62- The Start

'And this is how it all started and here we are…." 1 Week Later Life felt like a blur, everything felt heavy and unwanted, my mind was wandering, I couldn't fathom my actions or perceptions anymore. Everything felt empty, I didn't know what to do anymore, it felt like I had stopped on an abysmal path and everything around me was nothing but pure darkness. It was so unbearable. Exhaling, I was at the seashore, staring at the passing waves with devoid eyes. Sebastian went to work and being alone at home was suffocating me so I came here to indulge in the passing waves until a voice called me from behind, breaking my rhythm. 'Hey." Turning my head, I saw Asad there with a feeble smile, hands resting in his pockets with a mysterious look which perplexed me. 'What are you doing here?" I asked, wrapping my arms around my sides, exhaling deeply and turning my head away. My jaw clenched to remember Sebastian truly didn't trust me and on what basis- I didn't know. 'I was asked to check up on you." He replied calmly, standing next to me with his eyes affixed on my void features. 'Ruben, was it?" I sighed, no having another option to wonder who else could ask him to do that. 'What are you thinking here? All alone? So far from home? Where is your Sebastian?" He asked, ignoring my question, turning towards the sea as well. 'He is at work, I told him to stay and let his scar heal but to no avail. He just went." I exhaled, not looking back at him, the water was lull-providing. 'I see. But you shouldn't have come so far." He said, almost concerned but I exhaled because I asked Sebastian before coming here as well. 'You don't have to be vexed about it. Sebastian told me I can go." I replied impassively as he hummed. We both stood there in silence, staring at the sight before us. The lack of words were comforting, the silence was peaceful as I desired that peace to reach my core too. I needed it badly. Exhaling after a prolonged silence, Asad turned to me slowly, 'Eileen." I gradually lifted my gaze and met his, he was distressed slightly followed by another expression I was unable to encrypt. 'I know there must be countless emotions stacked in your chest, confusion and worry. Everything must be in a blur, right?" He asked tenderly, emitting a momentary compassion which bewildered me. He was not amusing, he was serious. 'It is. I don't know what to do anymore, I don't know what I should tell him. I am afraid." I nodded feebly, biting the inside of my cheek, wondering what happened to him. 'It's natural to feel this way when countless emotions strike you at once." He whispered, curling his lips upwards, turning to me, enhancing my confusion at his mien. 'I didn't know what to do. I don't want to lose him and by each passing second, it feels like I am losing him." But, not complaining, I told him what swirl my mind was going through, rendering me unable to grasp my cognition. 'It's going to be alright, My Lady." He smiled, taking a step closer to reassure me but none of his words could fix or help the point I was standing on. 'That's the problem, nothing is going to be alright!" I snapped, taking my fury at him, curling my hands in a fist. My voice raised but inhaling my fury, I paused, folding my arms and turning my head away, 'I will lose everything before I will realize it. Nothing is going to be fixed." I muttered. It was not that I didn't want them to be fixed but I had a terrible omen that they wouldn't be. 'None of it is going to happen, believe me. I won't let it." He smiled, trying to comfort him but his words meaningless because he became the core Sebastian evoked that perception. 'Why would you help me? Why are you helping me in the first place?" I asked rudely, affixing my gaze on the sand, curling my toes to grip some sand to relieve my stress. 'I promised someone that I will help you, no matter what." He told me seriously which caused me to arch a brow in amusement, 'Ruben?" I asked with a faint smirk. 'No." He shook his head in denial, staggering me because under all circumstances it wouldn't be Sebastian and Sofia didn't know about the tribulation I had faced yet so who could it be? 'Then…?" I asked, narrowing my eyes. 'Doesn't matter who, allow me to fulfill my swear." He sighed, resting his hand over heart, returning a small but sincere smile. 'How…?" I asked vaguely, wanting to know desperately what could help me in this state as I needed it as well. Holding his chin, he pondered for a few seconds before turning to me, 'Umm… Why don't we start from the start?" 'What do you mean?" 'I know you will feel hesitant but I want you to open up to me. Why don't you tell me everything, how it started and everything to get a better grasp of things and understand them better?" He asked in a charming tone, holding his hand out for me to open up to the person my husband resent. 'Tell you… everything?" I asked again, not sure about it as well. Of all things, he was Sebastian's enemy, right? 'Yes, I know you might not feel okay at first but this will help you. Believe me, I will." He insisted sweetly but returning a frown, I turned to me. 'Even if I tell you, what is the guarantee you won't make our tale notorious? That you won't tell the world?" I asked seriously. At my question, his features dropped dead dire, perplexing me but seemingly my question offended him. With a stern expression, he came closer. 'I can be insensitive, My Lady, but I am not cheap." He enunciated. 'Besides, what am I supposed to gain by ruining an already ruined man?" He mumbled, turning his head away, sighed and waiting for my response. I didn't recommend recalling what happened in the past, not after giving those scars to Sebastian, we were supposed to place it behind it… Then why did I want to tell him? 'Can you do that? Do you still remember how you guys reached this point? Believe me, I only want to help." He said softly, hoping I would understand. 'Everything… clearly." I nodded, my heart clenched when what we faced till now flashed before my eyes in pieces, amplifying my aches,increasing the tension I was trying to place behind. His one question doubled the sensation of agony I was subduing and I realized for my solace, I had shared my untold feelings. 'Then, how did it all start?" He asked, ready to offer me his help in order to let me take a step forward in life. And losing my mind after ages, I smiled, turning at the water. Lost, anguish, stressed, I lost before my own self and uncaring about everything, I began to tell him. 'Me and Sebastian were engaged for months, we used to call, talk for hours but never had an official meeting, just family dinner or parties but all of it was beautiful." I began to tell him what I felt before our marriage. Everything was like a fairytale where the wedding would be the happiest ever after but that was when the true horror started. 'Yeah, Ruben told me about it, we all thought it was an infatuation, he wouldn't actually marry you but he proved us all wrong." Asad chuckled, sharing his perception about what happened as well. That explained why his family was missing at our marriage- he didn't tell them. 'I didn't know if he was acting or not, I didn't know what we had before marriage meant anything to him or not but I gave all my love and sincerity to him." Whispering, my grip on my sides tightened, my breaths constricted around my throat. 'But, sadly, things were not as beautiful as I expected them to be." Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath and began to tell Asad how it all started at Memorable Events, starting my story when all of it came before me, still fresh and vivid. "I should have known what I was bargaining for that day..." Tell him how I became Eileen Stellios from Eileen Lior.