40- Divulgence

'He was right, I shouldn't trust my tongue but then again, I asked myself, was that pain worth it? Was spending your life with a man who can't love you worth it?" It was morning and I was waiting for a call from Sebastian to remind me to come back in two days or to yell at me for putting his things in the drawer instead of the display. 'What happened, Eileen?" Sofia asked when she saw me pacing around the room. 'Sebastian didn't call. I thought he would." I sighed, taking a seat on the couch with her. 'It's not twenty four hours since you came here and you are waiting for his call?" She asked, smirking while teasing me but I didn't mean my words in that sense. I was worried to hear his scolding. 'No, that's not it. He doesn't know where I have put his things. His rings, his brooch, his colognes, I thought he would call-" I began to tell her, what was perturbing me. Maybe I shouldn't attend his call in the first place. Yeah, let's just not pick the call. 'Are you waiting for him to call you?" Sofia cut me off, smirk growing wider but under all circumstances, I was not waiting for his call. I wanted him out of my life in these two days. I want my life back, I needed liberation from him. 'Why would I?" I frowned, knitting my brows together in confusion. Did it look like I was waiting? 'Why don't you call?" She suggested happily but my frown deepened, resenting this idea. 'Why would I?" I scoffed, folding my arms, not in the mood to hear his voice. 'Do you think he would call you?" She asked again, coming closer. She was excited and I couldn't understand why. 'Why would he?" I asked again, tilting my head in confusion. Not liking her going on about the call ordeal. 'Stop giving the same reply. Just give him a call and ask away." She whined, pouting a little but I shook my head. 'No." I enunciated. I would not call him, if he couldn't sleep without me he should call, I won't. 'Okay then, how about that? Let's see if he will miss you or not." Definitely not. He would be glad that I left. I had been mentally draining him for a long time now, I doubt he would want me near him. Now he could finally focus on his abyss rather than listening to me. 'You don't call or text at all. Let's see if he will call you or not." Sofia suggested but I forgot I was supposed to act so I held an unaffected face, shrugging my shoulders. 'He doesn't call me on a normal day, why would he now?" I asked nonchalantly, not bothering to even fake affection, hating the idea. 'Did you guys have a fight? Why do you sound so cold? Did your love wash in six months?" Sofia asked as her smile vanished but I don't want to talk about Sebastian. I have a life outside it, I wanted to get away from him. 'Shut up." I scoffed, turning up to leave. If she intended to talk about him then I don't want it. 'No, but seriously, are things okay with you two? Sebastian wasn't furious to know about those contraceptive pills, wasn't he?" She asked, pulling me back to the couch and sighing, I pinched the bridge of my nose. 'He was but eventually agreed to it." I told her, cutting the heated argument which took place when this happened and only told her the aftermath. 'I see. I was scared he might not cut you off from me." She sighed in relief and to be honest, I was frightened of that too. 'Don't worry, no one could steal you from me." I smiled, turning to her, reassuring her though I was not sure about it myself. 'Yeah, yeah." She hummed, nodding happily. We finally talked about other things, about the life she was leading. Passing time, spending a quality time together as I forgot about other things, focusing on my reprieve and nothing else. Soon the time passed and night came and unwillingly my mind began to wander about the words Sofia said. I was in my room, thinking about what she said. Did I truly don't matter that he didn't bother to call for once? He said he couldn't sleep without me then why couldn't he call? What harm could one call cause? Should I call? Is he even okay? It's unbelievable that he let me live for one day. Unwanted thoughts began afflicting my mind, leading to those thoughts which were only disheartening me. My chest clenched to realize that my worth was on the same level as his other prey. Whether I stay or not means nothing to him. I mean nothing to him… My heart clenched, hurt when this realization sank in but before it could take over me, he actually called me. And losing my posture, I didn't think twice and attended the call instantly. 'Hello?" My tone came out excited unknowingly and when I realized how I said it, I bit my tongue, mentally scolding myself. If he realized how carefree and happy I sound, he would steal my happiness. He wouldn't let any elation reach me. 'Hello…?" I called again when no response came from the other side. The sting of my chest increased because I think he had accidentally called. He didn't mean to call, it must be by mistake. 'Sebastian?" I called again, hoping I would hear a response. His silence only enhanced my disappointment and the glee in my voice was killed. 'Hello? Is anyone there?" I asked again sadly, sighing. Unwillingly it hurt me that he couldn't call me once. Could have left a text at least… 'Eileen!" Papa's voice called, dragging me out from my hopeless thoughts as the bare minimum hopes I had were crushed today. He didn't miss me. Who am I after all…? Why would I matter…? 'Coming!" Calling back, my sorrow converted into fury as I cut the call outrageously. He even managed to prick my heart by his nothingness. 'Asshole." Cursing him under my breath, I threw my phone away. If he called again, I won't pick the call now. Since my worth was compared to nothing then I had no intention of talking to him over the phone either. Rolling my eyes off, I took a deep breath and controlled my fury with a grimace on my face. Mood already ruined because of him. 'What is it, Papa?" I asked softly, coming down. 'Eileen, my love, come sit with us." Papa called, motioning to me to sit with them in the middle while Sofia was using her phone on the other couch. 'Hmm?" Humming, I sat and she put her phone down as they all turned to me, making me nervous by their looks. 'Love, your mother and I need to talk to you about something important." Papa said, taking a deep breath. 'Yes, What is it?" I asked timidly, tugging my hair behind my ear, worried what they wanted to talk about. 'Honey, We are not going to twist words now. How's Sebastian with you? Is he abusive or over possessive? Has he hurt you in any way?" Mama asked, draining my energy by her very question. 'What.. Do you mean?" I asked, faking a chuckle to shift the matter but the direness on everyone's face showed they won't bury this matter today. 'You have changed so much and not in a healthy way. Dear, tell us if there is anything wrong, we just want to help you. That is not how our Eileen was." Mama continued in a broken whisper, holding my hands tightly.