63- Notorious, Once Again

~ Sebastian ~ Anxiously waiting at the café shop, I was about to take an action I never fathomed I would but for the necessary, it had become important. 'Hey." Sofia's voice called me hesitantly, taking a seat. Thankfully for Eileen's sake, she forgave me but was still intimidated by me. 'I need a favor from you, Sofia, badly. Please." I breathed out, coming to the point instantly, not having time to make a chit chat. 'Is everything okay…?" She asked worriedly. Inhaling, I mentally prepared myself for my request, 'Ask Asad to help Eileen so she could forget everything behind and give us a new start. You're the only person he would listen to," I knew they were not on favorable terms but I had experienced what one could do for the sake of their exception, the scars on my back have become a proof of it. Even if her request would mean nothing to her but he would do everything to make it reality. 'What?! Why? N-No, I can't do this. Why would I ask him? I can't." She panicked, shaking her head in denial. I didn't want this either but sadly, I need his help. 'Look, I know you are on terrible terms with him but it couldn't be as worse as mine and I am terrible at handling emotional matters, Sofia. And the only person who could help Eileen to come out of her emotional distress is him." I explained the situation to her hurriedly. Handling emotional matters was beyond my reach and the man who was proficient at toying with one's emotion could fix her upheaval. 'But-" 'Trust me, I didn't want it either but I must. For Eileen, do it for her sake. Do it for Eileen, Sofia, I am asking this for her." I whispered, clenching and unclenching my hands, I was fucking trepid. I, Sebastian Stellios, the Black Black was trepid. What do you do to me, woman? I never thought I would be this desperate for one's acceptance this much. 'Why would I? You don't even love-" She was about to refuse flat out but sighing loudly, I gave her a simple explanation of my action. 'If I didn't then why do you think I would ask you this?" I asked seriously, staggering her, she didn't think things would develop to this point, judging what happened when I was away. I broke her heart over the phone and then I... 'Fine, I will tell him." She sighed, agreeing to help me for her friend. I truly didn't want Asad's help but only he could help her to break her restraints. 'Thank you so much. Also, please don't let her or him know about it." I requested, sighing in relief that she would help me. 'Okay." *** 'Sir, Madam is with Asad at the Ruislip Lido Beach. Your orders?" Sam informed me, my heart clenched but I bore with the feelings. Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath, hating my next words, 'Do nothing. Leave her be." 'Yes, Sir." Cutting the call, I shook my head, letting her do whatever she wanted. I didn't want to make hasty actions in the spur of emotions anymore and create more distance than I already did. Shaking my head, I focused on work for the time being and returned home in the evening where I came to know she wasn't home yet. Growling, I tried to control myself but since the word ‘control' was foreign to me, It was hard to comply with. Extremely hard. To cool my mind, I took a warm shower, hoping it could divert my mind but to no avail, I wanted her to look at me, to talk to me but I knew I was not the best person for it either so I must leave things be. Changing just into my trouser, I stood in the room, using my phone to play candy crush to help me set my mind elsewhere. Soon, the creaking sound of the door being opened came, my back was facing her, I was engrossed in my game, not wearing a shirt or bothering to soak my hairs with a towel either. My heart began to thump, urging me to stare back into her eyes, dying to have her smile at me, wanting to tell her about my day but couldn't bring myself to do it. 'Where were you?" And ruining my internal desires, my dominant tone came, using my phone, giving my attention to my current level on candy crush. 'By the seashore. I needed liberation." With a cold reply she was standing behind me. 'Hmm?" I turned it off, knowing how much it pissed her off whenever I played it. She hated the game I love the most. Throwing my phone over the bed, I glanced over my shoulder, arching an eyebrow perfectly. Curling her lips upward but emptily, her eyes fell upon the marks on my back. Those thirteen beautiful marks. Dragging her nails on them, she asked, 'Does it hurt?" My eyes narrowed with a mixed anguished and enraged reaction because I expected softness from her, not that cold yet I decided to give it some time. It won't happen overnight. She dug her nails deeper on my back, 'Do they sting the way I want them to?" She asked temptingly. 'If you want them to sting then I will make them sting for you.' Again, I gave her the same reaction as she stopped for a second. 'Do they stain your skin like I wanted to?" She hissed and I had no idea what I did this time to make her infuriated. But, instead, I lowered my head, curling my lips upward in a sincere smile. 'No, but they are definitely beautiful." I whispered, sharing the true perception I hold about them. They are not scars to me. 'Because they remind you of your cruelty?" She asked with a cold smirk, narrowing her eyes in disgust. ‘Please don't look at me like this. What did I do?' 'No." Lifting my head again, I locked my eyes intensely with hers, praying the unspoken words of my soul could reach her one day. Completing my sentence, 'Because ‘you' made them." Turning her head away, furious at the response I provided, she lacerated my skin with her nails enough to make them bleed. 'Tsk." She scoffed, utterly against this idea in the first place but I was unable to stop it either. I chuckled at her fury, "Now, they hurt." Smirking at her failed attempt, I pissed her off more. 'I don't fucking care." Scoffing, she turned to leave but I continued to smirk, 'Nor I asked you to." Rolling her eyes off, she was about to leave but I grabbed her wrist, worried to fathom what he told her to the point she was furious with me. 'What were you doing with him alone?" I asked strictly. 'I don't want to make my misery notorious but I couldn't resist the urge either." She responded dryly, unable to stare back profoundly into my eyes anymore. And that was why she was enraged. Because she remembered the start, how I used to be, how badly I treated her- In fact since when I had given her a single shred of happiness? It all came as fresh and was stinging her. 'Is that what you think our tale would be? Notorious?" I asked sorrowfully, not leaving her wrist, instead, my grip tightened. 'When I was telling him, I realized that there weren't many points which we could call mesmerizing." She recalled, pricking my chest that I failed all the vows I made at our wedding. 'I agree but it was a passing night at least." I whispered, taking a step closer. I was boring the pain in order to place it behind us yet she brought the sight I intend to perish.