45- Disgusted

'I won't lie. I didn't like you that much at first, Asad." After leaving Sebastian so he could reflect on his deed and realize you talk matters out, not take rash actions and hurt one's loved ones. I came out and sat on the couch and Ruben and his friend came with a cup of tea. 'You want some tea?" Ruben asked sweetly, taking a seat. 'No." I shook my head. 'Are you alright, My Lady?" That guy Asad asked, sitting on the other side of the couch I was sitting on, leaning back relaxed, drinking his tea. 'My Lady?" I asked, turning to him, narrowing my eyes in perplexity. 'I am used to it. Don't mind it." He smiled, waving his hand to shrug it off but I found it weird hearing My Lady from him. 'I am fine…" I mumbled, hugging my knees closer to my chest, looking down. Trying not to think about Sebastian's words but they entered my mind unwillingly. 'He is Asad, he is my lawyer and would be yours too but are you sure you don't want to think about my words?" Ruben officially introduced me to him, to his friend Asad. 'Pleasure to meet you. I am Asad Sheikh." He whispered temptingly, offering me his hand and I remembered what Sebastian did to that inn owner just because he held my hand and I felt hesitant. 'L-Likewise." I forced out a nervous smile, waving at him which made him chuckle. 'Don't worry, he won't kill me." He smirked, shifting his attention back to his tea again, moving his hand to the headrest. They both had a strangely dominant aura which I didn't expect, not from Ruben at least. 'Ruben, I am sorry but I have no reason. What do you want me to do about a marriage without love? Your Brother had warned me before." I whispered, searching for one reason to stay, for one reason to hold his hand but all I ever heard him saying was… stop. All he ever asked me was to stop. How can I continue when he wants to stop himself? 'Warned you?" Ruben asked, not believing Sebastian warned me. 'He told me if it continued he might do something unimaginable to me. He had told me to stop countless times. When he doesn't want to give us a chance then why do I waste my time and effort?" I told him hurriedly. Shivering a little, unsettled to tell anyone but maybe.. Maybe I could find a glimpse of hope. Mrs Stellios told me he would help. 'Just sit back and watch him kill my family?" Asking in a croaked voice, I moved my legs to the side, glaring at Ruben who looked down in disappointment. He was not so sure anymore how to convince me but his friend broke it. 'I doubt he would do it, My Lady." Asad said calmly, sounding disinterested in the whole conversation yet was listening to it. 'Why?" I frowned, turning to him, definitely not liking his interruption in my personal matters. 'Because Sebastian is a man who raises his weapon to kill only. The fact he let your friend live is the most astonishing fact." And he said what I didn't want to hear. 'How do you know he shot my friend? I didn't tell you that." My frown deepened, folding my arms, furrowing my brows. But, I have heard that in the news too. They always used to say that Black Death never leaves the one he pointed his gun at alive. Never. But, he didn't kill Sofia because he knew if he did, he would lose me forever. 'We have our sources. We know everything." He smirked, glancing at me for a second. 'Sebastian knew if he killed anyone you love then he would lose you forever that is why he used a 2mm Kolibri. That bullet is not enough to be fatal let alone kill someone. He did to scare you and ensure you come along quietly." He explained, my eyes widened in incredulity, realizing it now but then again, why didn't he listen? I was his exception after all so why didn't my voice reach him? 'Or else it was highly unlikely for Sebastian to leave his prey alive moreover without making them scream." Asad continued, chuckling huskily, shaking his head as if it was all amusement for him. But in his sentence I caught one phrase which none of them could understand. Making them scream. None of them could grasp the depth of it. 'Yeah, he loves hearing them so at least you should know your importance now, Eileen." Ruben added as well expectantly, hoping to convince me but my mind was stuck on his words. 'That is exactly why I came. I want to see the most unpredictable moment to happen before my very eyes." Asad smirked, sharing the true reason he decided to tag along with Ruben. 'Watch him fall in love and accept it." He wanted to witness the miracle I didn't aim for to happen but my mind was on something else. 'What do you mean by screams?" I asked, eyes widened as their words made me know one thing I never paid heed to before. 'Huh? I meant what I said. Sebastian torture his preys to so he could hear their screams." Asad shrugged, blinking in confusion, wondering what I managed to grip. 'He can't." I whispered, staring at my hands and bringing my index finger closer to my lips, touching it how he did when he told me about that. 'What?" They both asked, confused. 'He made them scream because he couldn't hear them and he wanted to hear them." I told them softly, pressing my finger harder on my lips just how he wanted to so he could taint them. 'Now that's news." Asad laughed, indulging in it to the core. He was loving witness and getting to know new things about him. 'I know you are special and all, Eileen but he is my brother. He is a sadist who loves torturing people, blood satisfies him. He holds bloodlust." Ruben chuckled playfully too. They did not believe me. Sebastian told me himself, he told me he couldn't hear voices, that darkness felt homely, it gave him warmth and solace. He told me. I was not making this up. 'It's not bloodlust, Ruben. It's his deepest desire." I whispered desperately, hoping he would believe in me. I told him the real reason why he required it. 'He told me himself. It was not blood which satisfies him but their misery. He loves misery more than blood." I explained further, telling him that it was not blood but one's misery, one's pain he wanted. That was why he married me, not for torturing me, for giving me physical but to satisfy his deepest desire- Misery. 'He is my Brother, you say? Seems like someone else knows more." Asad smirked, teasing Ruben for not knowing as much as I do but I doubt Sebastian would tell this to anyone- especially Ruben. 'Shut up." Ruben growled, not liking I know much more than him but Asad was enjoying it. 'Ah, I knew it would be fascinating." He chuckled huskily again, delighted to know further, to see the outcome of it. 'Do you still want to leave?" Asad asked, smiling sweetly like the first time, intrigued to know. Taking a deep breath, I replied firmly, 'I do. No matter what you say, our bond is toxic. My feelings, my emotions, my fear don't matter at all." 'Why don't you try to work it out at least?" Ruben came back to one point again, asking hopefully. But, I smiled, parting my lips to give him the simple response. The real reason why I want out of this bond instead of working it out- Sebastian wanted me to stop. But, before I could give a detailed reply of why Sebastian came and my breath hitched. I flinched when he came and they both noticed my reaction of dread. I couldn't help it, my fear for Sebastian was far greater than any other emotion. I was unable to subdue it. 'What happened to your hand?" Rubek asked casually so I could relax but I didn't know what happened to me so I blurted out. 'I broke the glass. It hurt him." I lied for the first time. It came on its own. 'Come here, Eileen." Sebastian's dominant tone came, not liking that I lied. My throat dried instantly, fearing the sternness on his face. But, obeying quietly, I went after him, away from them, 'Why were you sitting next to Asad?" He growled, grabbing my arm roughly. Of everything, his concern was why am I sharing one couch with him and we were not sitting next to each other- 'He is sitting on the far corner, Sebastian. How come it's next to him?" I asked innocently, wincing at his grip which made him let go of me instantly. He moved his hand back, jaw clenched, stopping it from hurting me more than it already did and curled it in a fist, exhaling to control his emotions. 'Why did you lie?" He breathed out, turning his head away for a second. 'You have a pretty dominant image… I didn't want them to think-" I trailed off nervously, nibbling on my bottom lip. 'That you weakened me?" But he cut me off with a scowl, he was disgusted. It enhanced his rage, hating how it sounded but I shook my head in denial. 'That a heartless guy like you could be emotional enough to punish himself." I whispered coldly and he disheartened me again. "Oh…" His rage faded, not realizing he hurt me again. 'I know my position, Sebastian. I won't think that way." I whispered, forcing out a weak smile. 'And…even if I did weaken you… What was wrong in that? Why did you give such a repugnant reaction? Was it that bad?" I asked in a low tone, his reaction clenched my heart. "No." He shook his head, features hardened, almost trying not to show his real reaction. 'Emotions are dangerous, Eileen and putting you in a higher place would only endanger you." He breathed out, making a fake excused. Write it down, he is lying. There was no way it's the truth. 'Why? Can't the notorious Black Death protect his woman?…. Pathetic." I mocked with an empty chuckle. And that is why it was a lie. If he could kill a guy for touching me then allowing someone else to graze my skin was a distant matter. "Eileen-" 'I won't forget this reaction, Sebastian. I won't." He was taken aback but I moved back, tugging my hair behind. Trying not to display emotions which won't affect him anymore and walked away. That fact I could weaken him was ‘disgusting' to him… wow…