58.3- Madness

The ferocity of his aura crushed me to surrender and not provide him a further reason to go harsh. 'You are mine, okay?" He murmured, taking my hands, kissing them before continuing his action. Sniffling, I nodded, noticing how crazily he held my hands, he kept kissing them for a long time as if they were his veneration. He was scaring me. I had seen him hysterical before but this one was directed towards me and it was scary…. He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath with his lips latched to my hand before pulling away a little and securing our hands besides my head. "Bear with it." He whispered, not allowing my mind to comprehend but he gripped them with an intense force. "Sebastian, you are hurting me, loosen your grip." I whispered, trying to move my wrist but his force was extremely tight. "Shh, it's alright." He hummed, kissing my neck, the side of my face to let me relax but I couldn't. I could sense his sinister intentions. 'Mine." He hummed, pecking my lips. Shifting, he cracked his knuckles which horrified me, knowing he won't hold back which he didn't. "Sebastian!" I almost screamed, shutting my eyes, trying to bear but he didn't allow me. He kept my struggling wrists chained. I was locked. Bearing with his extremity. 'You belong in the darkness with me," Groaning, he didn't spare any recognition of my state. Closing my eyes, I whimpered, moaning loudly, gripping his hand tightly, trying to catch my breaths but couldn't. He continued, hurting me, rage melting to his harsh thrusts. 'He- he can't take you away. You hear?" He whispered, biting my earlobe, increasing my heartbeats when he slowed down to regain his composure and breaths. 'Eileen is mine after all," He mumbled, leading his tongue from my ear to my shoulder, biting it. Bringing an electrification to my body. "She won't take me there…" "Where?" I asked, trying to conceal my sound. Turning my head away, giving him more access unintentionally, making him move to my neck, kissing it intensely, hungrily with a fiery passion. "Hmm.." He hummed. Closing my eyes, the sensation of his lips drove me insane, surging the lust in me as well. "He won't take you away." But, before my body and soul could sink into the sensation of it, Sebastian slammed roughly again, making me gasp and arch my back with my voice echoing in the muted room. 'Sebastian, No!" I cried, powerless to subdue the pain. 'He can't! He can't! He can't!" Sebastian shouted, hovering over me, forcing me to open my eyes and look back into his mystifying ones. "You hear?! You belong to me!" He yelled but his voice broke doing that, he couldn't take it anymore. My eyes widened in utter flabbergast when I saw Sebastian had tears in his eyes. The thought of him taking me away brought tears to his heartless eyes. Everything stopped at that moment, my mind halted all the functioning. The sensations of anger and disheartened dropped instantly. Of all the people, Sebastian had tears in his eyes. "No, no, no…" The sound of his pants was clear, leaving me stunned, his hands on my wrist, bruised but the moment I saw his tears, I was not myself anymore. He stared furiously into my stunned orbs. Was he that frightened of losing me? 'Se-" 'HE CAN'T STEAL THE WOMAN I LOVE!" The wrath of his tone echoed in the room as a tear from his eyes fell on my cheek, stopping my breaths. He was growling, he was heartbroken, stopping as if he was frozen, unable to control himself or continue anymore. He couldn't hide his sorrow behind the facade of lust. 'I WON'T LET HIM!" He shouted, he could shatter any moment. Startling me at his unforeseen breakdown, pulling out. His lips were shaking, his soul was. His vision was stolen by tears, sniffling to suppress his sob. My body was numbed to the point I couldn't raise my hand to comfort him. How could the unbreakable break? He lowered his head, pressing his forehead against mine, blaring breaths stinging my ears because he was clearly trying not to cry. His eyes closed, moving his hand and sewing our fingers together gently and after countless struggles, he broke. 'He can't take my love away from me." Confessing after fighting a war with himself, he released another tear. Impotent to bury the talks he kept inside I didn't know for how long. He shattered. "Don't take my lover, my Eileen away…" Sebastian broke into a wail, embracing my cold skin tenderly, he snuggled, cracking into a sob, releasing the anguish he was collecting for too long. A few tears rolled down his cheek, hiding his face in my neck. He didn't want me to witness his breakdown but stopping himself from falling apart was unfathomable. 'Don't... Divorce me…" His crumbled voice came, gripping me tightly as if letting me go would scatter him. "Everyone leaves, don't become everyone… Stay… I need you…" Releasing muffled cries, unruly tears rolled down his cheek to the point I could feel his tears soaking my shoulder. 'Please…" He whispered desperately, I couldn't speak, I couldn't open my mouth let alone react to his ravage as we remained like this. My heart was ripped, tears silently rolled down when he sobbed thunderingly, he didn't hold back his unknown anguish. He wailed badly, very badly. The sound of him crying wrecked me badly too, how can I witness his devastation? The moment stopped entirely before his raze- how can I not? 'I beg you, Don't take away my Eileen. She is all I had left." He freed the agonizing sound, moving his hand and pulling me into a tight hug. Moving to the side, he curled into my arms like a child who hid from the monsters inside his head, holding me with trembling hands. His wails pricked my heart terribly, I couldn't bear it. It was his first cry. His first sound. 'I love her." Closing my eyes, a mute gasp released my lips, hearing the words I was dying to hear from his lips but bearing his breakdown was beyond my ability. "I love her, I love her, I love her." He repeated, affirming his statement. Losing my posture, I moved my hand slowly and hugged him back. Shutting my eyes more, I melted into him, losing my existence and ended up sobbing silently as well. I became his hand to comfort him for the stings he never showed. 'I love her so much, I can't lose her. Take my everything but not her…." He continued, confessing the love he was hesitant to accept all this time, falling from the abyss, losing his identity. He realized he had nowhere to go anymore. I was all he had. He liberated the confession which was locked on the edge of tongue in the lonely night. I witnessed his intensity, and unable to bear it anymore, he passed out in my soaking chest after releasing his madness.