49.2- Her Deepest Desire

'Ah, Sebastian!" I shouted at the unforeseen action, falling down roughly on the bed. Before my mind could register, he held my ankle and pulled me down to lock me under his strong arms. 'Sebastian." I called him breathless. We both were panting from running, sweat glistening over our forehead, he held my arms beside my head, hovering over me to ensure I won't escape again. 'What were you saying, hmm?" He asked seductively but the enraged features were etched on his face but they were not like his usual ones… he was playful too. He looked beautiful like this. 'I said nothing, you didn't let me say anything." I pouted, rolling my eyes, not liking him cutting my sentence before I enunciated to everyone what he said. 'You are forgetting your limits day by day, don't you?" He murmured, biting my earlobe, sending a shiver down my spine which brought a scarlet shade and feeble smirk. 'What are you gonna do about it? Hit me?" I asked teasingly, giving his hand a tight squeeze to recall what happened when he tried to hit me. 'Don't test me, Eileen." He warned, pulling away little, lips curled downwards. It was clear- He hated what I did to him and I loved it. 'Don't do this," He threatened and he meant it. He didn't want me to witness what he could do or endure for my sake and it made me feel special that I was where no one could imagine. Not removing my eyes from his face, words came out on their own. That was when I realized why he spoke those words to me because when you drown in one, it escapes your lips on your own. 'You're so exquisite, you know?" I whispered sincerely but unintentionally copying. But, I swear, It came on its own. Like the first thought when you feel connected to someone. 'Even this sentence is mine." He frowned, thinking he was using his words on him deliberately but this one was involuntary. His frown made me chuckle, maybe I was his exception after all. I doubt they could see this playfulness in his eyes. Unable to control myself, I moved up and kissed his cheeks. He was staggered at my action, loosening his grip on me instantly so I freed my hands but couldn't push him off. He was too heavy while he was lost at my action. 'Get off from me now. You are so heavy." I whined, tapping his chest, making him pull away from me. He stared at my features for a few seconds intensely. My enlivened mood washed away slowly, noticing the keenness traveling in his eyes. He didn't know himself what was happening to him. It was becoming clear now, I could see it. He was stuck between the abyss he called his home and my world. He maintained eye contact for half a minute, pulling away painfully slowly while I was waiting for him to speak, but he didn't and turned to leave. 'Where are you going? I thought we were going to spend the day together." I asked innocently, holding his wrist. If he couldn't say it didn't mean I won't let it happen. 'You said to take a day off." He replied faintly, averting his gaze, not meeting my eyes anymore. He didn't like what happened, it made him hesitant. He wanted me to stop… like always. But, I can't stop either. What do I have anymore now? I only have my Sebastian. I tightened my grip on his wrist, 'I said don't leave me. Sit back, why are you always in a hurry to leave?" I asked, placing another context in my sentence which he didn't notice. Why are you always in a hurry to rip us apart? Why do you always want me to stop? Why do you want to maintain distance? Am I a stranger? Questions were at the edge of my tongue but somehow I couldn't release them. 'Since when do you want me next to you anyways?" He asked, looking from his shoulder at me, catching a small glimpse of my face as I pulled his wrist down. 'I do, now." Whispering, our eyes met intently, lips parted, breaths entangled and I allowed myself to sink into those oceans. Moving my hand over his bandaged ones. Maybe I am his exception or else why would he punish the hand which had tortured countless people but when it came to me, it punished itself. With my one hand, holding his injured one gently, I moved my other hand to his cheek, cupping it. I began to pant, indulging in the sensation of his pricking beard followed by a link I maintained with all my devotion. 'Sebastian…" I called, moving my thumb slowly which made him close his eyes to lose his identity in the sensation he received from my hand. Placing his hand over mine, he pressed my hand harder on his skin to give him the perfect sensation of it, not opening his eyes while he hummed, 'Hmm?" 'Do you hate me for making you listen now too?" I asked, noticing the profound expressions I had never seen before. Something was truly changing him, doing what he couldn't control and I wanted him to tell me but he didn't. 'I hate myself for listening to you in the first place." He whispered, moving my hand down to his lips, kissing them. Eyes closed to feel every inch of my skin brushing against his properly. Caressing his lips, I pulled my hand down, making him open his eyes and lock his arresting orbs with mine. 'But, I love it. I want you to be like that forever. For me, just for me." I whispered, moving my hand down to his chest, feeling his heartbeats were moving rapidly to my rhythm. "Trust me, Eileen. I am only like this with you." He confessed again, losing his breath, when his eyes opened, they were scanning me continuously with haunting desires. His response made me smile and I told him my unspoken desire, what I wanted to happen in a corner but never spoke, "I want you to be too." 'Be like this with me only, make me your exception, be what you are not to the world with me. I want you to be like this only with me, Sebastian." I confessed, breaths halted for a second, searching for an answer which could satisfy me. And he gave me one. He smiled. The most purely exquisite I had ever seen. I didn't need to ask, to doubt. It was a sincere one. His smile gave me solace I lost hopes of receiving, at that moment, I forgot the world. Smiling beautifully, Sebastian leaned closer, resting his forehead against mine, hand tied together to never part again, fulfilling my deepest desire. "I will be, Eileen."