26- Unwanted Thoughts

~ Sebastian~ I was in my workplace, sitting on my seat, leaned back with my dagger twirling around my fingers with a scowl plastered on my lips, disturbing the flow of my thoughts. 'Then, how come my voice is reaching you when you can't hear it in the first place? How can my words make a difference or change your perspective when you cannot hear?" I grit my teeth when I heard her words. Tightening my grip over my dagger. 'Dammit, shut up, shut up." I muttered under my breath, ignoring the screams from my victim because of a certain female. 'Ahh!" The man I captured who couldn't pay my debts screamed when Jacob and Dave were ripping his nails but it was not satisfying me for now. 'Did you say something, Boss?" David called. 'Nothing." I mumbled, turning my head to the side while they continued to torture him and my mind was elsewhere. 'No!!" Begging me for life but I couldn't hear his voice. His screams were muted and I loved hearing nothing from this weak mouth. ‘Then why the fuck her voice is echoing in my ear!?' 'Please… I beg you, I will return your money, I swear…" He sobbed but I ignored him, my one leg over the other, sleeves rolled perfectly with a few buttons opened by the heat. 'Leave it, you wouldn't understand." I don't even want to understand! My rage was enhanced when I heard the voice, a soft murmur I have never heard in my entire life and it was disrupting my whole functioning. It's frustrating. "Why such obsession with me?" 'Ahh!" Another scream and it was the last string of my patience. He is affecting my trails of undesirable and foreign thoughts and I resented it. 'Why don't you stop your screams and listen to mine? They will be worthwhile too." 'Goddammit, shut this damn mouth!" Growling, I threw my dagger at him, hitting him right between his brows, killing him instantly with the bullseyes. But, honestly it was directed to the neglect echo in my mind and not him. I don't want anyone to stumble upon my abyss, not even that woman of yesterday. They are mine, I belong there. No one can steal my solace from me. 'Boss?!" Dave and Jacob gasped at my rash action but I am not in the best of condition at the moment. 'Boss, we weren't supposed to kill him. Henry Days was a well known businessman, it could affect us." Dave reasoned, not liking my hasty action but glaring at him to seal his mouth, I rose from my seat. 'Do you think I care? We will cover it up. Don't give me crap about it." I asked coldly, rising from my seat. 'Still, Boss. Is everything alright?" 'Shut up, Jacob, don't piss me off." I scoffed, resting my hand in my pockets, giving him a death-stare to not mention this topic. 'Clean this mess." Ordering, I walked out of the basement with a scowl lingering over my face. I made a fist with a clenched jaw, my mind was lost in unwanted pondering. 'Is.. everything okay, Boss?" Elyna came after noticing the growl over my face but rolling my eyes off, I didn't bother to reply. I have been a man of desires and instinctive actions but rash reactions were never a part of me and all because of that damn woman. Oh, she will pay for daring to raise a dysfunctioning in my ability to fathom. How dare she. 'I am exhausted, I am going home. Take care of things here." I ordered, pulling down my sleeves, grabbing my coat from Elyna and wearing, buttoning my shirt. 'Okay…" She trailed off, taken aback to see me like this but sighing deeply, I tried to regain my posture and satisfy my thirst of fear so I could stop whatever the hell was happening. Feeding on her fear is my only option left to tranquilize the storm I have recently and unintentionally gained. She gave me those sensations and she would be the one to eradicate them. Shaking my head, I rubbed my temples and went home to rest for the time being. Entering, my eyes fell upon my irresistible wife, talking to her friend on the phone and was taken aback when she saw me. 'I'll talk to you later. Sebastian's home. Bye, Sofia." Cutting the call immediately and rushing to me. Perturbed to see me early, fright coming to her delicate features instantly. 'S-Sebastian? You're early." She whispered, averting her gaze, tensed by my very presence. 'Hmm, I am tired." I hummed coldly, rolling my eyes off and going to freshen up first before having dinner. We had dinner in silence but I couldn't help but to stare at her from time to time. She was visibly fretting in my vicinity yet found a way to pinch my nerves every time. She was afraid yet possessed the ability to raise her voice against mine. She is weak yet strong enough to stay the closest to me and not lose her mind. Why can't I taint her? She is so pure, why can't I stain that soul? The one I wanted the most… "I-Is there something?" She asked timidly after noticing my intense gaze upon her. "Nothing." Muttering, I looked down, finishing my food. Exhaling, I shifted my thoughts and continued our dinner before going back to the room to relax and lay down for the time being. Later, I was on the bed, using my phone but noticed Eileen was about to leave the room so I called her to refrain from leaving. You were daring to enter my home, right? Now, stay. 'Where are you going, Eileen?" I asked, not looking up from my phone. 'To make a cup of tea." She trailed off, looking away. 'Do it later. Come here and sit with me for now." I ordered and she had no intentions of disobeying for now after her fatuous attempt to leave.