doesn't love me anymore? Perhaps he doesn't want me around anymore? Thinking about that makes tears stream down my face. I heard the sound of the door opening and quickly wiped my tears away. I saw my mother enter my room and walk towards me. "You're crying again? What's wrong, Leslie? Tell mom," she said as she sat beside me. "Nothing, mom. I'm still shocked because of the accident earlier," I lied. I don't want to lie to my mother, but I can't tell why I was crying. I don't want mom to worry about me. "Okay, don't think about it too much. The important thing is you're okay." I nodded my head in response. "Oh yes. You said you would meet Sean's mother back then, right? How was your meeting? You haven't told mom yet." Immediately, I was stunned. I did not know what answer to give to my mother. "Leslie," she called, forcing me to speak again. "Everything's fine, mom." Once again, I lied to Mom. At that moment, I felt guilt fill my heart. 'What about Sean's mother? What kind of person is she?" Mother asked again, which, for the umpteenth time, made me confused. 'S-she is a very beautiful and graceful woman. She is also always busy at work, rarely at home," I answered as honestly as possible this time. 'Mother means, what kind of attitude towards you? She likes you, right?" That question made these tears struggle again, asking for release, but of course, I held it back so it wouldn't come out. "Yeah, she's fine. Our relationship is also good." I couldn't see my mother's face and stared at my clenched fists. "Thank goodness then, Mom is happy to hear that. I hope you and Sean are matched, and you can get married in the future." DEG ... my heart beats fast hearing it. I can't deny that's what I hoped for, but I don't know. I even doubt that our relationship can still be maintained. 'M-Mom likes Sean, huh?" 'Of course, he is a good and polite boy. Mom knows he cares about you. He is the man of your choice. I'm sure you won't choose wrong. Mom and Dad trust you, Leslie; we will support your decision. For us, your happiness is most important." Touched, the words of the mother moved me. I didn't think my parents loved me that much. "I-if I decide to separate from Sean, will Mom and Dad forgive me?" I don't know why I am asking this. This question ejected itself from my mouth. "Why did you guys split up? Don't you two love each other?" I was silent. My tongue felt numb to answer. "According to my mother, Sean was a good man and loved you. But if you think separation is the only way best for you, Mom supports it. So you don't have to apologize. You can determine your happiness. You are an adult, not a child anymore." I nodded in response, my voice still reluctant to come out. 'Mom just wanted to give you some advice. A relationship will not always run smoothly, there will always be obstacles. So before making a decision, you have to think it through as best you can. If you have a problem with Sean, you better have a good talk with him first, don't make a unilateral decision." 'But what if he changes? As time goes by, humans must change, right, Mom?" Finally, my voice came out, a question that made Mother's eyes widen perfectly.