74- Heartily Talks

PRESENT 'Then we got married. I originally planned to act nice and loving for a year at least until we have a baby, live a fake happy life but- God! You irritated me so I cut our time to a week and here we are now." Exhaling loudly, I finished everything, telling what I have probably never told anyone before. When I started telling her, I was depressed, sorrowfully about what happened with Ruben, the fight we just had, it all mixed. But, as the tale developed, my mood gradually fixed and I was finally at serene. I felt liberated, soothed. She was sitting as my head was resting on her lap, telling her continuously. 'Thanks for listening, it feels great after sharing something you never did." Groaning, I sat up, drank some water to ease my dried throat. It was hurting from constant talking. I realized, I only talked for this long with Eileen only on our call and this was the first time in real life that we talked non-stop. After listening to everything for a good two hours, she closed her eyes, took a deep breath. 'Wow. You need therapy." I frowned, 'After hearing all that, is that the first thing you had to say, woman?" It was such an underwhelming response. I at least expected tears but since I told her casually, she responded accordingly. 'Hey, I said what came to my mind first but yeah, I won't deny. You were swoon worthy before and now too. I got myself a hot one." Licking her lips, her eyes scanned me from top to bottom. Forming my lips in a thin line, her strange response made me uncomfortable. Smirking, she crawled up to me and sat on my lap. 'I love how I stole you from the world. Put you under my spell so nothing but me exists in your mind, my intoxication, my voice. Ah, I love it." Laughing, her hands locked around my neck. All she cared for was her position in my domain. Well, she deserved that spot and should brag about it which she was doing without hesitation. 'You sound like a witch." I mumbled, eyeing her suspiciously if she was drunk or not. 'You know why you want me so badly?" She asked, moving her fingers across my face. Finally releasing her usual angelic smile. 'Because your voice provides me solace. Because I love you." Shrugging my shoulders, I didn't think deeply about it. 'I married you because I love you, I stayed because I love you, I constantly seek mercy in your eyes because I love you… I said those words." She repeated those words I could never forget, they rang in my mind constantly. She should know her echoes dwell in my soul. 'Hmm so?" Leaning to my ear, she cooed, 'Your Mother did the same." 'Woman, stop connecting the dots. Don't find reasons. Love doesn't happen with reasonings. It happened, it happened. There are no strings attached." A sigh of frustration escaped my lips when she needlessly joined the dots she didn't have to. Because I never felt attracted to her at the start. It developed, not backstory included. It happened how the concept of attraction works. Before one could realize, they were in love. 'Are you sure?" She inquired, narrowing her eyes in suspicion. 'Of course. I wanted to kill you, you got alive. Devil's luck." Winking, I smirked at her tempting body but she frowned, getting off from my laps. 'Hey, where do you think you are leaving? Come here." Plopping on my elbows, I grabbed her wrist to pull her down on my chest so I could feel her endearment in my vicinity. 'Leave this, when you fell for me?" I asked in amusement, I was intrigued to know when she began to accept me. 'The moment you came to ask for my hand in marriage and called my name." Murmuring shyly, she put my hand under her head, turning her aesthetic gaze to mine. 'No, the real me." 'Mate, why do you think I am still here? I was crazy in love. I couldn't bring myself to leave you. I was like, fuck this world as long as I am your exception, I don't care. I wanted you to love me as much as I love you." Whispering, her hand cupped my cheek, sharing her perception. To think about it, she was disheartened immensely at first to love the wrong man, to marry the wrong man but she didn't stop loving me. 'Is that why you constantly tried to push me beyond my limits?" Narrowing my eyes playfully, I leaned down to brush my nose against hers. 'Oh, I wanted to see how far you could go. Can I truly create a special spot in your heart? I think I did." Giggling, she rolled to the side to get out from my grasp but I shifted on top of her, stopping her from leaving. Not realizing how she shifted my mind. 'You sneaky pest." I kissed her cheeks and ended up chuckling. There was something she was doing to me which I was unable to halt. It was blinding me. 'Now, you tell how you realized you love me? When and how did it happen?" Laughing, she put her hand in between, running her hand down to my lock. Her merest actions sometimes induced the uncontrollable thump, increasing my breaths to the point I turn oblivious of my world and focus entirely on her. Humming, I bit her earlobe before pulling away and sitting up as well. She was excited to listen. Clearing my throat, I told her about my late recognition. 'Well, as I said, I didn't know how and when I fell for you but the realization of it occurred when I was in America. I didn't attend your call or respond because I didn't want anyone to think you are my weakness and hurt you." Taking a pause, I didn't want to recall that horrendous time which I had placed beyond my memory. But, the fact I broke her heart with my words remained. 'But, those hurtful words remained and you need to apologize for it." She frowned, ordering me and obviously, I obeyed. 'I am sorry." I said quickly, sincerely. Taking her hand and kissing them to ensure I did it properly. 'Good. Now, continue." Smiling, she gestured to me to continue. Lowering my gaze, I placed my other hand over hers as well, giving it a tight squeeze. My lips curled downwards from dejection. I didn't want to accept it but I must. 'Eileen, at Nathaniel's execution, Zariah- though I hate her but- she didn't ask him to stop or stay, she just said one thing. Don't hate me. She kept sobbing and repeating those words." Inhaling, I looked deeply into her eyes, telling her what I realized in that moment- 'That was the moment I realized, I am here, I might not be next to you in the next moment. That was the moment I realized if I didn't tell you how I feel, what was I going to tell my heart then?"