37.2- Brat

'Eileen-" He tried to call me softly but I flinched, not listening to him. I was slightly disturbed to imagine his reaction too but I couldn't help it. I became like that whenever I got sick and it was merely testing his patience. 'Go away! Go!" Don't go. I cried, pulling my pillow, my tears soaking it, shutting my eyes firmly. Thankfully I warned him before our marriage already that taking care of me whenever I am sick would be challenging. 'Go!" I was sobbing silently, hoping it would subdue the burn in my body but to no avail. I was crying like a baby, not wanting Sebastian to truly leave me in this state. He took the day off for my sake then he should stay with me. Sniffling, I was crying until I sensed Sebastian moved under the duvets and shifted closer to me, wrapping his arm around me to flip me to his side. 'Get away. You are scaring me! Leave me!" I yelled, I was about to hit his chest but he embraced me firmly to ensure I won't get out or move needlessly. 'Shh." He hushed me dominantly, fed up by my behavior, holding my arms, frowning at me while I was making a crying face. "No, get away from me. Go far away from me." I hissed. He stared at my terrible and teary face for a few seconds with ire. Wanting to leave me alone to suffer. "Papa!" I cried, releasing a tear again. He was frustrated with my visage but soon his eyes softened, exhaling his fury but the irritation was still present on his face. 'Stop making that face and blow your runny nose. You look terrible." He muttered, giving me the tissue box as I blew my nose but the tears stayed near my eyes, sniffling continuously to not cry again. I turned to the side again, not facing him anymore and to hold my pillow but he hugged me from behind, placing his one hand under my head and the other on my waist. 'Dealing with you is sometimes exasperating, you know?" He murmured in my ear, pressing his chest harder over my back while taking my hand in his. 'Then don't. I am not even asking you." I uttered rudely, on the verge of crying again. 'I don't want to either but the sound of your cries are annoying. I had to stop them somehow." He hummed, holding my hand, circling his thumb on the back of my palm. I didn't know whether he was referring to my voice he heard or this tantrum. 'Call my Papa. I want my Papa…" I repeated, blowing my nose again, tears blurring my vision as I quivered. 'He is coming, he will be here before you know it, okay?" He murmured, kissing my shoulder tenderly. Turning me to face him again, pulling me to his chest. I held his shirt instinctively, hiding my face in his chest. His one hand was caressing my shoulder as his other hand was in mine to hold it for reassurance. We remained like that, I looked up slowly to his aesthetic features, always stoic and unfathomable. ‘I don't remember when was the last time I saw him smiling purely or in fact, have I ever seen him smile purely in the first place?' 'Sebastian…" I called, tightening my grip on my shirt, placing my head over his heart to feel his rapid heartbeats. Were they always enhanced or holding me like that made his heart thump? 'Hmm?" He hummed, stroking me to help me calm down until Papa and the doctor came. 'Why did you stop?" I asked innocently. I was perturbed about his well being too but breaking the mesmerizing rhythm we created was unwanted too. I wanted to continue but his abrupt action ruined everything. 'I don't know what took over me…" He sighed, not telling me what actually happened, what caused him to pull away after he was the one who initiated it in the first place. 'Didn't you like it? Did you want me to be scared?" I asked again, curling my lips downwards. My heart skipped a beat when I asked it because I was afraid of the answer. "Am I only desirable whenever I am afraid?-" 'No, that's not it. It was not about frightening you." He spoke up immediately, slightly disturbed that I thought this way but that was the only explanation I could think of. 'Then what? Why did you stop when I.. when I…" I paused, averting my gaze, hugging him firmly, completing my sentence. "I.. wanted to continue…" I mumble, praying my voice won't reach him but it did. 'I don't know what happened either. I didn't mean to rupture that moment. I wanted to continue too." He whispered sadly, taking a strand of my hair in his fingers, pulling me closer. 'You did?" I asked, looking up instantly with an unknown gleam coming to my face, my eyes shone for a moment. I was delighted to know he wanted to share a beautiful moment too. That was another matter, he was the one who broke it. 'Yes and since it was me who ruined it, I will make it up for it too." He whispered, kissing the top of my head which stiffed me. It was a normal action yet my heart began to pound, a strangely weird sensation took over me. It felt ethereal. His action was brief but the affection for it froze my body. The sensation of when I felt protected and relaxed in his arms. The sweetness of his one action of kissing my head made me blush madly. "You better will…" I murmured. Curling my lips upwards in a shy smile, imagining how beautiful it would be to share the moment again. I nuzzled close to his chest, curling my toes. Not knowing what was happening to me as I kept holding him, closing my eyes as we remained like this.