29.2- One. Last. Time.

His expressions twisted into pure pity, contemplating me from top to bottom. "Eileen…" Unsure how to react, mouth gaped to search words but couldn't. "For a bare heartbeat, I might, just might share this darkness with you but the fear you engraved overcame my love." Losing my posture, I held his shirt, forcing him to stare directly into the soul he broke for his own selfishness. "My terror is far greater than my love for you, Sebastian Stellios." His eyes widened, for a bare minimum second, a blended emotion of hurt- for the first time- flashed in his eyes but it was not masked by his cruelty. He was trying to fathom my condition for the first time. "And that's your deepest desire, isn't it? Misery. Witness my misery now." Impotent to stack my grief inside anymore, I shifted closer to his laps, not leaving the hem of his shirt, breaking into a sob. "Enjoy now!" Pulling his shirt, I ended up crying my anguish out. "Eileen, You're only exhausted because I was rough. That's why you're only being emotional. Go to sleep." Murmuring, Sebastian brought his hand closer to cup my cheek and settle me down but I slapped his hand away. "NO! I don't fucking care about sex! I want you to be the man I married! I want the man who loved me!" Yelling, I hit his chest. My suppressed tears began to release themselves uncontrollably, taking out my anguish. 'Eileen, stop…" He sighed, averting his gaze, unable to respond properly to my devastation. He was confused, he had never dealt with an emotional disaster before. He didn't know how to deal with an emotional breakdown. 'No! Hear my voice! I want my voice to reach you!" Shouting, I held his face, forcing him to stare into my misery and listen but he couldn't. For the first time, he doesn't want to witness his deepest desire. "I want my Sebastian! I have no fault! I don't deserve to be a part of your menace. Why would I bear it too!? I don't want to!" Screaming, I began to sob badly, tears gleaming on my face, exhausted from his constant malice, his visage which is stealing my breaths painfully from me. 'Enough!" Raising his voice breathlessly, losing his posture, he grabbed my wrist, glaring at me to stop but losing my mind, I pushed him down on the bed, getting on top of him, holding his shirt. 'You stop it!" Shouting, I pulled his shirt, sobbing my agony out to release the weight collected on my chest. 'The man you married is a deception, Eileen. Get this tiny fact inside your damn mind. Get that fake image of mine out of your mind. You are only hurting yourself by this." Sebastian growled, trying to push my hand away but I didn't let him and kept holding his shirt, lowering my head, my tears falling on his shirt. 'But.. I am.. Innocent… let me go.. I don't deserve this… I don't belong here… I am a normal girl with normal dreams… just a girl who wants a happy married life… who is someone's wife not prey… Don't I deserve it?" Whispering, I lost my posture, my voice, sobbing silently. Wiping my eyes, I took his hand and pressed his finger on my lip, "Taint my lips too but please be the Sebastian I first saw… Return my life to me…" I murmured hopelessly, not in my senses anymore, my eyes began to feel heavy from the constant wailing. "You do realize I am a criminal, right?" He asked, pulling his hand away but gritting my teeth, I growled, "You are also the man I fell in love with, Asshole!" I was about to shout again. I was going to make him listen to my screams but he covered my mouth. "Stop, Eileen. Just. Stop. Please." Whispering, his one hand covered mine as he wrapped his arm around me with the other hand, pulling me down to his chest, removing his hand from my mouth. "No… you stop…" Whispering, I held his shirt. He shifted me to the side, embracing me with both of his hands tightly. "Shh. Don't speak anymore. I have heard you… Stop now…" He whispered huskily, desperately. "Please stop, Sebastian…" I was crying innocently, holding him firmly. He didn't reply. Snuggling to my neck, holding me rigidly, protectively after a devilishly long time. "Sebastian, say something…" Wiping my tears, I forced my trembling body to relax and look into his arresting eyes staring softly, desperately, and compassionately at me. "I have heard you… I have heard you.. stop now.. stop your voice… please…" His voice broke, tightening his grip around me. Hiding his face in my neck to escape his inner demons. Losing his breath. "The don't do this to me…" I whispered, closing my eyes, resting my head weakly on his chest, calming down in his rigid embrace.. "I am exhausted…" Murmuring, I was soothed. Not knowing when I will receive the chance to gain his warmth again so I relaxed. "It's alright. Sleep…" He mumbled affectionately in my ears. shifting me under his one arm as he ran down his hand to my hair with the other one and wiped my wet tears. "I am tired, Sebastian…" I trailed off, unable to speak further, my eyes felt heavy, clutching onto his shirt desperately. "It's okay. You can rest…" He hummed on my neck. He was humming a low, soft melody but it was soothing. It repelled my fears for an instant and I was unexpectedly focused on the tranquility. He hums this tone himself whenever he is bored but I don't know what it is. But, it gave me serenity after taking my grief out for the one last time. He held me close as if he would shelter me but how can he when he is the demon of my nightmares? "Hmmmm…" I released a long hum too, my eyes couldn't open themselves anymore as darkness began to surround me. Before I knew it, I fell asleep in the arms of the man I was petrified of…