56- The Surprise

The next day, I was in the lounge, staring at my cup of tea, losing my mind. Each time I think I was getting closer to Eileen, I pull us apart badly. Gritting my teeth, I wanted to call Eileen back but I had no idea what I would say to ease her the anguish I invoked at my outraged statement. Plus, I broke my phone. Sighing, I didn't know what to do, I needed to divert my mind and to enhance my tension, Sufiyan came. 'What happened? You seem distressed." He asked casually, taking a seat, using his phone. 'Sufiyan…" I called him with a long sigh. 'Hmm?" 'Why are you doing this? You know that the lands were separated for our own betterment by Valencia. You stay where you belong." I asked about work, hoping it could help me shift my mind from Eileen. He smirked, putting his phone away, studying my stoic features. 'Valencia and her world died twenty years ago, Sebastian. This is our era, our time. We are the rulers of the land we own and greed exists in all of us, we all could do anything for our own gain." He shrugged, extending his hand out to display the change which happened. 'Hmm. I guess you are right." I hummed, turning back to my tea, taking a sip of it while his smirk grew wider. 'The only person who has changed is you. You are not who you were. All of us were prepared for your attack, to build your gravestone in this land but look at you. All silent." He snickered, shaking his head in disappointment at my lack of activity but I couldn't leave Eileen alone with Asad too. 'Why do you all hate me so much?" I asked coldly, putting the cup down and turning to him. The devilish image I created, the dominance I managed to induce was slipping away. I was losing myself. 'Are you asking why? You deserve all the hatred, man. You had imprisoned Alphonse, you had killed his soul. You had tortured people in the worst way and no fucking reason." Sufiyan growled, reminding me who I was and what I did. 'Worst way? I don't recall them screaming ever." I muttered under my breath. None of their voices reached me how Ruben and Eileen's did. They were not miserable enough. 'Besides, You guys are not saints too. You are no kind nor our work requires it." I mumbled, reasoning logically but Sufiyan's amusement wiped away. 'But we kill for a reason, we torture for a reason, not because we enjoy it. And most importantly." Leaning forward, he glared at me furiously, clearly resenting me, giving the reason why I deserved all the hatred. 'We don't kill people of our own." My heart skipped a beat but I maintained my assertive posture, recalling why I was notorious in the first place. I killed people we called our own. 'We don't hurt the ones near our hearts and you never hesitated to break the one you love, Sebastian. You ripped your own Brother's eye out." He hissed, pointing his finger in contempt, throwing me into the shame I never showed. ‘I was punished for it, I paid for my actions.' I couldn't tell him. Sufiyan rose from his seat, looking down at me in disgust. He didn't want to talk to me anymore. 'That is why nobody wanted to work with you. When your hands didn't tremble to hurt your own blood then how will they hesitate before hurting someone else?" Hissing the true reason behind the detest I managed to grasp from everyone, the fear I evoked in everyone, he walked away. But, his talks made my heart clenched because was right. When my hand didn't tremble to make Ruben scream then how I would stop when Eileen would call me. I couldn't control myself…. "Yet how could you choose your own lover to break?!" 'I just wanted to be important to you." "I love you, Sebastian…" I could never… All I ever did was to break her heart. What can I do for her sake? Were my hands going to tremble before hurting her? Am I going to hurt her again? Infuriated at myself, I wanted to redeem the leftover shred of hope I had left in a hidden corner and got up and went to see Dave and Jacob. 'Jacob." 'Yes, Boss?" 'We are going back." I ordered with a clenched jaw. I had already lost my life before my own hands but I won't let it be. 'What? Already?" Jacob asked, frowning. 'Yes. Let Dave stay, he will take care of things and let me know if there is something important or any changes." I hummed, moving back, not wanting to stay here and saw Zaviyaar coming with his usual dark smirk. 'Okay, I guess." Jacob trailed off, not thinking much about it. 'What? Going back already? Should have brought your woman along if you can't spend a few days without her." Zaviyaar chuckled darkly, giving my shoulder a rough pat. He was indulging in my vulnerability. I swear, these brothers piss me off simply by existing. 'Thank you for your unasked and unappreciated reasoning, Mr Sheikh." I scoffed, yanking his hand away, frown deepening. 'You're welcome." He laughed and left. After he left, I sighed and turned to Jacob again, ordering, 'We are going to Paris first." 'Aren't we going back to London?" He asked, perplexed. 'Not yet. I have some work in Paris first." I mumbled. There was something extremely important which I must do first in Paris before going back to London. The outcome of Alphonse's tale was in my hands. *** After staying there, I went back and didn't tell Eileen about my arrival as well. I wanted to surprise her. I wanted to see whether she would be delighted to see me or not. 'Aren't you going to call Madam and let her know you have arrived?" Jacob asked while we were coming back. 'No, I want to give your Madam a surprise. I have infuriated her enough." I smirked, thrilled to see how she would react. 'Why don't you give her a present too?" Jacob asked. 'Of course I would." My smirk grew wider because I got Eileen a diamond necklace with the letter ‘S' carved on it. I wanted to give that to her. 'Also, Jacob, repair my phone too, you know I rarely use my phone so I forgot I broke it. Get it fixed, I haven't called Eileen too, she must be worried." I sighed, giving him my broken phone. And I had no intention of calling her with the number I use for underground dealing. I rarely use my clean phone anyways. 'Okay, Boss." I went to Eileen first, I bought some flowers and some chocolates for her. Noticing how my heart was thumping, wanting to see her, I entered her place, upholding my charming posture. 'Hello, Ma'am. Is Eileen home?" I asked gallantly. 'You're.. Okay?" She asked vaguely, taken aback at my arrival. 'Yes, I am perfectly fine. Is there anything wrong?" I asked, arching a brow in confusion. 'Are you going to surprise her?" She asked again to which I nodded, 'Yes." 'Oh, now I see. She left an hour ago." She smiled again but I was bewildered at something which she understood that I didn't. 'Thank you. Where is she?" I asked, not interested to know anyways, I just wanted to see my Eileen. 'You should know it, She went to Ruben's place." She smirked, folding her arms but I didn't like how it sounded. Why was she where Asad is? I knew leaving her alone would be a terrible idea. 'I see." I trailed off. 'Do you want to wait for her?" 'No, I can't wait. I will go to her, just don't tell her I am back, I want to surprise her." I shook my head, letting it slide this once because I wanted to see her badly. I didn't want to enrage her further than I already did. 'You might wanna bring her some ice-cream, would help her a lot to melt. She was angry with you." She added, returning a faint smile. 'Thank you, I will." I nodded and left, dying to see her and make her listen, I wanted her to hold me, I didn't want to watch her slip her out of my hands like Ruben. 'You sound so excited." Jacob smiled when he noticed my delight. I couldn't help it. 'I am, you better record her reaction after seeing me out of the blue, holding flowers and smiling for her." I told him strictly which took him by astonishment, not expecting this from me. Neither did I but I had already lost Ruben, I won't lose her too. 'You will do that?" He asked, thinking he heard me wrong but I turned to him with my eyebrows furrowed together. 'Why wouldn't I?" He blinked, regaining his senses and returning a smile, 'I am happy for you, Boss." He said sincerely, lowering my head, I hummed again. 'Me too." I mumbled, laying out the scenario which I would display. I would show her a whole new world today. Shaking my thoughts off from the fact she was at Asad's place, I didn't want anything to ruin my mood. I went to his place, taking a deep breath and noticed Eileen's bodyguard Sam was outside the place. Sighing, I shook my head and was about to knock but heard Asad's voice. 'I don't understand why are you bothering to stay with Sebastian when he has done nothing but to make you miserable?!" Narrowing my eyes, I thought my mind was playing deception on me in order to make me miserable but to no avail. 'Can't you see there is no hope for your pathetic marriage?!" But when he spoke again, my eyes widened. I agree, I had never shown her affection, gave her love, did anything to gain her cognition but calling it a pathetic marriage was… hurting me. 'Stop…-" Eileen's voice was low, I couldn't hear what she was saying but my heart rate dropped when I could feel him taking my precious away from me again. 'Enough. I am your lawyer and I know what is best for you, Eileen." I took a step back, the exhilaration on my face vanished, trying to comprehend what I heard. 'You are going to divorce Sebastian." And breaking my last ounce of patience and the emotions I gained after a devilishly long time, I grit my teeth, looking away and walking away, unable to hear further with one question in my heart- ‘When you are so near then why holding your hands is too difficult for me?'